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Jeremy to Neil at some point.

"I'm glad Jean has you."

Neil looks Jeremy up and down and turns to Kevin, asking in French.

"Why is Goldilocks talking to me?"

"Don't be a jerk, Neil," Kevin replies, also in French.

Neil is still suspicious, so Kevin (who knows perfectly well Neil's standards for trusting someone) speaks in Neil's ear in French.

"Orgie?" Neil asks, eyebrows raised. "et la cocaïne... son frère, cette même nuit? et une famille de merde..."

Kevin stops whispering in his ear. Neil turns to Jeremy, more relaxed.

"It's okay."

Jeremy, who has been nodding politely up until this point, says:

"Je peux vous raconter l'histoire plus en détail, si vous le souhaitez."

Kevin turns white. Neil raises an eyebrow.

"I'll be watching you," he tells Jeremy, and Neil leaves.

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“Queen!” Cat says as they exit the court after the game. “You and minyard ok to ride back with Laila?”

Kevin frowns at her, at Laila’s Civic, and then around at their small group. “Will there be room?”

Cat frowns back. “Yes? Laila’s got four open seats. Last I checked, there’s two of you.”

“There’s six of us.”

Now Cat looks a little amused. Jean feels that same amusement dance through his bones, but he takes pity, and clarifies, “Cat and I also drove.”

This only makes Kevin’s bewilderment grow. Jean tries not to feel too satisfied, but judging by the way Jeremy snickers beside him, he knows he’s failing.

Kevin stares at him. “You have a car?”

“Not exactly,” Jean says. He tips his head toward the parking space where his and Cat’s bikes sit side by side, and sees the way Kevin tenses. Sees the disapproving mask come down over his expression.

“You’re not driving that,” Kevin says in French.

“Have, and will,” Jean returns. “But by all means, you’re free to drive it back for me. Just make sure you don’t scratch it. It was not exactly cheap.”

Kevin balks. Andrew says, “Secrets secrets are no fun.”

“Kevin doesn’t want Jean driving the bike.,” Jeremy translates. He ignores the baffled look Kevin throws his way, and the amusement Minyard displays, and continues, “Understandable, really. I used to be the same way.”

“You could ride with him,” Cat offers. “See it for yourself. I promise he’s very good. I taught him myself.”

Kevin looks more thrown than Jean has ever seen him, but Jean does not care to explain himself. Not now. Not anymore. Instead, he heads for the bike, and tugs the two helmets from where they’re hanging around the handlebars.

“No,” Jean says. “That seat is not for him.”

Jean tosses Jeremy his helmet, just to prove a point. Kevin’s jaw drops.

“You too?” He asks Jeremy.

Jeremy shrugs. “It’s very freeing. I think you’d like it.”

“You could get yourselves killed,” Kevin argues.

“California could fall in the ocean at any point in time,” Jeremy says. “Best not to dwell on ifs. You’ll go crazy.”

“Jean,” Kevin says, in that ever annoying tone. You cannot refuse me.

Jean can. And does. He swings his leg over the bike, and settles onto the seat, and when Kevin opens his mouth again, revs the throttle.

“What was that?” Jean asks. “I couldn’t hear you.”

“Get off the bike.”

Jean rolls his eyes, and moves to put on his helmet. Kevin catches him around the wrist, grip bruising.

“Kevin,” Jeremy warns.

“Let go of me,” Jean tells him. And then, in French, “You do not get to decide what I do. I am riding this bike, whether you like it or not.”

Kevin does not like it. He also does not let go. Jean levels him with a calm stare. “Move or be moved, Kevin. The promise said nothing about killing you.”

Kevin huffs, but drops it. Jean places his helmet on his head.

“You’re being an idiot,” Kevin presses.

Jean revs the throttle again, holding a hand to his helmet where his ear would be, and then shrugging in a helpless, what can you do? gesture. Jeremy laughs, and climbs on behind him.

Jeremy puts his own helmet, and wraps his arms around Jean’s waist; tosses a megawatt smile at Kevin, even though the man can’t see it. “Drive with Cat!” Jeremy calls. “You’ll see.”

Kevin crosses his arms. Shakes his head. “I will not.”

Jeremy shrugs. Jean revs the engine again, and this time, Jeremy knows it means they’re about to move. He lifts his legs off the ground as they start off toward the gate, gives one last glance to his friends as they go. “See you soon!”

