dilarasstudy

[dilarasstudy]

failure

Now in my fourth semester of law school and halfway through law school people oftentimes congratulate me and say, that I’m going to be a good attorney, judge etc. and that I did it. That I should be proud of myself. And sometimes I am proud of myself and my accomplishments.

But more often than not, I’m not proud of myself. Most times I feel like I don’t deserve and belong in law school. I think, that I don’t study hard enough and that others are much better than me. Whenever I can’t grasp a new topic I feel like an utter moron for not understanding something everyone else seems to be understanding.

And that’s the point everyone else seems to understand it. But you never now if they don’t struggle with the same things as yourself or have their own fears of failing a class. Because most times they do, you just can’t see it. Everyone’s struggle seems invisible, but so promise you, that you are not alone and that you are not a failure. And most importantly these people are right, you should be proud of yourself for coming this far, even if there is still a long road ahead of you.

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Overachiever

People often tell me, that I'm an overachiever and they don't mean it as a compliment, but I take it as one, because it’s nothing bad to set your goals high.

I personally think, that being an overachiever is one of my best characteristics, cause it makes my dreams more than just dreams, it makes them reality. And if I couldn’t achieve the things I wanted to achieve I know, that I tried my best and used all my resources.

For me being an overachiever is not about being the best in everything, but being the best in the things, that matter. So that I can study law in the near future and not that all my grades are straight A‘s, because for me, a working class child, it is overachieving to dream about becoming a lawyer or judge, cause neither my mom nor my dad studied and they did not have the resources to finance extra tutoring for me or my siblings, but in the end I did. Because I dreamt big and did all I could to make this dream reality, so that my children can be more privileged and won’t be called overachievers, if they want to go to uni.