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The other day I had a dream about my partner and I playing our shared sims world, but somehow the ghost of Dan Howell from Dan and Phil (He wasn't dead, but somehow astral projected into the game) had hacked my sims and he was living in my sims game

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Not sure if this is unpopular opinion or whatever.

If I can taste your deodorant or perfume or aftershave, whatever you are wearing, just by sititng near you, especially on public transport, there should have consequences.

I'm not deciding the consequence, but you should have them

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I had a dream last night that I fell asleep crying and begging to the greek gods. For what, I don't remember, but in the dream I asked for forgiveness and I can only hope they granted me it

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Oh no, I completely agree that they both made mistakes and tbh it's all quite toxic, I'm not bashing Aziraphale for that, and being stuck in that situation and cult is 100% why he acts that way same with Crowley but the thing is, or how I see it is while neither of them are healthy about it, Aziraphale isn't going to take that risk, and it's in the end not good for either of them. They are the only two people they've relied upon aswell all this time, which isn't healthy, I'm mainly only pulling it down to basics because I didn't want to write a huge post, the effects of being stuck in a religious cult and being paranoid and struck by fear are huge plays in it, but they in the end aren't where either of them need to be to be together, Crowley has lost, Aziraphale doesn't want to lose what he has in heavan and we see it in Nina with her relationship, its toxic but she won't leave until shes broken up with, its the same with Aziraphale, and while its not his fault for being that way, he's also still responsible for his actions. Crowley is the same I didn't praise him I just wanted to has a short post

I'm sorry but if Neil Gaiman dares let Crowley just FORGIVE Aziraphale after this I'm going to do something. I'll lose my mind.

Aziraphale has never once fought for Crowley. He fought for Earth and Life and Love and the 'good in Crowley' he never (visually that is) has loved Crowley for who he is, he makes an effort all the time to remind Crowley that he is good and nice even when Crowley doesn't LIKE it or want him to.

Crowley has in some form accepted his Fall. Aziraphale hasn't, and won't and in all honesty they both are shit at communication and I can see Crowley moving on in a sense, not falling out of love, but eventually just knowing its better for himself to not fall back into what he's been doing for the last 6000 years of pining for Aziraphale, of waiting on someone who in the end might finally choose him, but it might be just too late, and not enough and if that's it, then I think I'd be happy if Crowley got closure, even if it's not what he originally wanted.

Neil Gaiman, make Aziraphale work for forgiveness, do not give it to him I'm begging you

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Crowley👏gets👏Muriel👏in👏the👏divorce👏

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I'm sorry but if Neil Gaiman dares let Crowley just FORGIVE Aziraphale after this I'm going to do something. I'll lose my mind.

Aziraphale has never once fought for Crowley. He fought for Earth and Life and Love and the 'good in Crowley' he never (visually that is) has loved Crowley for who he is, he makes an effort all the time to remind Crowley that he is good and nice even when Crowley doesn't LIKE it or want him to.

Crowley has in some form accepted his Fall. Aziraphale hasn't, and won't and in all honesty they both are shit at communication and I can see Crowley moving on in a sense, not falling out of love, but eventually just knowing its better for himself to not fall back into what he's been doing for the last 6000 years of pining for Aziraphale, of waiting on someone who in the end might finally choose him, but it might be just too late, and not enough and if that's it, then I think I'd be happy if Crowley got closure, even if it's not what he originally wanted.

Neil Gaiman, make Aziraphale work for forgiveness, do not give it to him I'm begging you

(gonna add this, I know Aziraphale is in an awful predicament and a religious cult and crowley did stuff wrong too, I'm not forgetting any of that this is just my take on forgiveness and how the relationship might end up in go3, not bashing just my interpretation of a very toxic relationship for both people)

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There are people who love reading, and then there are people who brag about reading. I hate both

I can't read

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Aziraphale has a lot of fucking dancing to do

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To Crowley, Aziraphale had admitted that Angel him was always more important to Aziraphale than who he was, that Heaven would always be Aziraphales saftey net.

I don't think people are talking about how awful Crowley must have felt for Aziraphale to suggest he become an angel.

All along Crowley thought that Aziraphale didn't care if he was a demon, he liked Crowley for Crowley. They were on their side, only for Aziraphale to throw it in his face and Crowley definitely took it as he only was ever seen as a demon, something bad and unholy. That he would be better as an angel again.

That he wasn't enough just being him, and the offer of being an angel was the worst insult Aziraphale could have given to Crowley.

Not only did Crowley fall for asking questions out of frustration that his creation would be destroyed and left unappreciated and how gut wrenching that must have felt, only to fall and be seen as less than, he had to relive that pain and desperation to save them from the apocalypse, just for Aziraphale to still choose heaven, and then suggest he become an angel again, something Crowley would have never agreed to.

Not only did he fall, but Aziraphale handed him the opportunity to do it again, to relive his worst memories

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I don't think people are talking about how awful Crowley must have felt for Aziraphale to suggest he become an angel.

All along Crowley thought that Aziraphale didn't care if he was a demon, he liked Crowley for Crowley. They were on their side, only for Aziraphale to throw it in his face and Crowley definitely took it as he only was ever seen as a demon, something bad and unholy. That he would be better as an angel again.

That he wasn't enough just being him, and the offer of being an angel was the worst insult Aziraphale could have given to Crowley.

Not only did Crowley fall for asking questions out of frustration that his creation would be destroyed and left unappreciated and how gut wrenching that must have felt, only to fall and be seen as less than, he had to relive that pain and desperation to save them from the apocalypse, just for Aziraphale to still choose heaven, and then suggest he become an angel again, something Crowley would have never agreed to.

Not only did he fall, but Aziraphale handed him the opportunity to do it again, to relive his worst memories

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why do we as individuals always think 'Yeah but I'm built different'. Like we whole heartedly believe sometimes that we're different.

I remember hearin about someone gettin hit by a car and thinking 'not me, I'd bounce' like what the hell

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I need to stop warning people to not play board games with me, because now people won't play board games with me and I really want to play

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I thought there would be more hot pies cooling on windowsills than there actually is

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Colleen Ballinger should have just said Swiper no swipping, she would have had more success than that stupid ukulele

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I study Archaeology, and when I was visiting my Godson, hes like 6yrs old, so he thought I work and study with dinosaurs bones and asked me to bring him some home, when I explained that the only bones I see are human, he demanded that I give him some. This is further evidence that children have no moral standing, all they want is cool things. They are crows

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coming back to tumblr after 7 years honestly feels like finially returning home after an adventure in those movies where the group is traumatised, littered with guilt and loss, and home isn't necessarily better than it was, but its home and the adventure you had been on is finally over, and you know now the real truth

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Can we please go back to working and living in tribes and small communes, night owls can qork night shifts and do things and the day people can pick up after, things a shared and you are placed where you have strengths. I'm tired of society and the workforce