Kevin scowls at them until they’re out of sight. Jean’s laughter rumbles through his chest.

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Jeremy and Jean begin a secret relationship, kissing secretly, slowly, unhurriedly, enjoying each other without anyone bursting their bubble. No one knows, although they suspect it, especially Cat and Laila, who hear Jeremy's door opening to enter Jean's room when he thinks everyone is asleep.

Jean is fascinated by Jeremy. He has to pinch his face when he wakes up to make sure he's not dreaming. They talk all the time. Jeremy teaches him so many things, and sometimes Jean stares while he talks, and Jeremy asks him questions, and Jean blushes because he wasn't listening, too focused on his smile and his freckles, and Jeremy laughs and repeats himself. And then he repeats himself in very bad French, but it's Jean's French, and he loves it when Jeremy uses it.

Jeremy wakes up thinking about Jean. He goes to bed thinking about Jean. He dreams of being in his arms and just resting, certain that Jean will hold him when he's exhausted. Jeremy watches him while he sleeps. Jeremy just wants to see Jean relaxed, so he makes sure there's something nice for him every day, and it's very easy because Jean appreciates every silly thing Jeremy gives him. There's something Jeremy loves about Jean's incredibly witty grunts. Jean is a genius at Exy and everything he touches, and Jeremy is encouraged to try things because he wants to be a genius at something other than Exy, too. Jean looks at him in horror when Jeremy tries to surf, and this makes Jeremy burst out laughing and Jean puts his feet in the water to make sure Jeremy is okay when he falls off his board. Jeremy takes him for a walk along the shore to calm him down.

Jeremy would like to hold his hand, but he doesn't want anyone to say anything bad about Jean for being there for him.

But...

The more Jeremy gets to know Jean, the more scars he sees on her skin when they're naked in bed. More information comes to light about Jean's parents. More Ravens commit suicide. Jeremy learns more about Elodie and how Jean took care of her because their parents were horrible, but he also realizes they weren't the ones who physically hurt Jean so much.

With Kevin's hand broken and so many Ravens committing suicide, Jeremy thinks about Tetsuji and Riko, and the sheer reign of terror they had to establish. But... How did they allow this? How is it possible that the FBI is having so much trouble finding Tetsuji? How is it possible that no one in Evermore did anything? How is it possible that so many families remained silent about what was happening there?

Jeremy pushes those thoughts aside because he knows Jean doesn't want to talk about it, but there's something in his head that tells him Jean may be in danger, and that scares him. The alarm that sounded when he saw Noah getting worse and worse is on, and Jeremy can ignore it at Jean's request, or turn it on.

One night, the four of them watch a Foxes game. Jean criticizes Neil.

This isn't new, but Jeremy thinks about Neil and his strange relationship with Jean. Jeremy thinks that both have parents connected to criminal organizations and both were in The Nest. Why The Nest? Why did they go there? Why could Tetsuji do whatever he wanted without consequences for his players?

Why?

And Jeremy thinks about the Moreaus, the Wesninskis... About how two players connected to criminal organizations ended up in a place where people were abused to the extreme for financial gain. He thinks about Riko, who destroyed Jean and Kevin without them being able to defend themselves, and Tetsuji, who did nothing to fix it and fueled the whole thing. He thinks about the FBI looking for Tetsuji and that he's disappeared.

Jeremy thinks about millionaire Ichirou Moriyama, heir to a business empire.

Jeremy thinks about Jean, with his kind and protective heart, and how terrified he was even after leaving The Nest.

And then... Jeremy understands.

When he and Jean go out for a walk that night with Jab, Jeremy is very serious.

"Can I ask you a question?"

Jean's back stretches, tense. No one speaks for long seconds until Jean nods slowly.

Jean is ready.

Jeremy looks him straight in the eyes.

"The Moriyama family is like yours and Neil's, right?"

Jean's eyes widen, but he doesn't say anything.

Jeremy doesn't need to.

Jeremy takes Jean's hand, which has lost all color and warmth, and kisses the palm. Jean's pulse is racing, but he slowly relaxes with his kiss.

"I'm with you, Jean. No matter what."

Jean is silent. He pulls Jeremy close and kisses his forehead with the warmth and love Jeremy has never felt before.

