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headcanon that the first time jean calls jeremy to wish him a good morning because he’s at the lofts and jeremy is stuck at ‘home,’ jeremy will hear his raspy morning voice and be so in love with it and flustered that he’ll hang up out of ‘oh no he’s hot’ gay panic and it’ll be jean’s turn to stare at his phone ‘amused despite himself’

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“I am not sorry. Perhaps I should be. But I will choose you every time. You, and Cat, and Laila, every time. I will lose them all if I must.”

So this is an actual, real quote in the book, p. 443 of The Golden Raven.

This is canon. It's indisputable.

Jean has already chosen where he's gonna be standing. It's not even a question. It never has been, since the very first time he realized he was safe with them. They are his family. He will be choosing those three (and that includes Jeremy, his canon love interest and TSC's canon protagonist) every time. Every single fucking time.

He'll lose them all (all of them, I repeat: all of them) because these three are the ones he loves and nothing and no one else compares to them.

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ok this might be controversial but i actually DONT what Jean to be there when Jeremy has his crashout. first of all I LOVE that they have other ppl to lean on besides each other, the emphasis on community and found family and non-romantic bonds is one of my fav things about aftg. second think of the DRAMA

jeremy has his crashout (im imagining this before established jerjean), he's with rhemann or Laila or maybe both, but for whatever reason Jean's not allowed in. because Jeremy doesn't want him there.

And Jean is devastated. He's his PARTNER, he's his FRIEND, why can't he be there for him? Why can't he know what's wrong? So Cat says to him "Would YOU want Jeremy there when you had your worst moment? When YOU had a total breakdown?"

No, of course not. Absolutely not. He forced himself back together as quickly as he could in the shower after Grayson the moment he heard Jeremy coming. He was so grateful rhemann protected him when he couldn't pull himself together after zane. when rhemann asked him "out or in?", Jean said out.

"Don't you think Jeremy wanted to be there for you then, too?" Cat asks. And maybe thats when it all catches up to Jean, everything he's been ignoring and denying himself shatters and he cant help but face what he wants.

he's not supposed to be allowed to want. but whoes there to stop him anymore? only himself, and there was no one left to hold him accountable anymore. Jean could do whatever he wanted to.

beside exy. he still has to play.

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No thoughts just Jean and Cat

Jean only trusting Cat to help him with food

Jean letting Cat hug him… then hugging her back

Cat telling Jean she loves him

Cat and Jean on a motorcycle

Cat kissing Jean’s forehead despite like a foot height difference

Fuck a Kevin duology I need Cat and Jean platonic soulmates for 700 pages asap

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I love Jean protecting Jeremy, showing who's in charge and that he doesn't hesitate to protect what he wants.

"You missed" and "Just once"

My God, I'm feeling hot…

But there's something about imagining Jeremy losing his iron grip.

There's something about imagining someone slapping/punching Jean, and Jean just staring at the insignificant creature in annoyance, because he's Jean Moreau, and by God, he's suffered more intense pain than a ridiculously weak slap or punch.

Jean considers whether hitting back might affect the Trojans or if he should use another strategy… And suddenly you have Jeremy launching himself at the attacker with bloodshot eyes, furious in a way very few have ever seen from him.

Jean has to grab him, pull him off the attacker (who's terrified), and practically drag him away. Jeremy is out of control, and tears of rage spill out as he screams, "No one's going to hurt him anymore! Do you hear me?"

When they get quite far away and Jean lets go of Jeremy, Jeremy begins to cry out of rage, shame, and helplessness. Shame because he's thrown his principles of nonviolence into the mud, and on top of that, Jean saw it. Jeremy doesn't want Jean to see this because he deeply hates that part of himself. But at the same time, he feels helplessness because he couldn't stop the attacker before he hit Jean, and anger… Rage at the injustice and because he would do it again.

Every time Jeremy thinks about Jean suffering another blow, no matter how small, Jeremy can barely contain his rage.

Not Jean. Jean doesn't deserve another blow. Not Jean, ever.

Jean hugs Jeremy while Jeremy cries, still furious and grieving for Jean.

Even though this goes against Jeremy's principles and what Jean is building with the Trojans… Jean feels very warm because someone has done a hit for him because he couldn't bear to be hurt.

