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Mass Effect: Andromeda + Planets

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A MIND full of questions, a current to PURIFY — Science and visions

                                             indie sci fi multi muse - written by Hope

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Evfra: Ah! I was hit in the tit!

Ryder: Uh... Commander, I don’t think you know what that word means.

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also. it was mentioned in a reblog of the previous post in answer to that anon, but, calculating the worth of yourself or your friend’s blogs/fic/art based on followers is a very efficient way to make yourself and your friends feel like shit

i have been writing fanfiction regularly since i was 14, and original fiction on and off for the past several years, and none of it comes close to how the success of a “””big name fan””” is usually measured. i have a few dedicated readers, most of whom are my own friends, and that’s generally the audience i expect. and that isn’t a bad thing. it can be disappointing, because everyone wants to feel appreciated and like their time and effort has been worthwhile, but after a certain point you have to have some self awareness

if you compare the responses you get to others in the negative, that is a form of self sabotage. it just is. especially if you are prone to self destructive habits

i can’t tell you to “just get over it” or anything of that nature because blah blah they’re neurodivergent, harold blah, but i CAN tell you to exercise good habits with regards to your own mental health

a) cultivate a small circle of people who make you feel good about your stuff, and write/create/blog for them, for yourself. any attention you get after that is icing on the cake

b) if you catch yourself obsessing, step away from tumblr for a while. better yet, turn your phone off completely and take a bath or watch a movie, whatever. something that is completely and in every way removed from the internet. return to it when you’re ready. if you aren’t ready when you’re done? keep it off, and do something else. scrapbook. watch your quote unquote cringy show (helpful hint: cringe culture is bullshit, do your own thing and let the haters stew in their own juices)

and c) if you catch yourself getting anxious or symptomatic in response to it, withdraw yourself from the situation and practice self care. maybe do some grounding exercises or deep breathing. whatever you’ve gotta do. your own health is more important than the attention of hypothetical people on the internet

and finally, and i’m saying this as somebody who absolutely does this too and i’m very aware of it, thank you, but defining yourself by other people’s approval is never a good thing. you are constantly going to be questioning your own self worth and chasing after an elusive goal. you will never be satisfied, because outside approval is entirely outside of your control. it isn’t predictable. it isn’t safe. and in the end, you are going to end up in the exact same place you are now, with just as little to show for it

LOVE YOURSELF, PEOPLE. BE KIND TO YOURSELF, YOU’RE THE ONLY YOU ANYONE IS GOING TO GET, AND YOU ARE WORTH HANDLING WITH CARE

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--// talk about angaran burial customs with me. ))

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"Just hang on..."

My muse is dying!! Send “Just, just hang on…” to hear their last words to your muse as they die in their arms!!  

Hang on? Hah. So optimistic. Evfra was stubborn, but he knew when the end was coming. With no more family to speak of, his memory would be lost the dirt of this planet, and he was at peace with that. His people would need to continue fighting without him. 

Evfra lay weak in Karaa’s arms, feeling the stars call to him. Blood seeped from his mouth and nose. His lungs were damaged, but he could still speak a few final words. 

“Karaa, tell Jaal and Do Xeel to keep the fight going,” he croaked between strained breaths. “We can’t give up. We--” A cough cut him off. “Do Xeel will be your new commander. I think she’ll like you.”

As his eyes shut, he uttered, “Stars light your way.”

It was funny. He somehow thought he would die alone.

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codeoftheforest‌:

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She looked at him and squinted. ‘Liar’, she signed slowly making sure he saw it by sticking her head in his field of vision. ‘You thought it was hilarious, just admit it, I’m comedic genius!’ She looked quite proud of herself. ‘So is there anything else you wanted to tell me? My spore drive experiment is still waiting for me.

Even as he looked at his data pad, his eyes caught her words just fine.

"I wanted to ask about your work. With the Remnant, I mean. The Moshae has been too occupied to inform me,” he admitted, as grumbly and monotone as ever. Though, maybe a little more so from the annoyance at needing to ask someone else for help. “What’s the status? Any progress?”

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--// Just noting that while this blog is in hiatus, Evfra is still available on the main blog, @bluesunsdusk ))

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The Scream, Persistence of Memory, the Creation of Adam

Artwork Asks

The Scream: How easy/hard is it for someone to startle or make you lose focus?

“I don’t lose focus, and at this point hardly anything manages to startle me anymore. Enough to startle me would have to be just short of a new alien finding Heleus and landing on Aya first thing they arrive.”*

*Statements may be exaggerated. 

The Persistence of Memory: Do some people consider you to be a weird or strange person?

“Yes. Let’s just keep it at that.”

The Creation of Adam: What is your favorite story from Mythology? Do you have any favorite Fables or Fairytales?

“There’s hardly much to pick from with the scourge having destroyed most everything before the war took what little was left, but I am from Voeld, and the tales of the yavara mean much to me and my people. I used to try finding them on their migrations. Far too dangerous for my family to approve of most days, but I found them.”

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Karaa looked up and straightened up. ‘Karaan Ta’ she signed her fake name with no hesitation. She didn’t expect the boss man to notice her on her first day but oh well. She had made enough research already to hopefully not be discovered too quickly. It will be a good test of her disguise too.

A short hum left him, a crooked frown tugging at his lips. He didn’t recall that name. Strange, were it not for the new people coming in and going out as chaotically as they had the past few days. Though, surely someone would have informed him of anyone new to be specifically stationed by the HQ. 

“Who is your superior officer?” A question he knew the answer to, and several others also would, but he needed to be certain of who to inform of this minor error in communication. 

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@codeoftheforest [in reply to x]

Evfra would be amused… if he remembered what that was… okay, he was amused, but he’d be damned if he let her know that. Evfra merely stared at her with a blank expression, one of only mild interest, then let out a soft, “Hm.”

After that, he turned his attention towards some information his people had brought in and left on his desk before he’d returned from a meeting, and stated, “I was talking about myself...”

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To all RPers:

Take as damn long as you want replying to shit. You don’t owe us shit. Your health comes first. You’re choosing to share a vulnerable part of yourself with us and sometimes that’s really hard! Don’t you fucking worry.

We love you!

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gcdgiven‌:

“why haven’t you been more active?”

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Honestly “thanks I hate it” is one of the funniest phrases in the English language

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Me: *wakes up from bad dream*

My brain who isn't finished with me yet: Evfra has no family to celebrate a victory against the kett with.

Me: Bitch... He has been adopted by half of angaran society, and Liam would never let anyone like him be alone like that, and you can't change my mind.

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A friendly desert community,

where the sun is hot,

the moon is hot,

and mysterious lights are hot,

everything is hot, this is a desert.

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--// Also, unrelated, someone asked me to make a tutorial on how I draw Angara, and idk how to make tutorials... ))