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I’m torn posting this because I do not wish to cause any uncomfortable or bad feelings for anyone. But, I have to stand up for myself.

It has come to my attention that @wistfulweaverwoman has written a malicious post about me and a discussion we had. In the post, they misconstrued a lot of what I had said to them. They degrade my takes to being ‘weird’ ‘half baked theories’ ‘bullshit’ ‘projecting your own shit on these characters and then calling it #cannon!!’, and for this, I will not allow or stand for.

The issue was once again if the D2 kiss between Gale and Katniss had made her feel sexual feelings. And, I’m honestly so over it being a line of controversy for me. My take from now on is if you think she was, that's more than okay. I will disagree with it, but no longer further discuss it. IMO, I was respectful and kind in my disagreement, and stating my opinion. Perhaps, I was too haste in mentioning how SC would’ve not wanted the readers to interpret the D2 kiss like that. For that, I will take it back. The rest, I stand by.

If this blogger had the courage and decency to tell me about their offense in our discussion, I would’ve elaborated more, recognized my error, and taken it back. ATP, there was no indication of their offense, I was under the impression there was no issue.

When I’m wrong, I own up to it. And I take accountability. I apologize. Always. But I refuse to be written like this or allow it.

I tried brushing this off, and not allowing it to get to me. But I can't. I will take a small break from my Everlark blog. I appreciate all of the wonderful and funny people who I’ve encountered, and even consider my internet friends…It’s a beautiful escape from my life, and I appreciate all of those who have liked, reblogg, and/or commented on my posts. I will return later, because it is one of my greatest joys to write about Evelark and read the beautiful and comedic posts about them. And I will not allow anyone to take that away from me. But for now, I am taking a small break. Thank you.

The post where we had the discussion:

Their post on me, and said discussion:

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@tetheredfeathers exactly. Katniss tells Gale that she’ll get Peeta to come, with or without his family, and Peeta basically says he’ll run away with her. And while Peeta tremendously cares for his family, he will always put Katniss first. So, he might end up leaving his family behind if it means for her safety. And Gale deep down knows this. Doesn’t even he say this to him in Trigris basement “you gave up everything for her,” His questions come from the feelings of jealousy and insecurity, and hes trying to corner Katniss about who she cares more about. He’s annoying.

And while he completely pulled out of the plan when he found out about the uprising, his reaction to Haymitch and Peeta is telling.

Can we talk about how beyond messed up it was for Gale to suggest leaving Peeta and Haymitch behind.

“I have to, Gale. I can’t leave him and Peeta because they’d —” His scowl cuts me off. “What?” “I’m sorry. I didn’t realize how large our party was, ” he snaps at me. “They’d torture them to death, trying to find out where I was,” I say.

The audacity he has to snap at her, we're talking about life and death here. The way he openly disregards Peeta and Haymitch's lives is so disturbing, and he out of all people is very much aware of the Capitol's capabilities. Imagine how hurt Peeta would've been if he knew about this, I get that they're not all buddy buddy but that doesn't mean wishing pretty much death upon him just because your jealous.

I get it. He was in love, god knows love makes you blind but this is above and beyond. Especially since Gale is a fairly compassionate person, at least for his own people. I'm saying this because of how many people he rescued in MJ and still felt guilty.

Whereas you have Peeta willing to die for Katniss even if meant for her to go back to Gale, her happiness is all that mattered to him. These are things that really infuriate me when it comes to Gale, while his bomb and kisses with Katniss' are grey areas this selfishness when it comes to love is clearly a fatal flaw.

And then after all this he goes on further switching the scenario in this immature competition of who do you love/care more.

“And me, would you leave me?” Gale’s expression is rock hard now. “Just if, for instance, I can’t convince my mother to drag three young kids into the wilderness in winter.”

And the thing is he's scenario isn't even valid or realistic because Hazelle wouldn't have refused to go with them. Peeta's family is understandable being merchants and all. But Hazelle has suffered and more than knows what the Capitol can do.