"I don't want to drag you into this. I won't."

"That's not your decision, it's mine."

Jean isn't convinced, but there's something absolutely liberating about the fact that Jeremy has guessed what's going on and continues to kiss his hand.

"I can't stop playing," Jean reveals. "Actually... It's not that bad. Not anymore."

Jeremy feels relieved by this, but also guilty for all the times he's said Jean didn't have to keep playing when he graduated. There's a lot he still doesn't know, but now he knows it's not that easy.

"Please don't leave me out of it. Whatever happens, don't do it. I won't allow it, Jean. I won't leave you behind."

Jean gasps, fascinated, unable to think. He's never seen Jeremy so serious and serene, so determined.

Jean thinks of Neil. Neil wouldn't put Minyard in danger, never, so there might be a chance for Jeremy and him. Maybe.

Jean takes a breath. He gently lifts Jeremy's chin and summons all the courage he thinks he has in this single moment.

"Okay. I'll tell you."

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I think what could make Jean explode against Kevin is if Kevin says something like, "We're the best exy players in THANKS to what they did to us."

Because yes, I think Kevin thinks this after reading TGR, and hey! This is a valid thought for a victim to tell themselves to feel empowered.

"They did this to me and I overcame it, and I'm stronger because of it."

The typical, brutal "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

I think Kevin, Thea, and the Ravens in general have this mindset. I think it's the mindset Tetsuji raised them with.

I also think that if Kevin says this to Jean when Jean is well enough… Jean will punch his nose in the head.

And maybe, just maybe, this is something Kevin needs to start questioning what he's been through.

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A player just lost his grandmother/mother/father/brother/pet:

"So you're taking the day off? Why? You're not going to revive anyone by standing there moping, you know that. Instead, pick up your racket and honor their life by crossing the court and breaking your own record… but don't cry. You won't be able to see anything with your helmet on, and you might injure someone if you keep crying like that, and what are we going to do about someone injured and a crybaby starting the next game? Wipe your face and show some presence. Oh… And I'm sorry, I guess."

Kevin Day after HR tells him he needs to be more considerate of his team members.

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when leo says "there you are" to jeremy it's after leo has called bryson a willshire and jeremy says he's not in a flat tone. leo pulls jeremy in with a bruising grip, kisses him, and taunts him more, calling him "knox". we get nothing from jeremy, he just says he has to leave and does. however, when jean simply says "there you are" to jeremy, jeremy calls that jarring. jean caring/noticing him is more jarring to him than leo physically and emotionally hurting him.

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Jeremy is content, happy, and satisfied. He has a few marks on his body, and he disappears from time to time.

Laila and Cat are suspicious. Laila is upset because it's definitely a new, unhealthy fling, and Laila is fed up with them. They're no good, and they know they're going to hurt him sooner or later, or Jeremy will hurt himself with them.

But Jeremy seems more and more enthusiastic and happy, like Laila has never seen him before. Laila hopes this man isn't like that jerk Leo…

But Jean… Why can't Jeremy notice Jean? He's right there in front of him and he's perfect for him! But Laila doesn't want to get in the way because she also wants Jean to be well, and comfortable, and Jean… Strangely, he doesn't seem very jealous this time…

"Why aren't you jealous?" Cat asks Jean when Jeremy enters the shower, grinning from ear to ear.

"What?" Jean asks.

"Jeremy's happy," Laila says, a little more subtly than Cat. "I think he's with someone, and I'm worried about him. I was wondering if you… were worried about him, too."

Jean looks from one to the other.

"It's good that he's happy."

"Not if it's with some jerk who hits him, and we all know Jeremy has terrible taste in men."

Jean frowns and crosses her arms, but says nothing.

"It's probably another jerk. They'll probably break up quickly," Cat tries to reassure him, although Jean seems relatively calm.

"Maybe he won't be an idiot this time. Maybe he'll take good care of him," Jean says.

Laila and Cat look at him in bewilderment.

"What are you saying? Of course he's an idiot!"

"He's probably a handsome muscle man who practices some violent sport, and with the attitude of a jerk!" Laila assures him. Jean lowers his head, annoyed, thoughtfully feeling his prominent, hard biceps. "He'll hurt him, like always. He'll take advantage of him. He won't respect him while they're fucking, and he might hit him during sex, like Faser!"

