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I vote that your writing continues to be:

self indulgent

cringe

weird

bizarre

long

short

sappy

only for your eyes

obnoxious

You're allowed to have your own voice. You're allowed to write something only you want to read. Seize the freedom you were never given in your 8th grade English class!

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We ask your questions anonymously so you don’t have to! Submissions are open on the 1st and 15th of the month.

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Some Thoughts & Life Updates

I haven't been on this blog for a while, so I'm just breaking the ice with this post: I don't know if I'm going to return to this blog now, but why not try? I really miss tumblr quite a bit, but I just don't feel overly inspired about anything at the moment! I've been watching new things but not feeling any fandom feelings, and I've been thinking selfshipping thoughts but not feeling any urge to share them?

I'd like to be writing and drawing, so maybe I should push myself more in that department, but when there's nothing I feel inspired to write or draw, it's kind of hard to just create for creation's sake, I've always been a fandom creator.

Anyways, life update, I'm engaged to my IRL partner now! I'm very happy and excited, and I also got a new full time job that pays wayyy better than my old one (it's salaried, which I've never done before) and things are generally looking good! And yet I am sad to not be nourishing the fandom part of my life.

That is my update! Life is good and I miss having things to blog about, but I'm just not feeling the fandom spark at the moment. I think maybe my brain is trying to make me a blank slate for the new job I'm starting soon, so I can't have any existing big interests. That sometimes happens with new job/school situations for me.

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wearing a shirt that says I LOVE BEING A MARY SUE

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hes so cute i need to see him half dead havinf a violent mental breakdown on the floor

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𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔫 𝔞𝔣𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔱𝔦𝔪𝔢

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Cover to the December 1988 issue of Susperia, a shoujo horror anthology.

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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! 🎈🩷

I just wanted to do something silly with them two

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Valentine's Sappy Post #1

For Valentine’s, I’ve decided to post a few of my favourite things about my primary F/Os! It’s just a gush post but with a bit of a point-form format. (Vampires and Slashers are going to get their own posts, this will be my single romantic primaries: Vox and Valentino don’t get any because I said so :P) 

Jester: 

I love her smile, it makes me happy every time I see it. It makes me want to compose epics. 

I love the way she holds me when we’re getting ready to sleep: the way the lines of our bodies fit together just right 

I love seeing her in different light: I’m not an artist but she makes me wish I was, so I could capture her eyes in the candlelight and her shoulders in sunlight and the curl of her hair in the moonlight. 

Hoid: 

I love the way he touches me? It’s a very specific thing but it’s just that he does it with such a level of attention, even the casual or joking touches like putting an elbow on my head, he’s always watching my reaction and responding to it. 

I love the quiet moments when both of us are just tired and pressing our legs together and not talking: turning off the performance and just sharing space. 

I love mutual sharing of information: once again, not in an elegant polished format but just either of us getting excited and just talking, a little too loud, hands a little too wild. 

Tate: 

I love the way that he sits down whenever he’s waiting: even if it’s for something as simple as the kettle boiling, he sits on the floor or the counter. 

I love how his headphones curl his hair into unintentional ridges, the big ones that go over his ears and block out the world when he’s listening to music. 

I love how he ducks his head under my chin when we’re cuddling, puts his ear against my chest to listen to my heartbeat. 

Tomura: 

I love his hands, the rough texture of his knuckles, the careful way he uses them to work around his Quirk, the slowly building comfort with me tracing their lines 

I love his hair: I love washing it and combing it and dying it while we’re in hiding, I love watching the tension fade from his face and shoulders when I’m playing with it 

I love dozing off on his lap when he’s playing a quiet game on one of his handheld consoles, occasionally muttering to himself about what he’s doing, a background noise that carries me into sleep.

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More fool I!! You need questions you can answer at work!! Such as... running through the list of all the blorbo questions you haven't answered yet for Hoid???