There are some things that Gale does that are just unforgivable, and I get that all character's have made huge mistakes but most if not all have some excuse for it ( For example Katniss not talking to Peeta for 6 months, it was wrong but understandable due to the circumstances) while this was just plain selfishness.

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Peeta finding out about the eyelashes thing:

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Omg who’s going to be the mailwoman!? The one who is also bidding against them? I’ll say Gale but😅

no one loves katniss everdeen like i do. if you think you do, please think again. long and hard.

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And they’re both sassy 🤣so they’re going to sass each other out

no one loves katniss everdeen like i do. if you think you do, please think again. long and hard.

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Peeta’s burner account

no one loves katniss everdeen like i do. if you think you do, please think again. long and hard.

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When Katniss feels that hunger for Peeta in the cave, and then on the beach, both moments come after realizing her feelings for Peeta. But my question is: on the night she feels that thing again (the hunger) at the end of MJ, why do you think that particular night? What made that night so different from the other nights she had kissed Peeta?

Right now, my thought process is that it was just a normal day for them, but that normality and the safety she now has, is what makes her body coax out that feeling. It's not so much a moment of realization like the others, but perhaps the result of her healing, thus her mind and body can incorporate those sexual feelings into her daily life now.

What are your thoughts?

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I think this is why the “so after,” is so beautiful and important. She keeps it vague and private, bc it's only for her and Peeta to know what happened. In the privacy of their own homes, can she explore that thing again, the hunger she felt on the beach and the cave. And it's so rewarding for them.

How far do you think Peeta and Katniss would've gone if Finnick didn't interrupt them?

I get that they're modest but they also think they're gonna die and they're teens with crazy hormones. I'm conflicted because, Katniss wouldn't want such a special to be tainted by the cameras, but then again she's gonna die and she's crazy in love.

I think their inherent modesty (okay no they are unhinged, but you know what I mean) would have stopped them, as well as a sense of wanting something to be theirs and if that’s not possible, they’re not gonna do something the world could see … that’s the kind of defiant they are … there’s also a sort of … innocence? to them? in spite of their inability to keep their hands off each other … and also like, I think a sense of grief would also stop them … it’s why I don’t think it’s unrealistic for them to have shared a shower before the Quell and only felt a melancholy sense of human connection … anything more feels OOC

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This would have happened anyway.

I'm just happy Miss Katniss Everdeen can spend the rest of her life counting those eyelashes.

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Omg yes!!!!! When I first read it, I thought the same. It wasn’t until I was a bit older, I realize she was jealous. Bc she throws his hand and snaps at him. And she kinda confronts him about it, bc she's like “so I'm stupid because of what Johanna said while she was oiling her breast” to him, and slams the spoon so hard that food is all over them. But, Peeta doesn't take the hint about what she’s actually angry about. I’m like these two oblivious dorks

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Your post about not taking what Katniss says literally reminded me of something else as well.

We end up on the same elevator with her, and she spends the whole ride to the seventh floor chatting to Peeta about his paintings while the light of his still-glowing costume reflects off her bare breasts. When she leaves, I ignore him, but I just know he’s grinning.

This scene is so hilarious because while I do think Katniss reacts like this because she's uncomfortable, it's also her being being jealous and annoyed that another girl is talking to Peeta naked.

The first time I read I gave her the benefit of the doubt for being uncomfortable with nudity. But then she says this again.

Johanna Mason is naked again and oiling her skin down for a wrestling lesson. I decide to stay put.

“And so I’m stupid for thinking they might be useful. Because of something Johanna Mason said while she was oiling up her breasts for wrestling,” I retort.

The way she bring up Johanna's breasts again 😭😭

Like girly stop obsessing over Johanna being naked, we get it you can admit you don't like your man seeing other girlies.

