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instead of confronting someone and being forward and open with my feelings i just keep quiet and let it eat me alive bc i don’t wanna hurt their feelings with mine!!

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the texas heat is so absolutely brutal i literally am on the verge of a heatstroke everyday walking to my classes as 2 of them are outside… and it’s finally gonna be 49° TMRWWW!!!!

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my life’s supposed to be a party

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i’ve been feeling so down lately, i don’t really know what to do to help it even though i know what’s causing me to feel like this. i’ve already posted about my friend issue and im still struggling with it.. i gave up trying to text first because i realized if she’s only texting me because im texting her, then we hardly talk. if she’s not interested in talking then i’ll stop texting her. it makes me sad since ive been friends with her for almost 7 years now, but if there’s no connection anymore then there’s no point in me trying to continue to make something spark that won’t ever get close to sparking. she always disregards my texts when i do actually text her, and just makes it about her. what makes me sad about this whole thing is that i will text her every now and then just a little message that doesn’t even matter, and she won’t respond for hours on end even though i know she’s on her phone. something specific i’d like to share is that we have 100+ streak on tiktok, and the other day we almost lost it and i had texted her asking if she can send me a video or nudge or something and she never responded, and i had my brother text her and she read his text immediately which makes me believe im muted and that absolutely devastated me because i immediately thought “why am i muted? am i annoying?” because she never responded to my texts, but almost immediately she read and responded to my brothers text .. this whole feeling of constantly being ignored makes me feel so worthless because she’s one of my closest friends and the fact that we’re drifting apart tears me apart inside out. other than her, i really only have 1 other close friend, and if i only have one person i can have a mutual connection with i don’t know what id do with myself honestly. i hate thinking about it but it makes me feel so depressed it makes me think of sh even though i truly would never do that to myself. idk. i’m just rambling. i’m really upset about this

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Hi queens. It will all be ok in the end. if it’s not ok then it’s not the end.. bye queens

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when no one responds to me immediately so i get anxious and teary eyed and constantly check all my social medias multiple times within the span of a few minutes

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having attachment issues is absolutely exhausting bc why do i feel like they hate me and never wanna speak to me again if they don’t text back within 5 minutes.

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plan a

-get married to a super cute mexican guy

-have 2 girls

-own 5 cats

-have my dream home

plan b

-be buried next to my cat

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thinking about 2nd grade when i’d get so anxious i’d peel off layers of skin and make my ear bleed and still have scars in my ear because of how severe it was …

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not sure if i’m doing something wrong, but i’ve told my friend that it bothers me when she doesn’t answer my texts … but sends me instagram videos. we had a little dispute about it, and i will say i have an issue of leaving people on read. i think what bothers me the most is that she’s doing this on purpose and im trying to fix my reading habit. she’s doing that to “treat others how you want to be treated” which i understand, but again, im trying to fix it and she’s doing it on purpose. if anyone could give me advice if you see this? i’m not very confrontational and thinking about it makes me anxious..

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i actually have THE fattest crush on this guy in my algebra class it’s not even funny. i have no clue what grade he’s in but he’s def either soph or junior … i feel as if im hoping for one but im not sure which one .. he’s so cute though like i already love math and look forward to algebra but he makes me so excited to go to class. he literally doesn’t even do anything to make him ‘attractive’ though .. which is funny. he just has nice hands .. nice hair .. a perfect nose … pretty handwriting.. all i could ever ask for in a man. never had a boyfriend before though.. he did actually talk to me yesterday which caught me off guard but it was just if he could take a picture of my work, (which i hate when people ask me that..) and i finally heard him talk cause he does NOT speak, like he’s so shy it’s so cute… head over heels for this man and i don’t even know his name ..

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I had to join 💀

I don't think you want to see him again, Dami...

Edit: I FORGOT THE "INTO A COOKIE" NOOO

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i lov huge jackedman i wish australians were real

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made this, just wanted to share it .. animal noises by beabadoobee

also, if you see this, let me know if you like it .. i have a lot of ideas for pictures like this, so id love to share more if people enjoy it .. i’d rather not speak to an empty room