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completed fics and wips [ao3: iz_anxiously]:

healed everything but my shame [completed; jerejean; post-tgr; jeremy knox crashout]

slow show (i wanna hurry home to you) [completed; jerejean; daddy kink]

gentle with me [completed; adicoach origin story] [will do a part 2 at some point tho]

candle in the wind [work in progress; extremely angsty jerejean omegaverse] [SNIPPET #1, #2, #3]

so easy to love [work in progress; "lighthearted" (LIE) omegaverse jerejean ft. surprise pregnancy] [SNIPPET #1, #2, #3, #4]

untitled 5+1 jerejean [work in progress; spanking hell yeah]

untitled kevallison [work in progress; Allison-centric; pros au]

🫡✨🌞🌚🥁

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I keep coming across these delicious Andreil fics where one or both of them start wanting sex to be a little rough, like Neil wants Andrew to choke him/andrew wants to fuck Neil’s throat etc, and they feel SO BAD bc wtf is wrong with them, that’s not them, yada yada yada

So now i submit a new request to the council- Jerejean, wherein they’re together, they’re having sex, and it’s amazing and usually intense and soft and passionate, but one day Jean overhears one of Jeremy’s old hookups saying smth like ‘i remember you like it rough, and i know you remember i can give it to you how you like’ and Jeremy responds with ‘i like it how my boyfriend gives it to me, ____, I’m not interested’ and is horrified when he realizes Jean overheard, and promises he doesn’t miss rough sex, he wants THEIR sex, and Jean believes him, but he also can’t get it out of his mind.

Bc when the hookup dude was talking, Jean imagined Jeremy all fucked up and gasping while he pounded into him, bouncing him on his dick like a rag doll, or pinned against a wall so Jeremy could just take it, and Jean is so ashamed bc what the FUCK why does he want that?!

And Jean and Jeremy have to have a REALLY embarrassing conversation where they both think the other will be disgusted with their shameful secret desires but ofc they love each other and are into it and they end up having steamy hot rough sex.

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I think Jeremy and Jean are versatile, but for obvious reasons, they'll start with Jeremy being in the "passive" position for the first few months (maybe years) of their relationship.

When Jean wants to try, Jeremy is going to be absolutely vocal. He's going to tell Jean how much he likes everything about him, how much he likes how huge he is (because by then Jean will be a considerably muscular and big professional player, and Jeremy didn't think he had a thing for big guys until Jean), how much he likes the way Jean looks at him (as if Jeremy were his and at the same time, his only god), how much he likes that Jean trusts him and worships him now (and Jeremy doesn't plan on letting him down), how much he likes that Jean takes control even when they're like this and lets Jeremy guide certain aspects, how much he likes his eyes, his deep voice, his accent, his courage, his kindness, his…

I don't need to talk about the contrast/parallel this represents for Jean with what he's been through, right?

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i feel like once jean has kissed jeremy, once jeremy is on the receiving end of jean's (more obvious and actually real) affection, jeremy's eyes will be opened to how truly subpar his hookup partners have been. the first time his phone chimes with the hookup ringtone (because he hasn't had time to change it yet), he'll just look at his phone like... ew. because even after just a kiss from jean, everyone else cannot even compare. 😌

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i have this headcanon that jeremy and the girls try to show jean so many movies to get his taste and his favorite ends up being shrek

Now anon what do u got against Shrek 🤨. Unironically I really like those movies LMFAO.

But that would literally kill me (especially bc him and Jeremy are so Shrek & Fiona to me HAHAHA) . Fr tho— the girls & Jeremy seem like such movie buffs . They’re like watch this one it’s so artsy. Watch this one the metaphor is so good . Watch this one I love the lighting. Meanwhile Jean’s taking too much pleasure in Farquaad getting eaten by the dragon.

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Jabberwocky gets injured (😨😨😨), it’s nothing serious, but now he has to wear this damn cone to prevent him from irritating the wound. No one really expected Jean to be the one who freaks out the most. “He is not comfortable, Jeremy, do we really need to put that thing on the beast?”, “He tried to take it off, he’s hurting himself, don’t you see?!”, “How is he going to sleep in that thing? No, I’m taking it off, I will keep an eye on him so he’s not licking the stitches”. But then also “….he looks ridiculous”, and Jean takes a photo of poor Jab looking like a sad cosmo dog. But he immediately goes back to fussing around Jabberwocky, and it takes all of Jeremy’s willpower to not say “you’re doing amazing, daddy”

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I totally agree, but I think Kevin should show up once so Jean can close things out with him. This is Jean's story, and like it or not, Kevin is part of that story. There's still unfinished business. Another option is for Jean and him to close things out in The Queens Game, but I'd feel the Jean and Jeremy trilogy is incomplete if Jean doesn't close things out with Kevin first... and by close things out, I mean Jean standing up to Kevin and making it clear that Kevin will never have any power over him again. The structure of The Nest is dead, and Kevin can no longer give orders. Jean won't listen. Otherwise, I feel the same way. No Foxes. At most, Neil if he has something to do at the trial. Nothing more. We'll see them again in The Queens Game, I guess, so... And yes... we need a lot more Jeremy episodes. I want to know EVERYTHING about him, and I feel like we've barely scratched the surface.