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@tetheredfeathers haha I believe the first quote you mention is Peeta just being a flirtatious little shit hehe he's making a joke out of the lover's act, and basically flirting with her. He's so charming!! But not confirming if he's madly in love.

The second one, I believe is after he accuses Katniss of only being angry because of her “boyfriend” back in 12. He's not confirming his love, on the contrary, he's avoiding telling her his feelings? Because he says it's just a “bluff.” It's why Katniss doesn't think Peeta might have feelings for her until the Cave, and she's still like “does he???” But it's pretty obvious he likes her, but she's the last one to figure it out lol

I think she's generally pretty honest and truthful, she's just so oblivious and doesn't know everything, so she's unreliable in that sense . But she sometimes over-exaggerates about things, and yeah her words are not supposed to be taken quite literally lol

I swear I was so gullible reading Katniss’s thoughts. I took everything that girl said as truth, even when I knew damn well. For example, Ms. Everdeen had me believing that Peeta announced, in front of Panem, that he was madly in love with her. When in actuality, he just said he LIKED her to Caesar.

What Katniss narrates:

But that was before the Games. Before my fellow tribute, Peeta Mellark, announced he was madly in love with me.

What ACTUALLY happened:

Peeta sighs. "Well, there is this one girl. I’ve had a crush on her ever since I can remember. But I’m pretty sure she didn’t know I was alive until the reaping."

Like Girl, those are not the same things ctfu but 11 year old me was like “omg katniss you are so right, he was so saying that he loves you so much. Omggg hehehehe” like what lmfaol

@waywardangel-wilds your post reminded me of this, and I was like omg I really believed her and everything lmfao

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Frrrrr. Like, girl, you're projecting here 😂 she's so relatable.

She liked him liking her before the games, could she be any more obvious?

I swear I was so gullible reading Katniss’s thoughts. I took everything that girl said as truth, even when I knew damn well. For example, Ms. Everdeen had me believing that Peeta announced, in front of Panem, that he was madly in love with her. When in actuality, he just said he LIKED her to Caesar.

What Katniss narrates:

But that was before the Games. Before my fellow tribute, Peeta Mellark, announced he was madly in love with me.

What ACTUALLY happened:

Peeta sighs. "Well, there is this one girl. I’ve had a crush on her ever since I can remember. But I’m pretty sure she didn’t know I was alive until the reaping."

Girl, those are not the same things ctfu

@waywardangel-wilds your post reminded me of this, and I was like omg I really believed her and everything lmfao

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I swear I was so gullible reading Katniss’s thoughts. I took everything that girl said as truth, even when I knew damn well. For example, Ms. Everdeen had me believing that Peeta announced, in front of Panem, that he was madly in love with her. When in actuality, he just said he LIKED her to Caesar.

What Katniss narrates:

But that was before the Games. Before my fellow tribute, Peeta Mellark, announced he was madly in love with me.

What ACTUALLY happened:

Peeta sighs. "Well, there is this one girl. I’ve had a crush on her ever since I can remember. But I’m pretty sure she didn’t know I was alive until the reaping."

Like Girl, those are not the same things ctfu but 11 year old me was like “omg katniss you are so right, he was so saying that he loves you so much. Omggg hehehehe” like what lmfaol

@waywardangel-wilds your post reminded me of this, and I was like omg I really believed her and everything lmfao

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My heart is shattered 😫bc yeah he’s going to look at their innocence and goodness and not understand why his mother was the way she was with him, and why his dad didn’t do something to stop it.

Mr. Mellark: Parental Failures in a Totalitarian Structure

I was talking with @vasilissadragomir last night about my opinions on Mr. Mellark. (Basically saying that while I would absolutely throw hands with Mrs. Mellark I still need to have some WORDS with Mr. Mellark because I have some SHIT to say to him.)

Consequently, someone on Reddit said something similar about Mr. Mellark so I took the opportunity to really dive into my thoughts about him.

