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[elliesbelle]

this was the fit for last night’s lesbian bar escapades (+ knee high black boots not pictured)

do you guys wanna see the fit i’m wearing to the lesbian bar tonight

[elliesbelle]

the fitttttt belle the FIIIIIT 🗣️

RIGHT YEAH LOL gimme a sec

[elliesbelle]

HOW DID YOU FIND TWO BUTCHES TO DRY HUMP AT THE SAME TIME?????

dklfjflsksdf i was just dancing it out on the dancefloor at the lesbian club, and this one butch grabbed me by the hips and we started grinding up on each other and then another butch joined a few seconds later but from behind and we were just dry humping the fuck out of each other for a while, it was so hot, it was genuinely a butch-femme-butch sex sandwich

[elliesbelle]

hiiiii, closeted lesbian here. I’ve recently discovered my feelings for girls and was wondering, how does everyone deal with it??? i come from an extremely homophobic family but i love them so dearly and couldn’t ever wish to anger them. this is all so new and scary, i don’t know what to do. i was hoping for guidance from you, since you’re account has really helped me come a bit more up to terms with it. if this makes you uncomfortable to answer, i truly apologize :/

TW: mentions of death, abusive family & behaviour

unfortunately babes, i can't really dictate or predict how the people in your life will react :\

i won't sugarcoat it and say things like, "i'm sure your family will love you for you regardless!!!" bc that'd just be ignorant and unhelpful to you. i think that the kind of people your family have shown themselves to be will ultimately be a reflection of what their reaction will be. if they are as homophobic as you say, chances are that they will have a homophobic reaction to you coming out.

does this mean you shouldn't come out? i don't know. i unfortunately don't know your situation, and i don't know to what level of discomfort and hurt you're willing to go through as an aftermath. if you think you can ride through the storm, then that is absolutely your prerogative. it doesn't make you more or less of a lesbian. that is completely your choice, and you won't be making a wrong decision either way necessarily.

but please do not come out if you think for even a chance that your safety could be at risk. i know it's difficult to be closeted, but you can't be an out and proud lesbian when you are dead. it's a sad truth that we still have to face, but it's something that always needs to be pointed out.

as someone who was raised in a physically abusive family, i can tell you that it is safer and smarter to do whatever you can to keep yourself unharmed. if that means remaining in the closet until you have a safe place to be free, please do so. there are many things i should have kept secret when i was a child in order to avoid beatings and abuse, and i wish i could go back to tell myself that. your safety is the most important thing.

i don't want this to sound morbid at all, as if your life will forever be difficult because you're a lesbian. i won't say that things will get better because we are ultimately the deciders of our own fate. but i will say that things can get better.

thankfully, we do live in the age of the internet, so being a closeted lesbian isn't as scary and alone as it used to be. so if you can't find comfort in your spaces irl, at least you have online circles (please just be careful though). if you have any other lgbt friends irl? lean on them too. there's a reason it's called the lgbt community.

your family by blood may be important, but their opinion is not and will not be the be-all and end-all of how you should lead your life. you are far more important than any opinion, so please do not feel disheartened.

lesbianism saved my life, and i promise it can save yours too.

[elliesbelle]

show the fit!!!

ooh yes i will in a sec baby

[elliesbelle]

belle, queen of ellie having ocean green eyes (i LOVE it)

y'all can pry the description of ellie's eyes as "ocean green" out of my DEAD HANDS!!!

[elliesbelle]

BELLE. i found out that ive been led on by this girl for MONTHS which is omg so much fun!!! any tips on not feeling like a complete idiot or that opening yourself up to love is pointless LOL

oh babe i'm so sorry... that's so fucking awful and i'm sorry it happened to you

honestly love, i myself am still trying to heal in regards to love stuff! i religiously go to therapy bc of it lol (i think my last session with my therapist was my romantic life tbh). it's not an easy thing to deal with, and it can and does emotionally scar you.

i just hope you know that you're not a hopeless idiot. people aren't in the wrong for trying to accept the love they're offered, even if it's false or menial or half-assed. it's a natural thing to want to be loved.

i unfortunately cannot convince you that opening yourself up to love isn't pointless lol. not only is that something that i myself am trying to learn (last therapy session, my therapist was working HARD to try and convince me that i deserve romantic love and that i am capable of loving people genuinely and unconditionally, despite what certain people have told me in the past), but that's also kind of something you need to learn on your own, yk?

my biggest piece of advice is to focus primarily on the other parts of your life that are full of love. fixate on those things and people instead of wallowing. not to be corny, but love is always, always around to be found anywhere, so just find where it is in your life. it helps soooo much and you'll feel a better person for it.

