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Reminder to myself to come back and write out a full diary post about today. Journaling experiences is good.

Today was a day I dreamed about in more than one way (good feelings and bad feelings.)

I've been wanting to take myself out to enjoy myself (I did).

I've also had nightmares about my brother relapsing and getting myself pulled into traumatic feelings of my past. Ever since I moved back home I've tried keeping my mind off it. My brain always divided into two: hell never do that again or it's bound to happen again.

And then I got home from the cinema to find my brother relapsed .... he was harassing his friends and holding them hostage with his rage and emotions.

My body is still on edge and shaky. Even though it's been a few hours. I'm skipping class tonight but I'm proud of myself for how I managed today.

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Fuarkkkkk water is so delicious after a brutal workout. 🤤

Spur of the moment, last minute, gym session tonight. Hadn't been there in ages. I don't regret it but also I should have at least looked at my phone and saw there's a damn WILDFIRE in my town and my entire walk to the gym it looked like an apocalyptic movie with ashes sprinkling down, and large debris the size of my hands: falling down like snowflakes.

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Earth’s candy.

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"Inside, we’re ageless. And when we talk to ourselves, it’s the same person we were talking to, the same age, when we were little, and it’s the body that’s changing around that ageless center." -David Lynch

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i wish people would stop romanticizing not eating breakfast and not getting enough sleep and being dependent on coffee to function and always being in a bad mood and treating yourself poorly because that behavior is very unhealthy for you

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the very first step of getting over your fears is to have them. just like the first step to getting better is being worse than you wish you were, and the first step to becoming who you want to be is being who you are. don’t let your shame back you into a corner. you can only grow from here.

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GET YO DAMN SHOES OFF THE COUCH HO 🗣️‼️

g l a m o r i i z e d

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𝔦𝔰 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢 𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔢 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔫 𝔞 𝔣𝔢𝔢𝔩𝔦𝔫𝔤?

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Why should you do it?

For those who can't.