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IV. Fool

A tip of knife was staring at me.

I gasp as I tried to catch my breath.

I looked at you trying to plea for my life.

Only to find out it was an inch away from me.

I beg and beg and beg

But you pulled through--

Slowly...

Gently....

A blood drizzle as soon as it etched on my body.

You all laugh as if I'm a fool.

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III. What I deserve

All I do was to love him,

Because that is what I thought he deserves.

Perhaps, giving all to that person makes no sense..

Because here I am getting hurt once again.

Is this what I earn for loving?

What I do is to love and continued to love...

And guess where it leads me?

Nothing but agony.

Isn't it hilarious?

That-- all who loved dearly

Would always bleed & end up miserable.

Is this what we truly deserve?

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II. A guy with a white shirt

I couldn't forget how much you made me feel,

If only I could turn back time I would keep you still.

But life's unfair,

It never went on my side.

You've never been mine to start with, not even once.

Because I would always be that girl who will look at you from behind.

Who will stall at your precious smile

Hoping that I was the one you're smiling at.

Can you imagine the longing and regrets I've had right now?

Definitely not. Because you doesn't even know me.

Not my name nor my personality.

But, I would always wish to have the guts so I could confess what I really felt for you.

But, I'm a girl and it's not cute nor attractive.

So, here I am.

Hoping that a guy with a white shirt--

Would notice me or even be called by my name.

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I. Blackhole

I see a silhouette

Going around the corner

I thought it was an imagination

But it's not.

So, I opt to follow--

To see nothing,

But a blackhole