Jean jumps as if he's just been slapped. He slams his fists on the table until it shakes and scares them.

"He wouldn't dare!" he shouts, indignant, red-faced with fury. "He may have his problems, but he would never hit Jeremy or his friends!"

Cat and Laila glare at each other for a second at Jean's fury. It takes them a few seconds of silence to realize they're misinterpreting the situation.

Jean rushes into the kitchen after glaring at them one last time.

"Jean…" Cat calls after him.

"What do you want for dinner?" He asks angrily.

"Jean…"

"We have to take out the trash and get Jab out."

"Jean…"

At that moment, Jeremy comes out of the shower, toweling his hair dry.

"What are you doing?"

There's a long moment of silence.

Jean speaks rapidly in French. A French Jeremy now understands almost perfectly.

"Ils disent que je vais te faire du mal parce que je suis un idiot musclé!"

Jeremy's laughter could eclipse the moon.

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Thinking about how Jean was the one who suffered the most out of the ravens but emerged the strongest. “We all know I have brittle bones” but he’s the only one withstanding the weight. “We’re all dying. All of us except you, when you’re the one who should’ve kicked it first.” But he’s finding reasons to live in everything. “Jean cannot betray [the ravens].” But he’s choosing his friends over them every time. “Jean Moreau, defense” / “it is all I am coach” but he’s learning he’s so much more. Can’t remember a quote about Exy being all there is but he’s learning there’s a world outside of it & that he loves it.

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Thinking about how Jean’s relationship with Kevin is giving “you make me wanna die”, while Jean’s relationship with Jeremy is nothing else but “you make me wanna live”. And it makes all the difference

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Exactly! I just hate that they take these decisions away from Kevin, trying to whitewash him into a mold of "purity" and "goodness."

Sorry, but if you have to do that to defend Kevin, it means you don't like Kevin as a character. You like what you've created in your own head!

Kevin is many things, but he's not kind, he's not likeable, he's not good (he's gray), he's a narcissist, he's often selfish, he has a drinking problem, he's not compassionate, he puts himself before others almost always... If we're being honest, he's very similar to Thea in terms of personality.

Do you really find a "kind" Kevin more interesting than this troubled character? I have to say, I prefer this imperfect Kevin a thousand times more than the one others are trying to sell me.

After The Golden Raven, I'm surprised there are still people saying Kevin didn't know the severity of Jean's situation.

I'm sorry to open the trash can, but I keep reading people saying Kevin didn't know about the rapes or the true extent of what Jean was going through. Jeremy and Kevin have a whole conversation about this, for God's sake!

Have we read the same book, or do you desperately need to pretend that Kevin wouldn't have left if he knew everything they were doing to Jean for some reason?

I don't understand the reasoning behind this.

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After The Golden Raven, I'm surprised there are still people saying Kevin didn't know the severity of Jean's situation.

I'm sorry to open the trash can, but I keep reading people saying Kevin didn't know about the rapes or the true extent of what Jean was going through. Jeremy and Kevin have a whole conversation about this, for God's sake!

Have we read the same book, or do you desperately need to pretend that Kevin wouldn't have left if he knew everything they were doing to Jean for some reason?

I don't understand the reasoning behind this.

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Hey you should write a fix about Jean choosing Jeremy infront of Kevin

Yes but what would the plot be 🤔 like what is the choice 🤔🤔🤔

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Let me try! 😱

Kevin, after years of unrecovering from what happened at The Nest, learns that Jean and Jeremy are getting married. Kevin dreams of Jean being his partner (a happy couple like Jean is with Jeremy), since Kevin has never been happy with Thea, and wonders if he would have been happy with Jean.

Kevin is confused because he's barely kept in touch with Jean after graduation, but it's all he can think about. In reality, his psyche is telling him that maybe he would have been happy with Jean because Kevin isn't happy with anyone or anything, and he's unable to accept that Jean has made it and he couldn't.

Kevin sees Jean after a game and asks to speak to Jean to congratulate him on the wedding. They talk, but Kevin can't offer his congratulations, and Jean is getting increasingly irritated.

Then Kevin says,

"I never thought you two would go this far. This could affect your career, you know?"

