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I ❤️ grotesque depictions of desire

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Ada Limón, 'Calling Things What They Are'

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when clarice lispector said remembering is like an open wound……………enough

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(trying to give relationship advice) from a narrative perspective i think both of you dying together would be the most emotionally satisfying resolution but i’m guessing that’s not what you want to hear

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Franz Kafka, in conversation with Max Brod

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there are things i wanna be that i already was

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never give up on the denial stage of grief. 95% of grievers give up right before it brings the person back

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Richard Siken, 'A Primer for the Small Weird Loves'

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SQUID GAME S3 SPOILERS

Piggybacking off a recent reblog and another post from long ago about how Gihun didn’t sacrifice himself solely for the baby, but also because he was already suicidal—I’ve always held that belief too.

I’ve always appreciated how Hdh wrote Gihuns character. But one thing I noticed this season—and didn’t entirely like— was how his suicidal ideation was presented as somewhat logical or even reasonable. From the beginning of Season 2 it’s firmly established that Gihun is engaging in self-harm and struggling with suicidal tendencies. Those tendencies aren’t just a background detail, they’re part of what drives him back to the games in the first place.

He doesn’t see a meaningful life outside of the games anymore. The knowledge that they exist weighs on him so heavily that he sees himself as permanently tied to them. His role in this world: their system— is all he can understand. And near the finale of the season, he’s worn down and hopeless. When he’s given the knife, he has a moment where he could free both himself and the baby from the games. But he misses that chance, and both of them are left facing a imminent death. And as we all know, he ends up giving his life to save the baby as a result.

He manages to hold onto his ideals and make a point with his death— his sacrifice isn’t in vain. It’s a better way to die than being pushed off a ledge by a random O, that much is clear. But when you look at it more closely— the story seems to validate his suicidal urges, not because they ever challenge them, but because they end up framing them as noble, even necessary. That’s what bothers me. It’s as if the message isn’t that he shouldn’t want to die, but that he just needed the right context to make it meaningful.

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enough mpreg. give him mpostpartum depression

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unhealthy codependency is really a top tier dynamic. like they need each other to survive but god. should they.

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Do you still have faith in people? 🥺

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big fan of a character seeking comfort in the arms of the thing that’s going to kill them. and i am psycologicalily normal too.

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“denied the catharsis of punishment” is an underappreciated but hugely effective narrative consequence imo 

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Jacqueline Harpman, 'I Who Have Never Known Men'

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the five homoerotic love languages:

- intimate stabbing

- outright obsession

- confused pining

- "no one knows me like you do"

- lifelong promises that always sound suspiciously like wedding vows

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when your taste in characters is as questionable as mine you have to ask yourself how easy it would be for them to kill themselves every time you want to put them in a situation. because they will try.