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currently writing a longform anthropological article about “Old Roblox” re: how crazy it used to be as almost a sort of Second Life for autistic kids. been going through a shit ton of old personal messages and pictures from the forums, been a wild (and surprisingly touching) ride. found a memorial to the subsection of the (long since deleted) forums that me and my brother both posted in for years

not only did we both make it in, but i found out the guy who made it is a good friend of mine and put us there cuz he was one of the few people who knew we were brothers irl.

was kind of floored when i thought about the fact that this little piece of history from what is now one of the largest digital platforms of all time still exists over a decade later :,,) hope to publish before moving cross country in june

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Nick Knight: ‘War’ (1997)

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so happy to have found the person i love. for the longest time i was sure i would end up by myself, and i was completely okay with that, but now i find myself unable to imagine life without them. sometimes i laugh at all of the bizarre idiosyncrasies that had to occur in order for us to ever be in the same room in the first place. it is unbelievable to me that we have been seeing each other for almost 4 years now, time sure does fly when you’re having fun

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smoking a cigar in the cold like im winning even tho im losing but in most ways actually winning

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just pray

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they could lowkey bring this side back if they added a slot machine on one side of the timeline. just pull the lever while you scroll

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Fragments of Horror - Wooden Spirit | Junji Ito

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Warped medullary rays found on pieces of wood that resemble animals

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From Napple Tale: Arsia in Daydream (2000)

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bro not gonna lie. week 1 of pseudo-unemployment... i feel like i just woke up from a horrible 3 year long dream.

did some computer work, opened up my sketchbook for the first time in 6 months, picked up bf from work, cooked dinner for us, and now im sitting here with the cat sprawled out on my blanket.

i grinded non-stop for 3 years, got almost nowhere with it except constant body pain and exhaustion, and now that i let it go i wonder why it took me so damn long in the first place.

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feels so fucking good to almost be done at this job. it was a welcome improvement from retail but i have to figure something else out. looking forward to semi-unemployment so i can catch my breath after what feels like 3 and a half years of grinding every single second. i really thought i was strong enough to just endure it forever but im just too hardworking and left myself with no gas in the tank for any of the actual fulfilling stuff in my life. even in my free time i was either nonverbal recovering from mental/physical job-related duress or grinding out writing or whatever else when i felt good enough to work on it. i realized a serious part of me died a few years ago, the part of me that drew in a sketchbook almost every day, played weird games, sought out new movies, and i wanna reconnect with that part of myself.