I feel very spoiled asking for entire ask game's worth of your thoughts but it IS Valentine's day 😘

This might be the funniest Valentine’s message I’ve ever received: happy day of love, please infodump about your fictional datemate before we have an IRL date together tonight xD I love you so so much

Okay this is my ultimate Hoid infodump, I’m going to do all of the questions that are character-specific: I’m going to answer in full sentences so I don’t have to post all the questions! If you want to know all about my Hoid obsession I guess this is going to be the post for you, let’s go!!

3- I’m not sure if there was a specific moment that made Hoid into a Blorbo! I fell in love with him as the narrator of Tress of the Emerald Sea, and I think I loved him basically from the first chapter, just in the way he spoke. And then as soon as we ran into him as a character in that book, I just… yeah, it was single-hit love at first sight. 

4- The thing I love most about Hoid is that he makes me laugh. He’s just the right amount of kind of mysterious but also basically devoid of dignity and the combination is a real winner. 

6- I don’t think I really want the opportunity to talk to any of my F/Os, it would be too scary! There’s maybe two of them that I would actually want to see, and Hoid is not one of them. If I could get an anonymous letter to Hoid, I’d probably write him a silly little love letter, I think he’d get a kick out of a secret admirer. 

7- I’m not really in the Sanderson fandom enough to know what people might mischaracterize about Hoid. I’ve read some fanfictions that lean a little too far on the serious side: assuming that his sense of humour is 100% a defense/mask that goes away when he’s being true to himself. I think it’s definitely something he uses to keep his distance, but I also think it would slip through even when he’s being sincere. It’s too deeply woven into him at this point. 

8- I think Hoid is an extrovert. I mean, canonically, you leave him alone for a few days and he starts telling stories to random lizards and insects that he finds in the wilderness. He needs an audience. 

9- Hoid in three words… would be… sharp, flashy, irreverent. 

11- Yes, I have written fanfiction about Hoid and my self-insert! 

12- Yes, I talk about Hoid to my family and friends. And I’m encouraged to, by my wonderful partner who sent me this ask game!! My parents could probably stand to hear less about Hoid lol 

13- Hmmmm. Is there any crime or wrongdoing Hoid could do that would make me stop loving him? That’s a hard question. There are a couple of things I don’t like about him, which are mirrors of things I don’t like about Brandon Sanderson’s writing. No, I don’t think so. If he lost all of his joy, I might stop liking his character. But he could do a lot of terrible things and I would still love him. I mean… he did kill God, that’s kind of part of the character. I suspect he’ll be a bit more of a morally grey character in future arcs, and I look forward to it. 

16- Yes, Hoid is canonically alive and mostly immortal! 

17- I very rarely have characters that I genuinely want to find whump content for, but I think Hoid being mostly immortal just makes me want to find the limits of that. So, yes, I like to see my Blorbo suffer. I am always coming up with new plotlines in my head where he gets hurt or cursed >:) 

18- I ship Hoid with many characters! I’m an unrepentant multishipper when it comes to my funky little guy, and I refuse to commit to a single favourite. Except for me, obviously. :P 

19- Yes, Hoid fits one of my blorbo types: I love meta characters and storytellers. He fits the niche perfectly. 

22- I don’t know if I’d love Hoid if he was real! Probably not: men just aren’t usually my cup of tea IRL. 

23- I don’t think Hoid is the victim of a bad plot, no. I do have a Sanderson blorbo that I think got wrecked by the writing, but Hoid is going strong… so far! 

24- If I could change one canonical thing about Hoid, I would make him genderqueer because I simply don’t think you make it across hundreds of cultures and thousands of years with your gender identity intact. 

25- I discovered Hoid because my beloved partner likes Brandon Sanderson’s books and when the solo kickstarter books came out, we read Tress together and the rest is history. 

26- When I started reading Tress, I knew I was going to enjoy it, and I immediately knew I liked the narrator, but I don’t think I knew until a hundred pages in that this was going to be a whole thing for me. 

27- I do not gatekeep my blorbo! I would like everyone to read the cosmere books! 

29- A Hoid fanfiction has never made me cry. It has been a long time since I cried over a fanfiction. (I lied. I cried over a fanfiction in 2023 but it was not a Hoid fic) 

30- Yes, I think Hoid will be a blorbo in three years but I don’t think I’ll be as obsessed with him in six months. He’s a permanent occupant of my brain at the moment, 24/7 blorbo thoughts, but I think that will fade. I will still love him, though. 