Hot take: We shouldn’t learn more about Kevin in TBC. These books are meant to be Jeremy’s and Jean’s books. We barely even cracked open Jeremy… could claim MAYBE a tiny bit of the duology didn’t exist but now that it does, we don’t have the room to slide in Kevin anywhere in TBC. We need to focus on Jeremy (mostly) and Jean.

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Imagine this:

Neil sets "a trap" for the Trojans.

This happens after the true extent of the Moreaus' involvement and the involvement of Tetsuji Moriyama or something like that are revealed. A revelation that Jean and Neil are both from dangerous families.

Neil tells the Trojans (specifically Jeremy) that Jean would be better off with the Foxes, that they're used to dealing with people like Jean's surroundings, and that the Foxes can arrange for Jean to join their team.

Kevin is very surprised. Renee is briefly horrified, though she doesn't entirely disagree with the idea (she feels more at ease thinking about Neil and Andrew being around Jean).

Neil makes a comment about Jean being more "comfortable" with them, and glares at Lucas in the process.

Lucas starts it all.

"You despicable bastard."

The Trojans' reaction to this is absolutely visceral.

Derek and Derrick go crazy, insulting the Foxes like they've never insulted any team, completely out of sportsmanship. Tanner and the freshmen "ducklings" swarm in outrage, clinging to Jean as if he were their older brother protecting them from bullies, telling Jean to "fuck them." Cody steps forward, standing in front of the Monsters, very serious. Ananya and Patrick follow him, and then Xavier and Min Cai stand in front of an increasingly tense Nicky. Andrew looks at them with obvious boredom, Aaron glares at Neil, and Nicky tries to calm things down to no avail.

Cat and Laila ask Dan what the hell she's doing allowing this. They tell him Jean is theirs and to find someone else. Dan, who has no idea what Neil is up to, shrugs and just goes along with Neil's line. Matt tries to calm Cat and Laila, as does Nicky, but Cat and Laila are furious. Despite Matt being very tall, he almost seems small next to these two angry girls.

Jean looks at Kevin with something Kevin had never seen in him before. At least, not so clearly. Jean seems to be seriously struggling not to strangle him. Jean accuses him in French of planning this. Kevin retorts that this is all Neil's doing.

And meanwhile…

Neil's deep blue eyes seem to want to devour the earth in Jeremy's eyes, like waves crashing against the sand, trying to gain ground.

Jeremy looks at him gloomily and takes a step forward. Andrew takes another step, but Jeremy ignores him.

Jeremy speaks in French. It's not perfect French, and it's clear Jeremy hasn't fully mastered it yet.

But Neil understands perfectly.

"I know what happened with Grayson," he declares. "I know what's going on with the Moriyamas. Not everything, but I know the important stuff. I know who you are and what you can do, Neil. You can send your contacts after me. Send them to my doorstep and have them break my bones, if you want… But Jean isn't leaving. Not if he doesn't want to."

Kevin is surprised by the extent of what Jeremy knows. Neil isn't surprised at all.

Actually, these are the words Neil was hoping to hear. The clenched fists and the furious glare of the barely controlled Sunshine Captain. The Trojan team on the verge of losing its composure and its sportsmanship.

His players vastly outnumber the Foxes. They all look like they're about to kick Neil's ass right now, and send his sportsmanship to hell.

Neil is grinning from ear to ear, unnervingly. Jeremy doesn't flinch.

"So… are you home?" Neil asks Jean in French.

"They are my home, you loudmouth," Jean says without a doubt.

Neil nods.

"Good. See you on the court then."

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it was always gonna end like this

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Neil intimidating Jeremy about Jean... well...

Have we thought about Neil giving Jeremy a gun because "I won't give him to you if you can't take good care of him"?

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I just read a comment that has stirred my fury, but I won't waste time criticizing it and starting a fight. No.

But you have archaic taste, girl! Why do you do it if you don't like it?

No, no... breathe...

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I have a hard time reading Jerejean fics after TGR. Not because of Jerejean's roles or anything, it's just...

Somehow, compared to canon, Jean is always too dramatic, too bland, or too romantic. I don't think Jean is romantic or the kind of guy who says cheesy things.

I don't think Jean is especially dramatic (he is, but in keeping with his trauma, and he doesn't have a tendency toward self-pity).

And I don't think Jean is bland.

I really think Jean is funny.

He's that kind of funny person who doesn't try to be funny, but what he says is so weird and unsympathetic compared to his stoic appearance... that you can only laugh.

"A stupid question deserves a stupid answer"

"Abominable cockroach"

"Half-baked baguette"

It's just... I can't take any fic seriously that ignores this bitter sarcasm and witty comebacks. 😂 Do you know Jean Moreau? Well, you can't leave the best behind!

Jean is one of those unpleasant people who, at first, you dislike, and suddenly, he's become your bitter friend for life 😂