[elliesbelle]

hii sorry to bother you < 3, i'm kinda new on this platform and i like your fics and some other people's but starting this morning i can't click on the post links do you know why? like i can't click the fic or masterlist links at all :( deleted & redownloaded n its the same

sorry lovely idk how to help you exactly, that may be something specific to you? :( have you tried contacting tumblr support? (they're useless 99% of the time but idk)

is it all masterlists or just some people's? are you trying to go on someone's masterlist who's changed their user recently? when someone changes their username on here, it voids the links on their masterlist because when the links were listed, it was with the old username

example (in case anyone's confused and also bc i'm always seeing this problem with creators on here):

imagine someone's username is bob. they have three links on their masterlist, and the URLs look like this: tumblr.c0m/bobpost1, tumblr.c0m/bobpost2, tumblr.c0m/bobpost3.

then they change their username to mark. the URLs automatically change with the username, so it'll automatically change to tumblr.c0m/markpost1, tumblr.c0m/markpost2, tumblr.c0m/markpost3.

but the links are still set to what they were when the masterlist was last updated, so the URLs will still stay with the bob username. those links will no longer work because the user with the username bob "doesn't exist" anymore.

the solution is for the person to merely relink their posts with the new URLs. unfortunately, there's not much to be done if you're just a reader :\

[elliesbelle]

If you don't mind me asking but have you written anything in chapter 3 of the heartbreak trilogy yet?

ngl i haven't just yet :( my focus has been on other works rn (particularly one-shots that i want to just post already) and the most recent chapter of ncty.

but dw!! i promised y'all the third and final chapter of tht, so you will receive it!!!

[elliesbelle]

yes… i am alive…

[elliesbelle]

I GOT HIT ON, CATCALLED, AND FOLLOWED BY MULTIPLE MEN AS I LEFT THE LESBIAN BAR TONIGHT?????

i just dry humped with two hot butches at the same time at the lesbian bar, life is sooooo good

[elliesbelle]

i bumped into on e of the hot butches in the bathroom and was told i’ve been a “bad b” all night and that im really fucking hot, i’m FANNING MY PUSSY

i just dry humped with two hot butches at the same time at the lesbian bar, life is sooooo good

[elliesbelle]

i just dry humped with two hot butches at the same time at the lesbian bar, life is sooooo good

[elliesbelle]

do you guys wanna see the fit i’m wearing to the lesbian bar tonight

[elliesbelle]

[elliesbelle]

Now I'm far away, these memories still remain

Art prints & posters HERE :)

[elliesbelle]

imagine coming back home and seeing Ellie play dress up with ur daughter and she goes all out and wears something stupid like fairy wings and a tutu just to make ur daughter smile I’m gonna cry and vomit

n : literally made me shed a tear while writing this. i changed up a bit pooks, hope this does your request justice!

click for palestine / please read (important!!) / how you can help palestine

the news of the pregnancy with yours and ellie’s second child wasn’t much a surprise to either of you. you and ellie both had been trying for a couple of months, being on and off doctors appointments for ivf, facing multiple negative tests much to your anticipation. now that you had finally conceived it was all you and ellie spoke about. the nursery, what gender the baby was, how excited you were that your little princess would be a big sister.

initially your daughter was gleed at the fact that she was going to be a big sister, but that wasn’t to say that jealousy didn’t creep in. ihe wasn’t the main centre of your attention anymore and she was albeit a little spiteful of her new sibling.

“look, he’s trying to say hi.” ellie nudges the toddler as the newborn yawned, his eyes moving over to his older sister and you could’ve sworn a small smile crept up his lips. yhe sight made your heart swell, it was just too adorable.

“you wanna say hi bubs?” you asked sage, which the 3 year old did what you did not expect.

“no! he’s annoying and i don’t like him! i. don’t. wanna!” sage replied, crossing her arms with a pout before stomping her foot on the floor and storming out the bedroom.

the two of you watched your daughter storm out the room, and looked over each other with baffled but knowing expressions. your daughter's jealous behaviour did not go unnoticed by the two of you. sensing the rather tense air within the room, the newborn within your arms began to fuss and you shot your wife a look.

