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bored & sad

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I feel like I am accountable for what happened because I was there. I didn’t like it & it wasn’t my intention but it doesn’t make sense because I was there. I’m scared to hear things from him & to be acused of things I don’t remember but it could be the truth because I was there.

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Hello. I just wanna say that I hate whenever I disappoint you. It makes me sad. I hope there are ways that I can tell you how I do not want to just follow your way. I’ve always looked up to you and have always been proud of you, never would ever regr et that in my life. But I hope I can be as sensible as you are in my own ways. I apologize, I didn’t mean to invalidate you. I respect you more than you’ll ever know.

Things I can never tell you | midnight ‘22

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Comet (2014)

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Bago ‘to ah.

‘Yung hindi ako makatulog sa dami ng gustong mangyare, sa dami ng gustong gawin. Nangangarap na ulit ako at naniniwala.

O talagang marami-rami lang talaga akong naipahinga simula ‘nung nilagnat ako. Lol.

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September 7, 2022 | 12:24 AM

Finally, somebody who wants to hideout with me. Cant wait to have our own space next year, to travel places, to earn money, to create memories, to eat new foods in different country, to spend ‘meh’ days with you, to go lazy in Sunday afternoon, to make the world a better place for cats. And to every doors we’re going to open. You are the love of my life.

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To you my beloved Claire, I miss you and our random acoustic sesh or just you playing guitar beside me. Singing beautifully and then I’m just there silently pretending its usual to me or that i'm not blushing and yeah thats how i'm assured how much i've fallen into you because really I can spend forever being just that way with you. 

28/02/22 | 1:50 pm

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Oi, ang laking bagay na may nahanap akong kasundo ko sa prinsipyo. Imagine, i mean, what if hindi ko close itong si Dane. As in, lahat ata ng visions na mayroon ako tugma sakaniya. 4th year college palang kami, he had plans na to build a company with me talaga until grumaduate na kami’t lahat, naging workmates kami. From us being a dreamers way back 2018, man, SEC approve na kami! BIR na next. May dinadrive kaming corporation. All from scratch, I can still remember that night sa likod ng Adventure ni Dane kung paano namin binuo nila Kuya Elvin plans namen sa harap ng convenient store, AllDay tk be specific, sa likod ng notebook ni Kuya Elvin. No joke, nanginginig kami sa kaba at excitement. It was fun, the thrill we had or still having. I’m really blessed having meet people who are helping me on my career growth, sharing same visions and principles. Malaking bagay ‘yun kasi if ako lang nako baka until now burnt out ako to be an employee nga to a company who doesnt care benefits you. And yeah, grateful nagtitiwala saken ‘tong sila Dane at Kuya Elvin. I mean, what have i even done? Hay, i think we’re gonna make it, kung hindi man at least we had an amazing experience as this. Its remarkable eh, i’d tell it to anyone.

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I always like talking to people ‘bout just random things. Then after, i’d run to my girlfriend telling her na baby i just realised something while I’m talking to *insert a name*.

Wala, it suddenly occured to me lang na wow i really can tell Claire anything without hesitating. Kasi for a time talking to people parang careful ako or are we all that careful when talking about matters in life. Baka ba kasi maka-offend or not same ng insights mag lead lang sa bad communication and sa debate.

But yeah, with Claire, it’s just different. She’s my home friend den talaga siguro. Even before na we’re not dating she’s the one i can always run to because i know she wont judge.

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The first attempted date was in a crowded cafè, as an introverted humans we left and ended hiding in a cemetery, she used to smoke back then. She looked pretty cool as I remember I told her i could try; but after that day, I never saw her smoked again.

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Crying kasi my baby is here beside me sleeping while embrwcing me tight thank God i have claire who’s loving me bsck i just love her so fucking much

Its 2:49 am she fell asleep mid of the ep S2 ep 3 of Breaking Bad. 15th of june almost finished her thesis. My tired baby is so fucking doing a hell of a job architecture is really meant for her u kno i’m so proud

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Napakahirap ng simula. Anu’t ano pa man, kampante naman ako na magagawa ko lahat ng ‘to. I’m kinda proud of myself for having the courage to start a business partnership and a construction corp at the same time. Keeping a smooth sailin’ journey, never rushing yet I feel like i’m diving unprepared. I’m still on it, tho. I have tried being an employee two times at the wrong company or maybe they wasn’t wrong all the time. Pwedeng I am just in a wrong place. I’ve learned my story and I just can’t settle in another company with all these principles. I had known my name, I’m gonna stand to this beliefs. I think it’s safe to say that I am already a part of general contractor team; Inline Construction, Corp and a General Director of fillhere.ph. Yey!

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there is no ‘right time’ there is just time and what you choose to do with it 

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i’m so stupid. just when everything’s finally going well between us i suddenly literally asked her to move in with me. wtf, dude.

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she used to say she found me interesting. she wont talk to me daw if i wasn’t. guess i’m not interesting anymore ever since the day i told her i like her.