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see yall around next semester!

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decided to tuned in at 4 am in the morning and i just realised this, and now im tearing over this :(

Miss Fatihah you truly deserved every inch of love in this world i love youu so much thank you for being such an angel for us all <3

lots and lots of love, Doja ^•.•^

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i think i've seen this story before, and i didn't like the ending :/

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girl math is so suspicious, like what is this?

anyways here's my catch today 😻

@najmiescookiedough @skznhaa

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Short Genting Getaway

ft. homies i love them sm

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i guess some things are meant to change,

time heals but time also hurts

i am pretty sorry for everything happens to you and never would i actually taught everything we build together would crumble appart. If i could have rewind the time. i'll be sure to freeze it as well. I knew we sang to each other that

"no matter what, you got me and i got you"

but foolish me to let go first, i just could never see you breaks more for me again. Now you're finally back on your feet and you seems happier, please stay happy and healthy. Never once i stop thinking about you since the day we stay silence, i am just afraid idiot me. I am so worried with your condition but i kept quiet, fool of me i'd said. I hope he is the right guy after all he is your type, i just hope for once you can actually rest and be real happy and taste a peace of mind. I don't want you experience all the hatred you received about me again. Don't ever worry about me, i'll know how to cope myself. Hey, after all im so far from home anyways. I met new amazing peoples here and i truly loved them so much, just as i love you and never once i stopped.

Please don't ever put the blame on yourself, when you know its mine. After all, we are still kids figuring out things like this. Please forgive every tears that you have wasted on me i never once would wish for that, i swear. At this point, i don't even know if you will ever read this why would you right? But if you do, i want you to know that this is my sincerest feelings that i have bottled up and never had the courage to tell you, i loved and cared for you, yet i still hurt you so bad.

I will always cherished and rewind every memories of us, those wonderfull 6 years with you have kept me alive until now. I knew the day that i lost you, i also lost a big part of me that i don't even knew if it could be replaceable. But we are going to be happy right even if we're not together, you have found a new purpose of living now i might be a little lost right now but i'll sure to found one soon. I am sorry that i am not a part of your story anymore, i'll watch it from afar this time and i am sorry for the promises that i have broken and i am sorry just for existing and ruining your heart. Please read this, Please forgive me, Please be happy.

and i am so proud of you for reaching this far

i love you, and im sorry

with lots of love, and a heavy heart,

you're once jantung pisang 💟

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𝑾𝒉𝒊𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑺𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒎: 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝑰𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝑵𝒐𝒐𝒅𝒍𝒆𝒔 𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒎𝒆 𝑴𝒚 𝑺𝒐𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝑳𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝑾𝒐𝒓𝒍𝒅

There’s something about instant noodles that has always been there for me, even when the world felt like it was falling apart. I find comfort in the simplicity of it, and sometimes when I’m sad, I just sit alone and watch the noodles boil. It gives me a few minutes to breathe, to slow down, and let my thoughts settle. I love every part of the process the smell, the taste, the warmth. When everything else seems complicated, instant noodles are there, providing a small sense of control in a chaotic world.

Instant noodles became my comfort food because I always turn to them during the toughest moments. Whenever life felt heavy, whether I was crying about boys, girls, or struggling with family, there was always a bowl of noodles next to me. No other food could comfort me the way instant noodles did except for maybe my mama’s cooking. They’ve been with me through every struggle, every tear, and in those moments, they were more than just a meal. They became a symbol of survival.

But it’s not all about the hard times. Some of my happiest memories are also tied to instant noodles. When I was in boarding school, my friends and I would gather on the weekends, cooking noodles together like it was a ritual. We’d sit around, watching horror podcasts, laughing and trying to scare each other, and then stay up really late, having deep conversations about life. Those nights were magical in their own way, and the instant noodles became a part of that magic.

Even now, after boarding school, I still share instant noodles with different friends in different places. But somehow, eating them always reminds me of my homies from those special days. Sometimes, I even FaceTime my old friend while we both eat instant noodles, trying to figure out adulthood together. It’s funny how something as simple as instant noodles can continue to connect us, even when we’re miles apart and living different lives.