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Would you answer some or all of 🌟🖍️🐶 🧩and🎈 for hoid please!!!! Love you!!

(Hoid!)

Thank you darling anon that definitely didn't send me this message while sitting three feet away from me <3

Alsoooo if anyone has more agere asks, talking about my primaries regressing is still just one of my favourite things-- I love to discuss my babies!!! I am kicking my feet and grinning about every single ask <3 <3

🌟 - what is regression like for your f/o?

Mostly involuntary, but not always negative, I think! Hoid has things to do and preferred ways to relax and getting dunked into a child mindset is not one of the things he chooses, but it happens nonetheless. I think he mostly regresses to an older kid age, similar to my age range, somewhere in the 5-7 kind of area.

🖍️ - favourite activities to do together when they're regressed?

Oh, I like to give him some fingerpaints and watch him go. There's a required bath afterwards but the joy is worth it.

🐶 - have they ever made/brought you something while regressed?

As previously mentioned, a lot of smudgy art that needs to be labelled on the back. The labels are usually 90% of the page (ie. a wolf that is defending a city that is full of people who wear boots on their heads and there is a princess in a tower who is trying to shoot enemies from up high). Also likes to play a 'trading' game where he brings me things and I have to give him something for them. (He often brings me my own clothes from another room, and I give him little doodles in return, or sometimes my shoes)

🧩 - do they like to use any particular regression gear?

Not really! I don't think he's a regression gear kind of lad: he's too much on the move, both when feeling big and small!

🎈 - free space! share a regression hc of your f/o

Crashes so fast-- as soon as his head starts wobbling, he's got about a minute before he's asleep. He wakes up about ten minutes later, so it's not too much of a problem, but it's very cute. He still wants a lullaby when he's falling asleep, but he never hears the whole song.

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It always fascinated me that when trans people took hormones, they. Worked. I mean this PURELY from a biological standpoint. We think of "male" bodies and "female" bodies as so different, but the reality is they just aren't. A human body will know what to do with the tools you give it, even if it's never had those tools before.

Put testosterone in a "female" body, and it'll know how to grow a beard. It just will.

Put estrogen in a "male" body, and it'll know how to form breasts. It just will.

It doesn't matter what the "original" sex was, a human body is a human body and it knows what to do. We were never different. We just think we are because we think it makes more sense. But it doesn't. I make way less sense, actually.

I think that's fascinating and kind of beautiful. Honestly

And I never thought the place to explore this line of thinking thoroughly would be a Hazbin Hotel mpreg fanfiction but HERE WE ARE

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Valentine’s Selfship Moodboards (6/?): Tomura Shigaraki

Close your eyes, I’ll sing your favorite song I wrote you this lullaby Hush now baby, don’t you cry Anything you want could not be wrong -The Cure, Lady Gaga

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hey check this out *dies in front of you in every universe*

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..actually, valentines posting starts on the valentines eve.. forever charmed by these vintage cards <33

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So the main concept for my selfship with Hoid is that he's an immortal travelling between worlds and I'm just inexplicably on multiple planets at different times.

I never remember him, but I'm clearly the same person: I look and act the same, I have the same name but translated in the local language. It takes him a while to catch on, because it's several centuries between our first few meetings.

First meeting: we didn't even talk, we were in the same city but never interacted

Second meeting: I tripped over his legs while trying to walk through a dark alley and we ended up quite good friends

Third meeting: met at the Court of the Gods, he was a storyteller and I was a dancer and we did not see each other around the corner and smashed into each other.

Fourth meeting: ran into each other (again, literally) while both breaking into the same library: this is the one that my original self-ship introduction was about. It's not connected to any of the actual Brandon Sanderson books, but inspired by the stand-alone Kickstarter novels.

???th meeting: I got myself lost in a building while meeting with a Highprince and he walked past me, did a double-take, recognized me, and came back to help me find my way.

(finally managed to meet each other without accidentally causing ourselves injuries! big win!)