Jean is furious. Jean is about to leave, and Kevin grabs him. They struggle for a second, and he kisses Jean. Kevin needed to know if Jean could make him happy, and that's why he kisses him. Maybe if he had made different choices… maybe… Jean could make him happy like Jean does with Jeremy.

The kiss lasts only a second because Jean pushes him away with such a force that it almost knocks Kevin to the ground. Jean screams at him, completely horrified, and then Jeremy, who had been waiting for Jean outside the court after the game and saw this, appears. Jeremy stands in front of Kevin and slams him against the wall. Neither of them has ever seen him so furious, shaking with rage, his eyes watering with fury.

"You… you didn't ask his permission. You… you of all people… how dare you not ask Jean's permission?"

That's all that matters to Jeremy: that Kevin betrayed Jean's trust… once again. That he touched him without permission.

Jeremy isn't jealous. Jeremy is furious, horrified, and incredibly sad.

Jean immediately calms Jeremy down, forgetting about Kevin to focus on Jeremy and how hurt he feels, how worried he is about Jean.

And it's there, watching them both trying to take care of each other, that Kevin realizes that he and Jean would never have been happy together, because Kevin didn't see Jean as an equal, and that's why he had kissed him without permission. Because Kevin had never thought, not for a moment, that Jean could reject him, and he did. Because Kevin still thought of Jean as Number 3, despite having had his tattoo removed years ago, and not as a man who can decide.

And he had decided he didn't want Kevin.

Kevin starts going to therapy after this… with two fewer friends.

Hey you should write a fix about Jean choosing Jeremy infront of Kevin

Yes but what would the plot be 🤔 like what is the choice 🤔🤔🤔

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Jean likes the exy, and I don't think he'd quit even if he were given the chance. He'd quit if he had to play like he did with the Ravens or a similar team, but not for the sport itself. No one who doesn't like it would write several pages of notes for members of an opposing team, a rival team, by the way.

Jean didn't like his old team, nor did he like being forced to play under threat of death. Well… Logical.

It's also normal to hate what he was sold for, but not the sport itself.

That's very different from not liking the exy.

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Neil and Jean are on the same professional team. They're always together, but they "hate each other." Someone from an opposing team at a party similar to the annual college banquets has a run-in with them and says some pretty hurtful things.

He's referring to the old rumors about Jean, which have practically disappeared by now, since he currently holds the title of best professional defenseman in the country. That jerk (of course, a former Raven whom Jean never met and who feels threatened by their obvious superiority) is talking about Neil's father.

He's talking about how normal it is for Jean and Neil to be together, considering they both come from shit.

Jean is thinking about how to beat him up Trojan-style (which to Jean means "without getting caught") when, next to him, he hears Neil…

"You know, I get it…"

Jean yells:

"Don't even think about it, maggot!"

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At a press conference, an interviewer openly claims that the Trojans have the best player in college exy. They have Moreau. Some are surprised, including Jean himself.

The best is Kevin, everyone knows that.

But this interviewer says:

"I've studied your career, and you're the only player in the history of this sport to remain undefeated. In every game you've played, your team has won, including your pre-college career. You've played a total of 74 games and haven't lost a single one. Congratulations! That's a world record."

People corroborate the information, and it's true. In fact, the only time Jean didn't play a game during his pre-college years, in France due to a dislocated shoulder, his team lost its winning streak.

The Trojans begin to shout and clap with joy. Jean is very, very surprised and doesn't know what to say.

And then the woman says:

"I want to tell you, I think you're the best player in college exy right now, especially since you joined the Trojans. Forwards may be more prominent, but sometimes the best player isn't the one who scores the most goals, but the one who stops the best forward, and that's you."

Jean opens his mouth and thinks of Kevin (in fact, everyone knows the interviewer is talking about Kevin).

Jean thinks about the face Kevin must be making watching the interview. He doesn't think about the irony. He doesn't think about being ranked ahead of Kevin and Riko. He doesn't think about the fact that he holds the world record for wins and is undefeated. He doesn't think about how this fact will increase his bid by millions when he turns pro.

Jean thinks about Kevin's wrinkled face and his horror at hearing the interview.

Jean can't help it.

Jean bursts out laughing.