I can understand and empathize with a man stuck in an unideal marriage in a district where, very likely, divorce wasn't possible. I can understand the situations that would have led to him feeling stuck, incapable of confrontation, incapable of changing his circumstances.

But, at the end of the day, we are beholden to the safety of the children brought into this world that have even less of a choice in their circumstances. Peeta (and likely his brothers) all deserved better. That is a point that cannot be refuted. And, in some ways, Mr. Mellark absolutely shares responsibility with his wife in the abuse that his children suffered. Silence is the strongest tool given to an oppressor.

And that's really a HUGE takeaway from the series. In the face of total oppression, the most vulnerable, our children, CANNOT be adequately protected.

Parents of the districts love their children, and yet are forced to watch them march off, year after year to be selected for slaughter, they are forced to watch their children starve, forced to offer up their children's names for slightly more food, forced to watch their children grow to break their bodies in dangerous work conditions, forced to watch them have more children and perpetuate the cycle. There is no such thing as familial protection in this world.

It's why Prim, arguably the most protected person in the COUNTRY died alongside the other most protected children of the country. The Capitol's children. There is no protecting the vulnerable in a state of war and violent oppression.

And here we have Mr. Mellark. Clearly a kind, gentle man. I can't imagine he is content to watch his children suffer. I can't imagine that he is okay with the abuse his wife puts on them. But he CANNOT AND WILL NOT protect them. And, in the world of the Hunger Games, that is BY DESIGN. Even the most loving and devoted parents cannot truly fight their own oppression.

He, and all of his circumstances, failed his sons.

Mr. Mellark failed his children. But I'd go one step further and say that he was specifically designed to fail his children.

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Factssss , this how I exactly feel towards Mr. Mellark. I try to sympathize with him, but his inability to stand up for Peeta just makes me feel so disappointing and kinda mad 😭

Mr. Mellark: Parental Failures in a Totalitarian Structure

I was talking with @vasilissadragomir last night about my opinions on Mr. Mellark. (Basically saying that while I would absolutely throw hands with Mrs. Mellark I still need to have some WORDS with Mr. Mellark because I have some SHIT to say to him.)

Consequently, someone on Reddit said something similar about Mr. Mellark so I took the opportunity to really dive into my thoughts about him.

I can understand and empathize with a man stuck in an unideal marriage in a district where, very likely, divorce wasn't possible. I can understand the situations that would have led to him feeling stuck, incapable of confrontation, incapable of changing his circumstances.

But, at the end of the day, we are beholden to the safety of the children brought into this world that have even less of a choice in their circumstances. Peeta (and likely his brothers) all deserved better. That is a point that cannot be refuted. And, in some ways, Mr. Mellark absolutely shares responsibility with his wife in the abuse that his children suffered. Silence is the strongest tool given to an oppressor.

And that's really a HUGE takeaway from the series. In the face of total oppression, the most vulnerable, our children, CANNOT be adequately protected.

Parents of the districts love their children, and yet are forced to watch them march off, year after year to be selected for slaughter, they are forced to watch their children starve, forced to offer up their children's names for slightly more food, forced to watch their children grow to break their bodies in dangerous work conditions, forced to watch them have more children and perpetuate the cycle. There is no such thing as familial protection in this world.

It's why Prim, arguably the most protected person in the COUNTRY died alongside the other most protected children of the country. The Capitol's children. There is no protecting the vulnerable in a state of war and violent oppression.

And here we have Mr. Mellark. Clearly a kind, gentle man. I can't imagine he is content to watch his children suffer. I can't imagine that he is okay with the abuse his wife puts on them. But he CANNOT AND WILL NOT protect them. And, in the world of the Hunger Games, that is BY DESIGN. Even the most loving and devoted parents cannot truly fight their own oppression.

He, and all of his circumstances, failed his sons.

Mr. Mellark failed his children. But I'd go one step further and say that he was specifically designed to fail his children.

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Then when later he suggested drawing in medics and innocent civilians…like wtf

War criminal.

well, at least he’s consistent