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Wanted to post some artwork of one of our fursona's, Razor!

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Sorry guys, I have to turn my asks off cause bots keep fucking spamming it.

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Reblogging this as the same thing has happened to me. I don't mind reposting these posts as long as they come from genuine people, but like the user above me said, these are most likely bots as I got multiple of them in my ask inbox.

Hello,

I hope you’re all doing well. 🌿

I need your help to share my family's story and raise awareness about our struggle. Every voice counts, and your support means the world. 🙏

💬 Please reblog my pinned post or, if you're able, consider donating just $5—it could be life-changing for those facing unimaginable hardship.

Your kindness and solidarity make a real difference. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! 🤍✨

@derawi1994

Alright! Time to tackle this. Do NOT send me, or any of my blogs, donation asks. These anons, I do suspect are bots. I could be wrong, but I do suspect they are. If this was really the same account, they wouldn’t be hiding behind an anon, as people can check your blog through an ask. I will not hesitate to turn off my asks if I get too many of these.

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•🕯We first used Simply Plural to organize our system, but after some of our notes dissapeared for no appearant reason, we moved on to Discord. Discord's pretty great for logging whatever you want, as you can personalize channels to your own liking. Bots like Octocon, Pluralkit or Tupperbox can be used for proxying, which is easier to communicate as well.

• 🗝 Used to be very consistent, but noticed it was pretty hard to constantly keep track of. For example, when you were in the middle of class. At some point we just said "fuck it" this is too much effort. And honestly, we like it better that way.

• 🔮 That kind of depends. Most of our fictives enjoy sourcemates as they feel familiar in a world that's somewhat unfamiliar to them. But there are exceptions, for example things that happened in source that may leave certain alters more hesitant to interact with certain sourcemates.

• 🐇 We use all of these, actually. But the one we use most is Picrew. Picrew generally has a lot of options, but can be limited sometimes.

•🎻 A song that immediatly pops up in my head is Echo by Crusher-P.

• 🎀 It's crap, because we simply don't care to organize it, despite us being pretty organized as a whole.

• 🌘 We all have different preferences, but the majority of us likes pastels and earthy colors.

• 🗡 Me personally, I like to dress sporty or casual. But I'm also a big fan of grunge and scene clothes. As for the parts who have the most distinct style, I think Shadow and Doll. Shadow often dresses in all black and Doll dresses pretty colorful.

• 🦋 Me- *cough*

• 🍓 To me, Zack. I think our music tastes are kind of similar in that regard.

• 🐠 Honestly, the physical symptoms that come with it when we switch or dissociate. We always wondered why we had so many headaches or why we felt so exhausted all the time. For the longest time, we had no idea where all those things came from. Of course, it also goes paired with our depression & autism.

• 🍄 Chores, especially when alters front who don't like doing them or simply don't know how to do them.

• 🌙 I don't really have one, but I'd probably handle it the same way as Cosmos and Eugene explained things to me. They helped me out a lot in the beginning, which I'm really thankful for. They answered questions I had and explained things in detail. But also, bring things slow not to overwhelm someone.

• 🌱 Collectively, there are some foods we all pretty much like or dislike, but there are also alters with really specific tastes. One may not like sweets as much, the other hates strawberries, then another really dislikes meat while the majority loves it, you name it.

• 🍉 Our collective name is "The Bumblebee System." We decided on this idea because bees are very good communicators and work together. Something we strive to be like as a system. Our theme is mainly bees & sunflowers, but we now use a persona called Echo who represents our system as a whole.

• 💿 That having a CDD isn't all fun and games. Sure, it's nice to have different parts so now and then but it can also be very difficult to live with. The constant masking, trauma and dissociation can really be annoying. But then, also not being seen for just that. Someone who's broken and beyond repair, cause that's simply not true.

-Jimmy 🚀

bored as shit have an ask game for systems

but it's not info that's mad dangerous to share online

NOT ENDO SAFE I DON'T LIKE U

🕯️what do you primarily use for system organization? what do you like / dislike about it?

🗝️ how consistent are you with logging switches / do you even bother?

🔮 if you have fictives, how do they tend to feel about sourcemates? is there a general agreement or no?

🐇 what's your go-to method for figuring out appearance for parts? picrew, pinterest, drawing them? something else?

🎻 are there any songs you feel show your perception of your CDD?

🎀 how organized would you say your sp / octo / whatever organization you use is?

🌘 is there a colour preference most of you can agree on?

🗡️ how would you describe how you dress? bonus: which two parts have the most opposite styles?

🦋 who in the system has messed up the sleep cycle the worst?

🍓 which part has the best music taste?

🐠 what's one thing you wish you knew when you first found out about your CDD?

🍄 what's one thing that takes way longer than usual due to your CDD?

🌙 what's your "welcome to the system" talk look like? (if you have one)

🌱 how different are your food preferences?

🍉 if you have a collective name / theme, how did you decide on it?