“‘m going, i’m going.” ellie sighed as she stood up, walking out the bedroom to possibly help cheer up your daughter while you tend to your son.

as ellie disappeared to calm down sage, you turned your attention back to your son, cradling him gently against your chest. his tiny fingers curled around yours, and you couldn't help but marvel at how perfect he seemed, despite his occasional fussiness.

he blinked up at you with his wide, innocent eyes, and you couldn't resist smiling down at him. being a parent was simultaneously exhausting and exhilarating, but moments like these made it all worth it.

ellie tapped gently on her daughter's bedroom door, the sound echoing softly in the quiet hallway. "sage?" she called out in her tender voice, a hint of concern lacing her words. receiving no immediate response, she pushed the door open with a delicate touch, allowing it to creak open just a fraction.

"i'm coming in, kay?" she announced softly, stepping into the room with a gentle sway.

inside, she found sage huddled on her bed, her small frame folded in on itself, arms wrapped tightly around her chest. her little face scrunched up in distress, a pout gracing her lips, and her furrowed eyebrows adding to the adorable sight. despite the cuteness, ellie knew there was something troubling her precious daughter.

"hey, princess, can we talk?" ellie asked as she made her way to sage's bed, her steps light and careful. sitting down beside her daughter, she gently nudged the toddler with her elbow.

"you want to tell me why you said that to your brother?" she asked, her voice a soft murmur filled with warmth and understanding.

her heart clenching at the sudden but faint sniffle she heard from the little girl. "hey, hey, hey, what's wrong?" ellie asked, pulling sage into a comforting hug as the tears began to flow. she began to rub Sage's back in gentle circles, hoping to offer some comfort and reassurance.

"i made you and mommy mad," sage finally confessed, her voice trembling. prompting ellie to quickly reassure her. "of course not, we're not mad, just... a bit confused by your sudden outburst," ellie explained, feeling a bit out of her depth with one-on-one talks. that was always your domain.

sage continued to cry into ellie's chest, her sobs growing louder, and ellie wracked her brain for a way to calm her down. finally, an idea struck her, and she blurted it out without much forethought.

"hey, how about…you apologize to mommy and your brother, and then we can…uh, dress up and have a tea party? fairy wings and everything yeah?" she suggested with a gentle smile, hoping to lift sage's spirits.

sage's eyes widened in surprise at the suggestion, her tears starting to slow as a glimmer of hope flickered in her gaze. "rweally?" she asked, her voice wavering with uncertainty. wllie nodded with a warm smile, cupping sage's cheek in her hand. "mhm really. how’s that?"

"okay..." sage sniffled softly, wiping away her tears with the back of her hand. slowly, she climbed off ellie's lap, her small hand slipping into ellie's as they made their way back to the bedroom where you and your newborn son were.

with a soft knock on the door, interrupting your cooing at the baby, they entered the room, and your gaze instantly fell to your wife’s before meeting the remorseful eyes from your three year old.

sage entered the room, walking over and standing nervously by your side of the bed, fidgeting with her hands, her gaze downcast with guilt — a habit all too similar to your wife’s. like mother, like daughter.

sage stood by your side, fidgeting nervously with her hands, her gaze downcast with guilt. "’m sorry for being mean to brother, mommy," she apologized softly, her voice barely above a whisper. your heart melted at her words, and you a gentle ’c’mere’ escaping your lips as you waved her over and quickly pulled her into a tender embrace as she climbed onto the bed and lay on your side, pressing a loving kiss to her forehead.

"it's okay, sweetheart. i love you so much, y’know that?" you whispered, your voice filled with warmth and affection. "i love you too, mommy," sage replied, a soft smile gracing her lips as she returned your embrace. with a kiss to her baby brother's head, she then jumped off from the bed before running towards ellie, who scooped her up in her arms with ease, planting a gentle kiss on her cheek.

"what are you two up to now?" you asked with a playful smile, raising an eyebrow in curiosity.

"tea party!" sage exclaimed, her eyes lighting up with excitement as she wrapped her arms around ellie's neck.

“and you're not invited," ellie quipped, both of them sticking their tongues out at you playfully before leaving the room with sage in tow, the sound of their laughter echoing softly in their wake.