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My mother taught me

(cw for trauma and abuse)

My mother taught me

To stand up for myself.

She taught me self-respect and inner strength

And all the strong woman things.

My mother taught me

Never to settle for less than I'm worth.

She taught me to live up to my own expectations

And screw what others think.

My mother taught me

That other people might hurt me.

She taught me it wasn't my fault

And to muster what strength I can

To preserve my own self.

My mother taught me

To always think for myself.

She taught me to question my faith,

loyalty,

family,

And to leave if they do me harm.

My mother taught me

To back down when I'm wrong.

She taught me to step back and question myself

When others say I've hurt them.

My mother taught me

To be sure of myself.

She taught me to examine my ideals

And to live up to them fully,

No matter what others might say.

So when my mother tried to teach me

That none of this was true,

When she told me I was selfish,

worthless,

bitter,

crazy,

lying,

I could hear it in her voice

Those cuts weren't meant for me.

When my mother tried to wound me

How her mother wounded her,

The venom in her words sunk deep

And left ugly bleeding scars.

I knew what my mother taught me

And I held it in my heart.

And with her gentle lessons,

I survived the violent ones.

So I forgive my mother

As we both tend our wounds.

Because my mother taught me well

That mothers can be wrong.

- Dedicated to the women in my life who've broken the cycle of abuse, and to hope for all those who are still stuck in it. Your wounds do not define you. I love you, mom ❤️

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Spend less time being transphobic and more time enjoy a meal prepared with Lao Gan Ma or perhaps even some eel sauce!

Stay swagfull Punkitt

why do you think you’re a woman?

because women are swagful and im also swagful. come on now this is rookie shit.

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Oh look an old friend

finished season 1. they took her so soon. can't keep getting away with this......... ¦'[

THEY LITERALLY TOOK HER SO FUCKING SOON ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR fun fact she died two days before my birthday . i was in mourning for a whole month it was FOUL BRUH i WEEPED FOR HER i literally couldnt relisten to the series for a while bc id just start crying when i heard her. ITS SO NOT FUNNY MAN THEY KIIIIILLED HER TURNED HER TO LITERAL FUCKING GROUND BEEF. ITS FOUUUUUUUUUUL NOT ONLY DO YOU KILL HER YOU MAKE HER SUFFER YOURE EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIL

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and I gave him the worms <3

i have worms .

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ok you don't have to answer that but - your kel logs are so cool! i listened to the episodes when they were coming out, but then got a bit... intimidated i guess? happens when i get too excited - i couldn't watch or listen to it anymore! anyway, i have about 4 episodes of season 1 to finish and i wanted to thank you for your art! and can't wait for season 2!!

Awwww thank you so much mystery person! And that is more than okay you had to take a break :] be sure to also watch/listen to the teasers I released on my Youtube channel! They set up for the season but if you can't/don't want to that is absolutely fine I just didn't want you to miss them, not that they are crucial to knowing what is going on.

I'm also excited for season 2! Just going through the audio I recorded for episode one it is already looking to be around 20 or so mins, so uh...longer episode lol.

This honestly makes my day and wets my eyes, I'm humbled by your excitement and I hope s2 can live up to it!

Remember, Early May!

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I DID THE THING!...Now I have 40 min of audio to go through!

Also having dairy beforehand was a terrible idea lmao

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that and the paper shredder 9000

Don't listen to any terf shitheads talking about the dangers of taking testosterone the only real danger is sitting on concrete steps after fat redistribution

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Rat

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A happy Neilsmas to you all!

ITS APRIL 13 YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

FETCH ME NEIL

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It all goes white.

What is it about rage that brings me back?

White hot porcelain claws digging into my brittle flesh

A stinging comfort to drive me forward

The noose around my heart that keeps me still

Ravaged and drained I come back

Again

Again

Again

Delighted in the flickering flame but mourning the ashes with rain

Scattering the broken pieces into the sand

Washing away the contempt in that wave of bile

A sickening drug that kisses me gently

Before twisting the blade and sending me back to sleep

Each time catching that white hot glow

Each time seeing the crooked teeth

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So I'm good lol, just the phrase white hot rage was swimming in my brain and I wanted to write a little edgy poetry because it's 5am and I am an adult lmao

Just kinda let the words come as they wanted, good or bad doesn't matter, I made something that makes me smile :]

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Sait

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My silly fakémons Pickerpie & Snagpie! I had sm fun trying to recreate fake gifs inspired by the anime recently, I can't wait to do more :3

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Happy WBW! What is the transportation like in your world?

So you have two main forms of transport.

You can walk where you need to go, which is the system of travel used by most of the population.

or

If you are among the more connected or simply work for The Spire, you have access to what is called the "Door" network. So all doors in this world lead to the same place, an extra-spacial location of folding space and time, the exact composition or what it looks like is unimportant because nobody is ever in there for more than a mere moment.

Well how does anyone get anywhere if they all lead to the same place?

Identification and intent. To not get too crunchy with it, doors that lead into a location like a store are cut off from this network and act like regular doors. This can be over wrote with the use of a key, like a literal key, for the key holder any door is a portal back to where that key would lead to.

If one does not have a key they need to summon a stand alone door and with intent step through and enter through the other side (note there are rules in place that stop folks from using this to just break into somebodies home). The thing about all this though is that the person has to have been to this location in question once so that the signature of that spot is "imprinted' onto them.

I.E. think of it like fast travel lol

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I want to hold this creature, to carry her like a baby, to have her sleep on my chest as we lay in bed.

Alas, this would be very bad for her :[

Glad to have it cleared up that she is just a little quirky :]

I would die for Meep

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Paraglider and black vulture chilling

(via)

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Yet another photo comp of the eclipse

Can ya tell which one I accidentally set an exposure timer