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Thoughts from a dreamer

Each time I rewatch the minecraft poem, I wonder what new meanings I can take from it. The first time I read through it, I didn't really understand it. I stayed for the music more than anything and the fact that I'm a minecraft fan/enthusiast. But I watched it again after finishing my 3rd year of university. And this is what i learned

I've been dreaming my whole life… of worlds and towns and universes and contraptions and identities all of which I wanted to pursue and did to the best of my ability. I knew my limits though. In the long dream of life, things seemed harder and I dimmed myself down until things seemed possible again – “I can't get the game? Figure out how to get an off brand version” – I created universes where I was legendary and other ones where I was a loner. I shifted from dream to dream and still am. But through it all, these words on the screen are telling me that the universe loves me because I am love… What does that mean? “I am love”... why would the universe love me for that? Is the fact that I love people, ideas, this world, enough to call me love?Maybe… I mean I was made from love, but what about those who werent… theyre still love aren't they? It must be those who surround us, those who love us that turn us into love.

As humans, we have an innate sense of love, dreams, memory… this is what allows us to generate new stories from our base programming. 

I can decode meaning into feelings. Isn't that amazing? That is what someone who is alive can do. I can decode the universe’s information. I’m literally made for that. And it keeps telling me that it loves me

I'm struggling to accept this because in a world as busy as this one, I forget that there are messages in the silence that I lose track of. I guess I don't want to accept that I missed out. That I limited myself so much that I forgot how to dream. Can I still dream? I want to.

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"Wow this klance fic looks really good!" I say with excitement.

I was then jumpscared with the major character death that I missed in the tags.

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Writing on my phone lets my ideas flow so much more freely wth

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More writers should consider just not telling their readers all of shit. Just don’t tell them stuff. What’s that monster? Fuck if you’ll find out. How did that weird as hell landscape marker come to be? Wouldn’t you like to know. How does the magic work? Just believe it does, motherfucker.

Readers don’t need to know everything. In fact, I absolutely advocate for not telling them certain stuff. If the characters don’t know, neither do they. If the narrator is omniscient? Lol no they aren’t.

Is this necessary for every story? Probably not. There’s plenty of good stories you could write while explaining all of it. But leaving those gaps, leaving those holes, can bring a story to life. Sometimes things happen in life that just… happen. Fucked if anyone knows why. Sometimes information gets lost. Sometimes information is hidden. But even beyond that, it expands the narrative.

If you explain when and why and how the murder monster became a murder monster, well… that’s forever set in stone now. Now they know. But if you leave it blank, absent of explanation, any explanation… it becomes an unknown. It forces your audience to wonder. Makes them think. That, more than you might think, makes a story get into your audience’s head, and once you’re there, you can make some real impacts.

So yeah, tell a story. But sometimes? Don’t tell your readers something. Make them fill in the blanks themselves.

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my earnest hope for 2025 is that everyone embraces being a little weirder and freakier and less judgmental bc we will all be better off for it like to charge reblog to cast

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BINGED AND CAUGHT UP LETS GOOO

As for Christmas activity ideas ~ stargazing with the McClains or having a memory jar where our boys tell each other their fav memories of the year :3

FINAL FIVE LETS GOOOOOO

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(Dive, dive, dive, dive, dive, dive)

Dive back in time~

it didn’t take too long to realize

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When I first got into Link Click, I didn't really know it was a crime thriller. Like yeah, there's crime and deaths and blood and kidnapping and SA and theft and human trafficking but like, surely this is just a happy little show!

And then Lu Guang got stabbed, Emma committed suicide/got killed, blonde dude got possessed and choked, Chen Bin fell off a roof, Officer Chen got boinked it the head, and then it took me the episode where they fought baldy dude and I realized: Oh shoot this is horror?

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RIP VOLTRON YOU WILL BE MISSED (im going to stream it illegally)

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Unlocked a forgotten memory

i saw wallace slice up the moon and eat it as cheese on a cracker as a kid and i just haven’t known true satisfaction since

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i have been finally stumbling upon better methods to study. i don't mean borrowing other people's methods online or getting tips, just a deeper understanding of how my brain and my field in particular works so that i am able to see the most efficient ways to get through it. but the issue is since i am starting my graduating semester soon, this realization is closely followed with regret. i regret not doing better in high school and all throughout university. i have been regretting all the imperfect scores along the way and have been mourning my life prior to this new found clarity.

but, i am trying to lock in for finals starting today and i am reminding myself that even ending on a decent note would count and that 20s are still the learning years. and that perhaps my most important work is still ahead of me. perhaps its that final semester. or perhaps it is the year of work and exam prep following that. perhaps my greatest achievements are yet to follow. perhaps it is not too late for the realization of my full potential.

on that note, i really want to see myself even for one week or something to actually live my "full potential" at that moment in time. ofcourse actually reaching the fullness would be quite sad as there would be no room to grow but that is not how it works though. we have potentials in every moment. i just wish i could be present enough, could love myself enough, could be disciplined enough to seize one moment of my fullest potential even if it is super brief perhaps even half a moment or something.

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Augh time to climb mountains again

Søren Kierkegaard

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“Oh he’s crazy crazy 😝”

I wonder how insane Lu Guang looks without knowing he's talking to Cheng Xiaoshi.

Like imagine you're a random stalker (why you stalking Lu Guang 🤨) and just see him shouting "IDIOT!" to thin air

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Got my flu shot today and bled all over the place. Pharmacist says I'm a "gusher". I say of course I am, I'm a fruit. No reaction. I throw my pearls before swime

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Damn I want a rich close physical touch type of relationship but away from home and parents, that’s nowhere to be found. What on earth do I do after I get tired of hugging my pillow every night? ;-;

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blue skies

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YESS LMAO

okay we need to have an intervention.

i've noticed that people don't leave the same kind of unhinged compliments under fanfics that visual artists usually receive (eg, "i want to eat your art"), so i've come up with a list that you need to start employing when your friends send you their WIPs and when your favorites update on ao3 but you're having a hard time commenting something that sounds intelligent and you still want to support them

"you're like if [famos author] (eg, Victor Hugo if the fic is angst) was into [fandom]"

"well THIS has been added to my pre-sleep daydream schedule"

"this fic invaded my mind and consumed my brain like a spore"

"I'M LOSING SLEEP OVER THIS ONE, FOLKS"

"yOu'Ve AlReAdY lEfT kUdOs HeRe"

"this fic has me scratching at my yellow wallpaper, it's so good"

"this fic has me checking under my floorboards for the heart of a kind man i murdered, it's so good"

"i'm making my parents read this"

"i know only one chapter is out so far, but i'm going to print this out, staple it together, and put it on my bookshelf next to the canon material"

"this fic gave me another mental illness"

(you can only do this one once) "i made an ao3 account specifically to bookmark this"

"i'm going to print this out so i can eat the words on the paper"

and a couple that are just nice (without the feral nature):

"i made a custom playlist to listen to while i read this fic"

"this fic reminds me of [song]"

"i really liked the part where [x], it really stuck with me"

"i really liked this line, [quote the line,] it was so well-written!"

artists: draw fanart of the fic!! it doesn't matter if you think your art skills are good and it doesnt matter if it's just a sketch!! let the author see it!!

make a moodboard!! for the fic!! let the author see it!!