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촉각 -Touch / Jung Hoseok

Begins

Dogs walk in the park with their loved humans. Cats don't care about anything they break by pushing things off the table. Birds twit, sun rises and day starts. It was a typical day for me because well, why wouldn't it be?

All my days spend in bed, reading books, catching up with TV, because college is a pain in the arse and doesn't let you be, and basically anything trivial. I'm not complaining though. I like how I spend my summer holiday. Doing nothing actually is a big task to accomplish. Friends always ask to meet up and gossip, parents always talk about why you aren't going out, even for getting a meal, but the hardest thing is boredom.

Boredom makes you do many things. Exercising (trust me I know some people exercises just because they are bored), hanging out with friends which you actually don't like at all, even jumping from roof to roof. Okay maybe not all of us jump around like a squirrel, but it would be very fun to be squirrel, We do things to feel like how we do all the time or sometimes want to feel happier than usual. These are fine, really. It's not that I dont want to hang around and do crazy stuff. It's just that I want to spend my holday with absolutelly nothing this year. There is actually a big reason for this and it is bigger than just college.

Many stories about soulmates have been written in almost every country's history. Soulmates overcome many hardships and finally be happy together. That's how it is always end. The truth is, not everyone has a soulmate. This is like a slap in the face but it's true nonetheless.

In my county, especially in the village, many believes that soulmates are real and they can meet anytime, anywhere in any situation. I know, it isn't very specific discription but that's all we have. Elders of the village try to foresee if you have a soulmate or not with the help of a fortuneteller. They basically give you a date, like an appointment you get from doctor and when you go, it takes like 5 mins to decide if your future to be destined with someone special. In other words, soulmate.

To be honest, I don't actually believe in those fairy tales. You can love someone so much, that's understandable. I respect that but the idea of soulmate is more intimate. Like, you know how sick it was when Bella and Edward's daughter was Jacob's mate! She was just a baby when it was decided and come on! Jacob was already 20 at that age. I love the idea of being mate to some weird ass werewolf or in some cases vampire, but still, does it not count as pedophile? What if I'm destined to be with someone who is almost as old as my dad? I dont even think my dad would let me marry him. Not that I would marry...

Anyways, all the thoughts are messing with my head and I'm pretty much uncomfortable. Since I passed my first appointment two years ago, elders are on my back. They looking for me in the village. I'm sure if they see me, they will kidnap me and forcefully take a look at my future. So damn cruel!

With the vibration of my phone, I took my empty eyes off of wall. Thinking always has this effect on me. I stare at walls with dark eyes. Not "the angry dark eyes", they are more like "empty blackhole dark eyes" and it is sometimes scary as my friends says.

"What?" I put the phone on speaker because I hate holding my phone while eating popcorn. It is like a disrespect to popcorn.

"Your politeness always gets me, you know that?" Taehyung talks with his 'I'm annoyed' voice. It takes my interest. I get up on the bed and put the popcorn bowl on nightstand.

"What's up? Was the appointment bad?" He replaid with an exhausted sigh. At that point, I knew there was something wrong.

Taehyung has a child-like personality but he only shows that when he is with his close friends. Others only know him as rich, cool, not so down-to-earth boy. I can sometimes agree on the last part.

"Can we meet? It is not something I can talk on phone. I might need a sholder to cry on later." His tone of voice gets me so bad and I cave in so easily. I think he knows that too. I just have a sweet spot for Taehyung and cannot reject him when he use his puppy face. How can someone rejects a puppy?

"Come at my place. Mom and dad are out." I get up to get down the stairs. I know how much of a foodie Taehyung is. He will probably want food sometime tonight.

"Eww squirrel, I'm not going to do the'do' with you! You can't seduce me with your rabbit nighties." He laughes his own joke while I stand with a disgusted face. Not that he can see...

"Don't come. I'm not openning the door." Taehyung laughes louder this time.

"Be there in 15. Love you."

With that he shuts the phone off. I don't mind him closing the phone like that. We always do it to each other but he is still going to get a forehead flick when he comes home.

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"If you ask me, all they say is a big, fat lie." I take a handful of cherry from the big bowl between me and Taehyung. After he came, he asked for dinner immediately. I was right about him wanting food. It's actually a bit upsetting to know him this well. Sometimes I just want to kill him with bare hands.

