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Horror Game Protagonist Bracket: FINALS

Finals and 3rd place matches will be open for 1 week.

Welp, we made it to the finals match. Thanks to everyone who voted, liked, reblogged, anything! This was my first ever Tumblr bracket, and it was very fun to create and run. Might do another bracket, but not immediately after. Thank you all so much!

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Knowing that trans women of color started the movement in the united states and were literally immediately erased and excluded from what they started is the most deeply jading knowledge.

It is the original sin of the so-called queer community and it damns it from the cradle.

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[Text: This user's innerworld is extremely complex, vivid, and detailed from hyperphantasia.]

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Trashstack HCs cause they deserve the world and more. Just ch2 cause they're so special to me

Ben is a recovering alcoholic [it 1990s style] and so Richie makes it a habit to not drink around Ben, even going as far as to (not so gently) urge the others to do the same

Richie is so clingy and you cannot tell me otherwise. With both of their wonky work schedules, as soon as they can actually spend time together Richie is clinging to him like a koala

Ben picked up pottery in the many years he had to cultivate a career. He has his own studio and Richie goes absolutely apeshit watching Ben work on the wheel. Probably shirtless idk Ben seems like he'd do that

Bev plays mediator for everything. Being Ben's ex-girlfriend and Richie's partner-in-crime, she hears everything from both sides. Has to at least do one miscommunication intervention

The media know Ben and Richie are 'friends' but there's been no confirmations- and Richie goes crazy with it. Instagram posts with Ben obscured and a caption about a boyfriend- vague hints about a boyfriend during interviews. Bill is so tired of being asked about Richie's secret boyfriend

Ben is a workaholic, absolutely no idea when to take a break. Richie decides to bring Ben to the happiest place- Disney World. Ben is infatuated with the mechanics of the rides, especially trackless ones. Richie just wanted to meet Cinderella and Ben is geeking out about shit

Ben cooks and he cooks GOOD. he makes Richie dinner once after Richie admits he eats takeout and like... nothing else. Richie almost cries because oh fuck this is good shit

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Shoutout to all the hosts who thought arguing with the guys in your head was a normal way of “thinking about things” 😭

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why be a "fiCtiVe hEAvY sYsTem" when you could be "world's stupidest crossover episode that nobody asked for"

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Hey guys hot take. If you're not a programmed system with number programming- don't use number names? Maybe? It's not that hard. People fail to realize how incredibly insensitive and frustrating it is to see people try to validate this- you do not and will not know what we and other number programmed alters go through. It is an abuse tactic used by a high-control group, not a fun name for you to use. —025-86

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bichie red/blue stimboard with clay cracking and arcade stims for anon

art by @vvanini !

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Signs of having DID that I ignored (note that these are not exclusively signs of DID but they were for me):

I don't have amnesia, that's just short term memory loss because I have ADHD!

I actually have a very good memory, I'm great at memorizing things (what do you mean that's not the same thing)

sure it may seem like my mood changes drastically but I've read online that's common in people with ADHD! it's hard for us to regulate our emotions!

so what if I have different preferences from time to time? that's normal right? like when your mood changes you may prefer different foods? what do you mean that's not the same as going from "I hate spicy foods" one day to "omg I LOVE spicy foods!" the next?

yeah okay I tend to space out in the middle of conversations then come back to and need you to remind me what you said for the past 10 seconds or so. that's just my ADHD inattentiveness. what do you mean that I only do this when stressed. what do you mean that's a form of dissociation.

speaking of dissociation, sure sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself say and do things without my own input but that's just because I was tired/stressed out

yeah sometimes I go on autopilot. my autopilot seems to have its own agenda sometimes though. weird.

sure I changed usernames a *few* times but isn't that pretty common? yeah I also wanted to change how I presented online and also my pronouns and stuff but again isn't it common for people to want to start over sometimes?

*making multiple accounts to play the same game because I play the game differently on different accounts and don't want to mess things up on one account*

oh yes, I'm genderfluid! I say that because my gender absolutely changes from moment to moment and sure it seems kinda tied to other aspects of myself like color preferences and energy levels and personality traits but I'm pretty sure that's just par for the course with genderfluidity?

"you're so different when you're around your parents vs when you're at school/work vs when you're hanging out with friends!" yeah that's called being a complex person we all have different masks we wear in different social situations and I'm no different even if it seems more extreme for me

"how was school/work/the hang-out/going to visit your parents?" I don't know I'm tired and have a giant headache and can't remember

"you said this to me the other day and it made me feel <x>" what????? I literally have no memory of this and that's so incredibly out of character for me wtf I would never do that I was probably just really stressed out and tired and had no filter on.

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Rice Krispies smartest decision is by far their Treat. Turning their cereal into a strange brick relies on the natural fact that all children are hopelessly dependent upon the ingot.

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Apples are so fucked up you can get two from the same pile ans one tastes more like an apple than anything youve ever eaten and the other tastes like water poisoned by pharaohs

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so we’ve experienced something and i have a question because i have. no clue. what is going on

usually when we get super upset, sometimes this thing happens where main front is suddenly. nobody. its not an alter it doesnt have an identity. its kind of just there. makes us numb

does anyone else have this or…

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stozier stimboard with purple, white, birds and books!!! requested by nobody I just love these 2. art by @ssymphoria !

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plural culture is

"what is your name. what is your NAME. PLEASE just tell us your name. WHAT IS YOUR NAME"

"wouldn't you like to know, weather boy ;)"

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