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It's infinitely funny to me that it has more bookmarks than subscriptions because I don't think people have realized there's a second chapter lmao

I wasn't expecting this many people to be nice about my fic 🥲

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how to draw arms ? ? 

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so I says to the guy …

Something to get my hand going

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babygirl

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Characters: Dream, Technoblade

Words: 7k so far (1 of 2 chapters)

Warnings: Referenced Torture, Abuse

Summary — The highs and lows of Dream and Technoblade's time together in prison.

(I've finally done it! This is the c!rivals fic I've been working on for months! It's my take on their time together during the prison arc, so expect the usual prison arc themes. The good(?) and the bad. This one has taken me a While, so I hope you enjoy it like I did!)

Technoblade’s arrival was bad. It was really, really bad. Somehow, in all Dream’s life, he didn't think he had ever been quite this fucked. He refused to look at him. He had his head between his knees, crouched tightly in his usual back corner. He didn't know how long he had been sitting like this. But he couldn't look up now, because then he would see Techno, and that would make it real. And it couldn’t be real. It couldn’t. His hands fisted in his hair.

Read on AO3.

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I wasn't expecting this many people to be nice about my fic 🥲

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thinking about c!dream earlier on in the server just makes me sad man. like, c!dream has never been a perfect character. he's always been flawed, always been a bit of an asshole, always had control issues. but also he knew that. he tried to work on that. he and tommy were friends, despite being flawed people with their own issues that would bump into conflicts because of the ways that they differed. c!dream tried, god, he tried; he wasn't even on the server, when the drug van happened, and walked into a place with someone who was practically a stranger to him building a wall and calling for war and having turned half the people dream knew against him, apparently, for no reason that he could've known at the time, and he had looked straight at tommy and tubbo and asked if that was what they really wanted when wilbur told them that there was no such thing as dual citizenship. he tells tommy when he has to sell a disc for spirit's leather even though tommy had surrendered the discs to him at the end of the revolution because he knows it'll matter to him. he and tommy truce, multiple times, and c!dream gets tangled into conflicts that literally don't involve him repeatedly and gets targeted Because He's Dream repeatedly and he plays along with that trivia contest and he gives gifts to fundy and tommy after terrorizing them a little for fun and he plays along with the dreamon thing and he keeps getting pulled into fights that weren't his but tries to make them a little more fair when they get him involved. he fucks around with tommy and they have fun, they're friends, and when he and wilbur look like they're in danger dream is one of the first to find them and lend them real, practical, valuable aid. he calls himself "Big D" in that book and he tells the man that wrote him as a tyrant that he doesn't want to be a villain in the story anymore. he asks tommy if he's okay, and watches that kid's back when he walks alone and unarmed into manberg, and fights with him at the battle of the lake and all of that is thrown back in his face as being a lie. half the intial community structures that exist were built by him; the community house, the nether portal and hub, the prime path. during a time where every other piece of leverage got burned or killed (rip the casualties of the pet war), dream was kind of known for being one that could be fairly traded with, that would minimize permanent damage. the kills in the final control room were originally to strip lmanburg of their gear, which he had kept in a chest so it could be returned to them after the war.

like no c!dream isn't perfect at the beginning of the server. yes he's kind of a jerk sometimes, kind of an asshole sometimes, kind of neurotic most of the time. but god dammit like c!dream does try to mitigate the worst of his control issues, when they flare up early on; the initial disc war ends with tommy getting his discs back as well as a stack of diamonds, in exchange for a netherite chestplate. he's a flawed character and he's still someone pretty friendly on the whole to most of the server, he's also kind of just known for being a little weird. he gives gifts randomly. he fixed creeper holes, and houses, and went along with bits. like whatever im a c!drolo c!dream woobifier and i admit it lol but for as much evil as he ends up doing, pretty damn consistently early on, he's . friendly? kind? funny? helpful? their neighbor. their friend. c!dream isn't just some stranger that flew off the handle; he's someone they knew and lived with who had his actions taken in bad faith because the goddamn story said so and kept fucking trying anyway until he believed the lie too. like he was just a guy!! a guy they knew and lived with!!! like my god

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I’ve seen a lot of “c!Dream builds up a resistance to healing potions in Pandora’s Vault” stuff around - and that’s really good! - but think about other side effects of potions. The biochemical ones and the psychological ones that can grow when you associate (and your body associates) a particular potion with a particular set of circumstances.

