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Aku penat.

Penat sangat asyik tertidur sana sini

 Tapi aku mmg selalu tertidur pun lebih2 lagi dalam kelas.

Sebab aku mmg short attention span. Especially benda yang aku kurang minat la

 Dalam daurah ngn usrah boleh plak 4 5 jam pun.

Lol

 JJ came

“Hey, I saw you just now. Are you okay? You was like praying during the class just now. Is it that bad?

 Aku gelak.

Haha

“I was sleeping JJ. I’m too tired, you know the exam is just around the  corner”

weh. Aku tekup muka masa tidur pn nampak macam tengah doa ke apa!

 Dia sengih

“oh yeah, is it? Okay just get enough rest and be well okay”

 pakcik ni tak pernah la satu group ke apa ramah sangat ni

but he is just care enough.

 Entah,

Teringat syif dulu dalam kelas kat KMB

We are like helping each other to go through classes.

Aku tidur dia kejut, dia tidur aku kejut.

Effort habis .

Kadang kadang sampai gaduh gaduh nak kejut masing masing

Tangan lebam lebam kena cubit.

Tak masuk lawan kejut pagi untuk study sama sama

Effort gi library masa nak IB

Care enough.

 This girl, aku jarang sangat contact

Mungkin DnT wise tak banyak aku boleh sembang

I’m hoping you got hitched by DnT bruh.

Haha

 But I just don’t get that anymore

I miss my old circle of friends who are just so rough and tough as me

So independent and ridiculous

There’s no such thing as “ I love you”

“Rindu awak, syg”  

 but the love are just manifested by actions.

And I believe this more, eh?

Berbalik kepada penat

I was so tired I fell asleep after maghrib.

Sampai isya’ semalam.

 I cried for feeling too tired.

I wonder why I am this ridiculous and this bad

People could easily said.

Get enough rest enough sleep

 Tell me

How do you defined enough?

 Rasulullah slept one third of the night

So he basically slept for?

3 hours

Imam Hassan al banna slept for 4 hours

Salahuddin al ayyubi will only slept for few minutes as he was having pain all night but still can wake up in the morning aiming to get back our masjidil aqsa

 Come on AJ

Work more please?

For allah will always be with those work for His cause

Bismillah

[eaglerants-blog]

“what and why”

Today marked the 3rd day after the confession, and the rejection. 

Tidur lambat semalam, habiskan study untuk resit. 

Okay. today I gotta go to GEJZ senior citizens home. 9.00 am need to meet Mr Peter there. 

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kepala berputar. 

oi kena sampai cepat sudah la hari tu lambat nnti my yet to be muslim friend ni tak nampak pn muslim yg baik sket attitude dia. 

open Gmaps. “GEJZ” search, direction. 

8.57 arrived. Fuh nasib boleh lari jammed. Bukak whatsapp, mesej dalam group la senang. “I’m here” Jif balas “I just arrived”. yeay! mission complete (baru awal daripada Jif dh suka betul dia)

as usual my partner and I will always there first. the other two either go missing in action or late for half or another one hour. lol

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Peter started “okay we start our session first before you can mingle around with laula - orang tua”. mandarin. tu laaa cikgu chean dh buat buku suurh belajar chinese language taknak. haha. 

he continued then “ I just have one question. why are you here?this is my only question after this you will the professor like in the class and ask me thousands of question” 

“hm hm” aku angkat muka “you wanna give yr answer or not Jif?” 

“you give la.” haha that english malaysian style

“I’m here for the task given but I really look forward as I want to see how these old people been doing without proper care by relatives or children” 

“okay. answer accepted. now your turn” aku sengih je tah la betul ke jawapan tu. 

tanya berapa orang staff dan orang tua kat situ. Akaun dan admin. berapa lama dah rumah ni exist. Oh and, who is the founder and why he started. 

ni part interesting sebab dia kata “saya jawab separuh dulu dpd soalan ni okay. Im the one who started it, from zero. Next question?”

haish..aku dh la high curiosity. yang dua orang tu tak nampak bayang lagi. 

sabar sabar. save the best for the last. 

pakcik jif (haha sorry) ni sambung tanya pasal follow up, medications and chronic illness of laula. selalu gaya pelajar dan bakal doktor cemerlang tau. ngeh ngeh. 

“Okay we finish. We don’t have other questions anymore” tengok jam. dah dekat 9.30 ni. Ad call. baru nak call balik nampak dia jalan masuk ke laman dah. 

Peter take his chance now. 

“I have started when I was young. I have a really strong will comes from inside to create a better place whenever I see old folks sleeping on the sidewalk, walking around asking for money in the coffee shops, and duduk duduk dekat tepi kedai kedai lot”

“I was ignoring it at first. but you know the will become bigger and stronger until I take a step forward, resign from my job at that time balik daripada sabah ke melaka. Saya kemudian pegi ke taiwan (amek social work study) at the age of 29 untuk betul-betul serius” dia sambung.

ok. point taken. 

kalau dah ada iradah qawiyyah, comes hell or high water you will still proceed it. kan bagus kalau dalam menjadi hamba Tuhan dan mentaati Dia kau punya keinginan sekuat ini.

Ad pulak tanya few questions. selang kejap. aku curi curi tengok jam adidas purple kat tangan kanan. eh. almost 10 already. haha. bila nk start beraktiviti.

aku senyum je. nah nah. Allah bagi tazkirah dari pakcik not yet muslim ni okayy. 

Peter dh nampak aku mcm restless kot sebab nak start jumpa penghuni situ kan. “Saya mau pesan ini satu last. Ok kan?” 

kami tiga serentak angguk. muka fokus betul. 

Dia sambung “ I always ask myself everyday what am I doing? and why I am doing this” 

fuhh. aku tarik nafas. what now, Allah? sambil menarik bibir mengukir senyuman. 

“there are doctors, lawyers I meet that somehow feeling so tired of what they are doing and wanted to stop. We really need to remember why we started at the first place. if you keep that in your mind, you will continue to do it till the end of your life”

senyum makin lebar. 

betullah kata kata famous dalam kalangan kita kita ni “Terhentinya kita ditengah jalan adalah kerana salahnya permulaan” 

(100). وَالسَّابِقُونَ الْأَوَّلُونَ مِنَ الْمُهَاجِرِينَ وَالْأَنْصَارِ وَالَّذِينَ اتَّبَعُوهُمْ بِإِحْسَانٍ رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهُمْ وَرَضُوا عَنْهُ وَأَعَدَّ لَهُمْ جَنَّاتٍ تَجْرِي تَحْتَهَا الْأَنْهَارُ خَالِدِينَ فِيهَا أَبَدًا ۚذَٰلِكَ ال��فَوْزُ الْعَظِيمُ Orang-orang yang terdahulu lagi yang pertama-tama (masuk Islam) di antara orang-orang muhajirin dan anshar dan orang-orang yang mengikuti mereka dengan baik, Allah ridha kepada mereka dan merekapun ridha kepada Allah dan Allah menyediakan bagi mereka surga-surga yang mengalir sungai-sungai di dalamnya; mereka kekal di dalamnya selama-lamanya. Itulah kemenangan yang besar. (9:100)

This is your what and why. 

Keep the ni’mah close to you, love <3