"You really don't believe in fate, do you?" Taehyung turns a little bit towards me to look at my expressions better. I know him so well, that's true but it is a mutual topic. He knows me like back of his hand.

"I mean, I don't see the point! I'm not against the idea of soulmate. It is just so unreal, like a fairy tale. I used to love them when i was a teenager." I turn a little bit too. Just to face him better.

"You are not that old. Why are you acting like a granny?" Taehyung pops a chocolate bar in his mouth. His pepsi cone is still resting on his left leg in his hand. Creating a wet circle on his denim jeans.

"Age isn't everything Tae. My insides feels like as if they are rotten." I clung my T-shirt's neck and act like I can't breath well. He smacks me with his feet and laughs at my weird face. Sometimes I just forget how it is fun to be with Taehyung.

"Do not touch me with your bare foot again or else I will chop it off!" Getting up, I made my way to the kitchen to get some wet wipes. It is so irritating, even though he knows that I hate people touching me with their feet, he touches me with his feet all the time. At this point it doesn't disgusts me anymore. I feel angry only.

"You love me!" I hear him shouting after me. It brings a smile to my face but I'm not going to show this to him. He is already weird, giving him this opportunity means he will be all over me saying 'I love him' and he will do whatever he wants. That's not happening.

"So, do you really think that you won't be able to find your soulmate?" Taehyung comes after me into the kitchen. He props himself on the kitchen counter. His eyes are on me and calculating my every move.

"I'm not saying that. I just think it's ridiculous to think about soulmates." I clean my leg with the wet wipes and throw it in to the thrash.

"I can love someone so much and he might not be my soulmate. That doesn't mean I'm going to dump him for someone I don't even believe he is real." Holding my waist with my two hands, I look at Taehyung who seems very deep in thoughts.

I make my way to him slowly. My hands find their way to his knees and squeeze them. His eyes find mines. I see a familiar emotion in there. An emotional I have in mines all the time.

He is scared. He is lost. He wants to find his way but all this soulmate thing is keeping him back from what he wants to do. I know his passion for singing. I know he wants to try his chance on a singing contest but I also know he is afraid to lose his life's only love and stay alone for the rest of his life.

We have talked about this thousand times. In every each of them we couldn't agree, so we let things go. We needed to relax. These were all three years ago. Now, he is afraid he will not get the last train to Soulmates Land.

"Taehyung. It is going to be okay." Taehyung looks at my eyes. Deeper this time. Minutes later only nods his head.

Later, we keep talking on the couch in the living room. More foods are eaten. We fall into a silence.

I can hear his breathing under my ear. The steady breathing of his actually brings me comfort. He is my childhood. He is from my past and my future. At least I hope he will be in my future too.

"Do you know about soulmate stories." His raspy voice comes like a melody to my ears. I don't make a sound. I shake my head negatively. He gets the point immediately. I believe his eyes are also on me too.

"Namjoon hyung told me how he started feeling his soulmate." He takes a deep breath. A signal for how long the talk will be. I place my hand under my chin and look up at him. Waiting for him to continue.

"He said, he had a weird feeling inside. Like millions of insects were walking inside him and tickling him." His arm wrapped around me comes a little tighter. His long fingers dances on my belly, tickling me.

"But it wasn't always happening, he said. It only happened when he visited his usual coffee shop, the one at the corner of Bersley's Candy Shop." I take his hand in mines and play with long digits.

"Not long after, when he talked to new barista in there, I'm quoting, 'fire and flames started burning my heart. My head felt so high that I couldn't use my limbs at all.' Do you think it will be the same for me?" I sign with a deep breath. Everything about this soulmate thing is irritates me. Although I cannot do anything.

"You know. My mom told me, we all feel different. It is always a different story how one meets or feels the other. Mom told me she felt like an ice poured on her head when she met dad." I cuddle deeper on his chest. Letting my eyes close and arms wrap around his slim figure.

"Maybe we will feel like hit by a trunk. Who knows?" Taehyung giggles a little. His chest ups and downs fast. It brings a smile on my lips.

"Have you ever been hit by a trunk, squirrel?" He sweeps a lock behind my ear. I feel his hot breath on my forehead before his soft lips touch my skin.

"Exactly."

I know there will be times we won't be able to identify easily and probably finding your soulmate is one of from them. Still, I just wish my best friend to find his love as soon as possible.

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