dillonlou

[dillonlou]

sometimes her laughter plays in my head, not how it sounds but they way it feels like tea in the winter a warmth in my chest thats spreads to the tips of my fingers and I imagine her with me again our arms wrapped like blankets sheltering our little flame

[dillonlou]

The concept of forever does not scare me

in a world where I constantly feel like I'm out of time

so let me tattoo your name to the walls of my skull

that way I won't forget what it feels like

to have you as something permanent again

in my mind, at least

d.l

[dillonlou]

22/02/18

Somehow we met again today and it took everything within me not to look at you the way that I used to, to stop myself from noticing that everything between us felt so different and so much the same, that it made my heart turn and my legs weak, that I could feel my knees shake out of habit maybe that was my body trying to  stand up for itself after already being broken, maybe those butterflies in my stomach are just what countless nights spent trying to swallow the thought of you leaving feels like, maybe that lump in my throat is pride trying to claw its way back out to tell you that maybe all of this  is because of you, that maybe I still miss you the way that I used to

d.l

[dillonlou]

Hi. I was wondering if you could lend me some advice on how to get over someone I never dated?

The same way you get over someone you have dated; endless nights binging on cheesy netflix rom-coms, a shit load of strawberry cheesecake ice cream (Ben & Jerry’s, you can thank me later), copious amounts of time confiding/pouring your heart out to your closest friend/s and getting closure from said ‘someone’ (although I totally understand this is not always possible but it’s definitely a helpful bonus). Also a creative outlet or hobby does wonders. Try writing, or picking up a new book or learning an instrument!

This is all under the assumption you’ve actually tried to initiate dating with this someone and if not, well .. what the heck are you waiting for?? 

[dillonlou]

I finally realised how two people

who were so much the same

could hurt so differently

and it came down to the fact that

at the end of it all

You had left a void -

And I had filled one

d.l

[dillonlou]

Your lips are stained with sin

and never have I so badly wanted

to taste the Devil

d.l

[dillonlou]

Shapes

I used to think we completed each other

because we were so alike

but you can't finish

a puzzle

made up of all the

same pieces

d.l

[dillonlou]

Conflagration

I want to learn how to catch

fire with these hands

so that on the days it feels like

your heart is but a soft glow

I can set your soul alight once more

d.l

[dillonlou]

Lilac and Gooseberries

You are a garden of sweet things and bitter things and the nervous strum of butterfly wings beneath my chest.

You are lilac and gooseberries and cherry blossom hues smeared across sunsets, that settle against your skin.

You are a mountain that I cannot move; so instead I make a home of you. I set up camp at the base of your rib but I keep getting lost trying to find my way to your heart.

You are an entire universe compressed into a woman and I drape myself in your existence. You smile affection like a daydream and wear it like a halo. You chuckle and it sounds like music. You laugh and it sounds like the next 60 years of my life. You speak as though there are constellations stuck to the roof of your mouth and although there's nothing but space between us, I hang onto every stardusted word that dares to leave its print in the sky.

You are all of these things

And none of them.

d.l

[dillonlou]

Are all your work about the same person? Your writing is amazing.

For the most part they relate either to:- myself (most of my older posts)- an ex-partner of mine with whom I shared an amazing long-term relationship with, or- a girl I recently met who I was lucky enough to be able to spend a brief but wonderful romance with

[dillonlou]

Trinkets

I still think about us sometimes through the “thank you’s” and “best wishes” And I still keep a box of all the things you gave me tucked away in a spare room behind my smile. It’s filled with all of the habits that I keep forgetting to return to you,  like the way you can’t look love in the eye or the way your words tremble, and fall,  in the face of affection. I wear them as my own now and I’m not really sure if I should give these back because you look so beautiful without them.

d.l

[dillonlou]

Icarus

One day that little light inside will start to dim and you’ll likely find yourself huddled around smoke and embers of  something that was once ablaze And so we make the mistake of lighting fires in other people hoping they’ll share some of the warmth. Instead she gave me wings, let me fly too close to the sun and watched as I fell, wondering if she placed these stars in the sky.

d.l

[dillonlou]

i only know you from your writings, the way each word flows against the others. yet as sad as it is, i find them comforting. you bring a certain solace to the despondency. i wish that i could swim in your thoughts, drown myself in your art and mind. how picturesque it would be to float with the tides of your depictions and imagery. however, i am very content to be able to read each piece, and i will continue to wait for every future creativity. hehe

haha my mind is not a place you’d want to be, I can assure you of that. But I’m so glad you see it that way - I do like to think there’s always beauty in the undesirables (pain, sadness etc.) and I try to reflect that in my writing. Thanks so much for the kind words, they really mean a lot. I’ll try and be consistent with my pieces I promise!

[dillonlou]

You had oceans hidden beneath your eyelids and a pool of ardour in your gaze I wanted to drown in your stares  to see if hope would still float

d.l

[dillonlou]

Are you in a relationship atm? I love your style of writing btw! Pls dont ever stop writing! :D

Uh the short answer is no I’m not. Actually, the long answer is still most definitely no, I am not. But thanks! I’m trying to write as much as I can these days so hopefully I’ll keep producing more pieces 

[dillonlou]

[dillonlou]

What keeps you going through life?

Food, family, friends and the potential guilt of making everyone feel like shit if I was to go away on a permanent holiday