Now, whenever I eat instant noodles, they’re a reminder of both the hard and happy times. They’ve seen me through my lowest points and celebrated with me during my highest. At this point, they’re more than just my comfort food—they represent a part of my life, a bond with myself and with my friends. And no matter where life takes me, I know that a simple bowl of noodles will always carry those memories with it.

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𝑼𝒏𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑼𝒏𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒅: 𝑭𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑯𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑺𝒑𝒂𝒄𝒆𝒔 𝑩𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏

My story today will dive deeper into my darker sides that I never really got the chance to tell others about. I will never say I was ungrateful for the life I was given. My family was a happy one sure, there might have been several times where I wished I was just dead, but there were also moments that I cherished the most with them. It’s just that sometimes, I felt unseen and unheard by them.

Even though I only have two siblings, I’ve always felt this deep, dark hole inside me, like something is missing. And that something is affection from my parents. I’m not saying they don’t love me, because I know they do. But it often feels like it’s just not enough. Maybe it’s because I’ve always compared how they treat me to how they treat my siblings, or maybe it’s just my own mind playing tricks on me. Sometimes, I feel so alone, even in a crowded room. It's not like they ignore me, but the warmth and acknowledgment I crave feels just out of reach. I wonder if I'm asking for too much or if maybe I’m just not as deserving.

When I went to boarding school, I started finding ways to fill those emotional gaps. My friends became the people who saw me for who I was. We were all still figuring things out together feeling homesick, missing home and somehow, we ended up becoming each other’s homes. They became my emotional anchors, giving me the attention, connection, and sense of belonging I had always longed for. It was like living the teenage life I had always imagined from Disney movies, full of shared laughter, secrets, and late-night talks.

We tried things we never thought we would good and bad. Boarding school became the backdrop to our lives, the place that witnessed our transition into adulthood. Those years shaped us in ways I didn’t expect, but looking back now, I see how much I loved them. They filled the spaces I didn’t even know were empty.

In the end, I realised that my friends had become more than just companions they became my home. They filled the emptiness that had been lingering in me for so long. Sometimes, I wish I could just stop time, to stay in those moments where I felt whole, surrounded by the people who made me feel like I truly belonged.

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𝑷𝒐𝒑 𝒕𝒐 𝑲-𝑷𝒐𝒑: 𝑨 𝑱𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒆𝒚 𝑻𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑯𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝑯𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚𝒖

I began my journey into the world of K-pop in 2018, a year that marked a significant turning point in my musical interests. Before discovering K-pop, my favourite genre had always been pop, and I was always on the lookout for new, exciting music. The moment I encountered K-pop, however, I realised that this was a whole new level of the pop sound I loved.

My introduction to K-pop came through two of the most iconic girl groups at the time Blackpink and Twice. These groups instantly captivated me with their infectious melodies, impressive choreography, and the undeniable charisma of their members. Blackpink’s bold, edgy style and Twice’s bright, bubbly energy offered me a perfect blend of everything I admired in music, making them the perfect gateway into this world.

What truly amazed me as I dived deeper into the K-pop industry was how diverse and evolved the scene had become. Over the years, I watched as K-pop expanded its influence globally, with more genres being infused into the music, making it richer and more complex. From electro-pop to hip-hop and even R&B, the industry had grown beyond its earlier boundaries, giving fans like me a wide range of music to explore while maintaining the unique charm that K-pop holds.

One thing that has always remained constant for me, however, is my preference for girl groups. There’s something about the way they balance strength and femininity, power and elegance, that resonates deeply with me. Whether it’s the powerful presence of Blackpink or the infectious energy of Twice, girl groups have consistently been at the center of my K-pop fandom, and I continue to be drawn to them as new groups emerge and the industry continues to innovate.

Looking back, I’m proud to have witnessed the growth of K-pop over the years, and I’m excited to see where it goes next. The journey from 2018 until now has been one of musical discovery, personal growth, and unrelenting excitement. K-pop has not only become a part of my daily life but also a reminder of how music can evolve and transcend boundaries, all while staying true to its core essence.

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