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Jeremy Knox is NOT a sex addict

If he were, his thoughts would be on that topic frequently, but they aren't. For example, the only thing we see at TSC is a very vague comment about how he's never slept with anyone in a bed other than for sex. In fact, it doesn't seem like Jeremy has had much sex at all at TSC, which is logical since his casual hookups aren't anywhere near campus at that point.

He only seems to have sex with Bishop when Bishop returned, and that's all, because this jerk called him, not the other way around. Jeremy has sex here after accumulating stress with Jean's arrival and the constant discovery of what's been done to her, plus the start of his final season of exy. Jeremy is very stressed here, and the stress has been piling up. When Bishop calls him, Jeremy comes after a very busy summer.

Has Jeremy had any thoughts about sex up to that point? None. He's only thought about Jean, Kevin, slightly about home, his friends… Nothing else.

In reality, except with Leo, we don't see Jeremy initiating sexual contact, only following the lead of the person who asks.

Jeremy's thoughts don't revolve around sex. His thoughts are "being with his friends, helping Jean, exy, and family." When one of these thoughts gets out of hand, he turns to one of his hookups to "relax."

In reality, Jeremy's thoughts don't revolve around sex, not even during sex or when he's close to having it.

This is VERY worrying.

No, Jeremy isn't a sex addict. In fact, we met 4-5 people in a two-month period, and they were all old acquaintances. Even if he did seek them out, it's not a typical "sex addict" number (an average of one person every two weeks or so isn't that alarming, especially for a young college student).

The alarm bells come from the WHEN Jeremy has sex (usually when there's a very strong stress trigger) and the PEOPLE he has sex with (who are harmful to him, who like to humiliate him, and with whom he doesn't set limits). In these highly stressful situations, Jeremy seems to have a hard time controlling himself, even to the point of seeking it at quite inappropriate times, as if it were a compulsion (like what happened with Faser).

Jeremy isn't looking for sex here, let's be real.

Jeremy is looking for what sex brings for him.

A distraction/relaxation/punishment.

Distraction because in those moments Jeremy doesn't have to think about anything, just focus on what's in front of him. This is something he also does when he's busy with everyone else. Jeremy seeks distractions by overloading himself with things to do.

-- Relaxation because an orgasm calms the muscles and clears the mind for a few seconds due to the surge of oxytocin, prolactin, and serotonin (the latter being the so-called happiness hormone). This causes Jeremy's brain to calm down for a few minutes, as if he'd taken a mild painkiller.

-- Punishment because the people he sleeps with treat him like shit. For someone who wants to redeem themselves and feels constant guilt, being treated badly makes you feel "calm." You're atoning for something. When you're punished and you expect that punishment, your mind calms down for a while from that guilt. You've already atoned for what you've done with the punishment. Now you can rest.

What Jeremy feels with sex and the humiliation inflicted on him is the same as a person feels when they've done something wrong and finally confess it, seeking forgiveness. A huge weight is lifted.

It's not much different from confessing in a church and receiving absolution from the priest.

The problem is that Jeremy NEVER receives absolution.

His family doesn't forgive him. Everyone knows a part of what he's done too, which makes the situation worse. They're feeding off Jeremy's own guilt. EVERYONE does. Jeremy first.

Jeremy CAN'T have peace; he'll never achieve redemption because he seeks it externally in people who are bad for him, in people who continually punish him, and he seeks that punishment hoping it's the last one he needs.

It's NEVER enough for Jeremy.

Jeremy's only option is to achieve redemption internally, and for that to happen, Jeremy must distance himself from those who are bad for him.

Jeremy isn't a sex addict.

He seeks a sense of calm, atonement, silence…

Jeremy's mind suffers from constant guilt. The weight is immense, and he no longer knows what to do to achieve calm. He only relaxes by being distracted and exhausting himself, or by having sex where he gets hurt to calm down for a minute.

Girls… We've read Neil kissing Andrew and having oral sex with Andrew. Has anything Jeremy does been described remotely close to what Neil describes? And Neil is asexual and doesn't say he's had sex with anyone. Jeremy is sexually active, so you'd expect his descriptions of sex to say something more, even…

They don't say anything.

Jeremy doesn't even think about sex.

JEREMY SAYS NOTHING, NOT EVEN TO HIS FRIENDS.

He smiles slowly and contently.

Nothing else.

Jeremy has a serious problem, and what he does with sex is a very serious symptom of it.

Jeremy is not a sex addict at all.