💿 what's one thing you wish people understood about your system? (does not need to be about CDDs in general)

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Everyone tells you “communication is key” to every problem you have in life. Whether it be with friends, family, or partners, “communication fixes all.”

But when you grow up in a house that doesn’t communicate.. When you only know aggression and silence.. When you only know how to bury it all down into separate pieces of yourself..

You don’t know what communication is. You don’t know how to communicate that something bothers you. You just bury it all over again, not understanding why you’re so angry and so upset about things. You feel like shit but you don’t know why you feel like shit. You can never piece it together, but you just feel like shit.

The conversation happens, and you get into your normal position. You get ready to feel that corner against your back, and you get ready to growl and snap and bite. You feel like a feral animal being threatened and persecuted for something you didn’t—or maybe did—do. You’re ready to snap and fight back against anything they say.

But then you come into contact with what communication is supposed to be. Kind, caring, understanding, open. At first, you try to get into that normal position, but there is no corner. Even when you snap and lash, all they do is just put a hand on your head and tell you “I see you” without even saying the words.

I can feel that little scared animal within me melting away. I think I understand what people mean by “communication is key” now.

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Fully agree with this. There isn't something as "bad enough." Every person copes with trauma differently and I think we shouldn't compare those things.

I feel it should be said how damaging it is to brush off any type of trauma as "not enough."

There's a popular post about how a person who drowned in 6ft of water is just as dead as someome who drowned in 200ft of water. This is true.

But also you can drown in as little as half a cup of water.

And I think this comes from a deep misunderstanding of how DID forms, what counts as "bad enough" trauma to form a system. I myself have had to unwind whether what I've said I've gone through is real, due to how conflated the idea of trauma is in some people's heads.

A child is not as developed as an adult or a teen. What a child views as "too much" for them to cope with or "no support system" to talk to may be completely different to what an adult thinks. The adult may even think that the child is logically incorrect about these things—but that does not change the response the child has.

This is not an excuse to tell people they should go digging for trauma or to tell them unprompted that what they went through is 100% traumatic. I just wanted to make sure anyone who thinks they could have DID / PSTD / OSDD / C-PTSD (or similar) doesn't brush off things that as an adult they think "weren't so bad."

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Internal echolalia is so weird sometimes. What do you mean my brain keeps repeating the phrase: "Check it out, I'm in the house. Like carpet. Like carpet, carpet, carpet" over and over? I'm not autistic, I swear. /j

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Convo I had with my boyfriend this morning while he was out of the house.

Here's a picture of the cat in question:

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I don't even live in America, but even I am afraid for some of you all. It feels like I'm watching a terrible drama series on Netflix. Take this whole TikTok ban that happened a few days ago for example. It feels like one big publicity stunt. Trump wanted TikTok to be selled to an American company, most likely to control what you get to see on your feed. Even I have noticed some differences if not some tags or videos actively getting censored. But who cares, cause Trump brought it back right? And then, I'm not even talking about transgender rights, immigration or healthcare. It genuinely feels like a dictatorship at this point. Tell me I'm not the only one who's seeing these patterns.

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"recovery isn't linear" i say, while mad at myself for recovery not being linear

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─── ⋆⋅Mouthwashing Art⋅⋆ ───

Finished this drawing up yesterday of Jimmy & Curly.

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Happy birthday Charlie!

I literally made this last moment, but I managed to finish it in time.

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I'm reposting this cause this is so fun to do. It's a good stim, 10/10.

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Oh will you guess what happened.. Let me turn this into a meme real quick..

For context, we know alters can't form due to hyperfixation and are instead formed because of extreme stress or trauma. It's just that fictives can be formed when you go through a tough time and the brain deciding that they needed said character in order to survive. In our case, when we hyperfixate on it and consume said media. Splitting just due to hyperfixation alone isn't a thing. I just wanted to make a funny meme.. That's all!

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Hey, it’s not your fault. You were just a kid. You may still BE a kid. But I know a few things for certain:

You didn’t ask to be born into this world.

You didn’t ask to be treated the way that you were treated—whether it was by bullies, parents, or other family members.

You didn’t ask to “be a burden” to your caregivers, you deserved that space to be loved and safe

You didn’t ask for your consent to be broken.

You didn’t ask for the shame and guilt someone put you through.

You aren’t bad for something happening to you. You aren’t your trauma.

I’m sorry if you were ever made to feel that way, and I know that may never mean much coming from a stranger, but I know it’s something I wish I heard more.

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─── ⋆⋅CIU Spotify Outfits⋅⋆ ───

A friend of mine once posted something on Discord, showing some images from the Chinese version of CIU on Taptap, including some promotial art that was used for Spotify albums. And since I absolutely loved those outfits, I totally had to draw them-

Yes I know Eugene's pocket is on the wrong side..

Here's the original images by the way! Scanning the QR-codes would send you to a spotify playlist, but sadly I can't seem to scan them myself.. (So if anyone could send me those playlists? 👀)

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Guys, I think I found a shiny!