Did you know that in addition to medicines whose sole purpose is to alleviate the physical symptoms of these disorders, there are also no small number of medical drugs that can cause, as a side effect, symptoms of anxiety or depression? Not just recreational ones, but medical ones.

Think about c!Dream, after prison. His body is screaming for healing potions, it’s addicted, they’re not as effective as they used to be but still - he’s dependent (and he hates it) … 

But. 

But when he drinks one down, the relief that comes not only with the lack of pain but the emotional numbness, the emptiness, the life-can-pass-me-by-and-I’ll-just-float-along-bobbing-in-the-waves… That, in itself, is addictive. 

To fall in love with one’s own sorrow - the sanctuary and safety of it. To be frightened of the warmth and of feeling because the coldness no longer feels cold, the numbness no longer feels numb, and if anything disturbed the still lake of his heart then he might not survive the thaw…

In a post-prison healing fic like that, c!Dream would have to really want to feel again, to accept that if he wants to be happy and love once more then he’s going to have to open himself to the anger and sorrow as well, because otherwise he can easily - easily - keep choosing not to feel. Neither love nor hurt, happiness nor pain. 

And when you’ve been as hurt as c!Dream - physically, emotionally, mentally - who wouldn’t choose to not feel the pain?

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cloak

Characters: Dream, Technoblade

Words: 7k so far (1 of 2 chapters)

Warnings: Referenced Torture, Abuse

Summary — The highs and lows of Dream and Technoblade's time together in prison.

(I've finally done it! This is the c!rivals fic I've been working on for months! It's my take on their time together during the prison arc, so expect the usual prison arc themes. The good(?) and the bad. This one has taken me a While, so I hope you enjoy it like I did!)

Technoblade’s arrival was bad. It was really, really bad. Somehow, in all Dream’s life, he didn't think he had ever been quite this fucked. He refused to look at him. He had his head between his knees, crouched tightly in his usual back corner. He didn't know how long he had been sitting like this. But he couldn't look up now, because then he would see Techno, and that would make it real. And it couldn’t be real. It couldn’t. His hands fisted in his hair.

Read on AO3.

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Is anyone around for a pretty chunky c!rivals fic today

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Transcript Masterpost p. 1: Exile Arc

I originally planned to do exile arc through to c!Tommy’s revival all in one setting, but since I broke my elbow; that would be done very far into the future.

So, I decided to post the first part: Exile Arc.

In the beginning, I just wanted to transcribe the most relevant scenes with c!Tommy and c!Dream, and then later (first actual exile stream) I decided to transcribe entire VODs to be able to bring as many forgotten scenes and lines to light.

When my arm is healed, I’ll be going back and transcribing the entire pre-exile vods and updating this post as well, don’t you worry.

My hope is this will be able to help make it easier to include the proper quotes and timestamps in analysis posts, to minimise hearsay and spreading quotes people are unable to find the context of.

I’ll be linking to a Google docs for each vod as well as one big Google folder that will eventually be updated to include transcripts from Bedrock Bros arc and onwards.

If used, please reblog first.

Table of Contents

Tubbo and TommyInnit Start to Break Apart…

TommyInnit Is Exiled From The Dream SMP…

Tommy Is Alone In Exile With Dream…

Tommy Is Getting So Much Worse In Exile…

Ghostbur Gives Tubbo the “Your Tommy” Compass

Tommy Is So Lonely In Exile With Dream

Tommy Is Holding It Together in Exile with Dream

Tommy is Left ALONE at his Exile Party with Dream

Tommy Is Actually Depressed in Exile

Tommy’s Exile Is Coming To A Close

Tommy Speaks to Mexican Dream in Exile

Dream finally Abandons Tommy in Exile

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anyway positive thoughts

Do y’all think citizens in the dsmp are nationalist. Like someone from Las Nevadas gets drunk and posts themselves dancing in a strip club as Dream attacks the city on Tik Tok and all comments are like: that’s such a las nevadas thing to do. You never see people from Snowchester pulling that shit smh 🙄

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you wouldn’t survive an hour in the asylum where they raised me

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@axehasflowered I don't know if you'll ever see this but thank you for everything you did, your translations were awesome <3

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Nearly an entire half-year later... I emerge from the shadow realm, still alive, finally... free.

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for the interactions requests, cfoolish and dream comparing heights! love your art style :)

i haven’t watch the last lore lol

interaction prompt

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I'm converting the haters one by one.

If this commenter ever sees this, thank you for letting the c!Dream brainworms in. They're here to stay.