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Çayımız demli,

Ekmeğimiz sıcak,

Umudumuz tam;

Herşey çok güzel olacak...

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Ruhunuz, gözünüz, gününüz aydın olsun…

Keyifli pazarlar☀️☕️🍃🌸🕊

ᧁüꪀꪖꪗᦔıꪀ...

🌈🌼🌺🌿🌹🌸🌿🕊

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Amazing Grace...

I met Grace at a very difficult time in my life. I was in a very hard relationship with someone who sucked the happiness away from me instead of making me happy. I was angry and trying to find myself, who I really was and if I could be alone. I was afraid and determined.

Grace met me at a difficult time in her life. She had just lost everything. She was hurt by people she thought loved her. She was beaten mentally and physically and was feeling like she was alone. She was losing herself and her independence. She was breaking, but not broken.

I remember the day Grace came to the assisted living facility I was a nurse at. I remember hearing her southern sassy accent for the first time and just thinking "shit, this lady is gonna be a tough resident". She was bossy, she was brutally honest, and wanted you to do everything for her. And you better have done it right or you would be in for an earful.

For three years we got into a routine. I woke her up and got her ready for the day, I gave her showers, I took care of her health, I sang with her and I prayed with her while putting her to bed at night. Grace gave me a purpose, Grace showed me I had a purpose, Grace helped me become stronger as a woman, she helped me know my worth.

Grace would tell me all the time I reminded her of herself when she was younger. She would tell me shes felt my pain, my heartache and she also told me to get the hell over myself and keep working towards my goal in life. She reminded me to take no shit for anyone, to always say what I meant and meant what I said.

Through those years we both grew, I got out of a dark place and found my sunshine. I found a man who is everything I have ever wanted and deserved. Grace found peace with this stage of her life. She would sit out in the courtyard with her eyes close and enjoy the sounds of the birds and the wind. She started to cherish every moment.

I grew in my profession and ended up having to part ways from working with Grace. She was scared, I could tell she didnt want me to leave. I told her I'd continue to come once and week and hangout with her. She loved the idea but I could tell she didnt think i was gonna keep up with it.

She was wrong. I have seen her once a week for the past three years. Havent missed a week yet. Grace has made me call her Granny Grace now and makes sure to tell everyone I'm her granddaughter. We both laugh and always say " Not by blood, but by love ".

Grace isnt doing so good these days. Old age and health issues are catching up with her. I have been blessed that Grace has now once again been brought back into my daily care at the facility I'm a nurse at. We both are loving seeing each other every day.

It's been bittersweet. It's hard to see someone I love so much slip away, it's hard to hear her talk when she is confused. It's hard to watch her be stubborn and refuse to work on getting stronger. But it's been beautiful getting to wake her up every morning and eat breakfast together. It's been so nice to sit outside and listen to the sounds of the world.

I hate to say it, but let's be real I'm a nurse and I see it all the time. This is the beginning of the end for Grace. I will cherish everyday I have with her, until she is called home.

...How sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me..

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Bob’s Burgers - Halloween episodes

S03E02 Full Bars (Oct 07, 2012) S04E02 Fort Night (Oct 06, 2013) S05E02 Tina and the Real Ghost (Nov 02, 2014) S06E03 Hauntening (Oct 18, 2015) S07E03 Teen-a-witch (Oct 23, 2016) S08E03 The Wolf of Wharf Street (Oct 22, 2017) S09E04 Nightmare on Ocean Avenue Street (Oct 21 2018) S10E04 Pig Trouble in Little Tina (Oct 20, 2019)

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Characters in Costumes🧡🖤

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I watched this like 50 times today lmfao

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The Skywalker Saga

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Dierks Bentley… That is all!

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dwaisy……

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Two sides to every story

I'm a strong believer in that, mainly cause I've been on the "second" side of a story. I know what the story looked like to everyone else but once you heard my side, it all sounds like a fairytale.

I was with my ex for five years, we met in high school his freshman year, so all his friends became my friends. I met Jackson in 2010, he was part of the "OG4" as my ex liked to call it, a group of kids who have been besties since middle school. Me and Jackson hit it off, eventually we became best friends, like legit best friends. I ate supper at his house, I've spent the night, I hung out countless times with my ex and alone. It was harmless on my part. Yes we all knew Jackson liked me, the other 2 of the group knew more than me and my ex, they knew how much Jackson was in love with me. But either way, I was head over heels in love with my ex, Jackson was truly only a friend and over the course of those five years he pushed his feelings for me on the back burner and stayed in the friend zone.

Come year 3 with my ex things got rocky, they had always been slightly toxic, but I was young and dumb. As I grew up i started to realize that we weren't on the same wave length, but still I stayed for 2 more years. 2 long years at that.

I told him I wasnt happy, I told him what I needed to be happy, I by all means am not perfect but I damn sure can admit my flaws and will always try to change for the better. My ex didnt know how to change, I ended up changing enough for the both of of us it seems, right into a different person. I fell into a deep depression, a dark dark lonely hole and my ex only kept digging it deeper and deeper.

My ex is a good man, just not for me. He was mean, violent and just downright hateful. I never felt loved, but damn did I fight for it. I had countless nights of tears and thinking I wasnt good enough.

The last 2 years were hell of that 5 year relationship. But I stayed.

Jackson was there for it all, he never knew what I was going through but he could tell I was changing. He told me one time " you smile has faded" I laughed and shrugged it off but oh how right he was.

3 years ago to the day (21916) is when my eyes & heart opened. Jackson had a MMA fight, my ex, me & another member of the OG4 went to go support. It may have been the crown royal i was drunk off of but I shit you not when Jackson got punched in the face my heart stopped for a second & my eyes closed.

When I opened them it was like my heart restarted and there was a yellow aura around Jackson, I was in awe of him.

I ended up having to take him to the ER that night, along with my ex. My ex must have suspected the change in me cause he got loud and wouldn't stop degrading me the rest of the night up until he passed out in the car as I stayed with Jackson in the ER room.

I remember stealing pictures of him, & answering all the nurses questions. We played it off like I was the gf so I could get back in the room with him. I had to stay the night with him that night and It was the first night that i dreamed of him.

The next 3 months after that I saw Jackson as something other than just a bestfriend. I had this battle in myself whether to brush it off and try to salvage what was left of me and my ex or say fuck it and cross the friend zone line.

I said fuck it.

I left my ex 3 months later, trust me it was a long time coming. Honestly it should have happened at year 3 [maybe even before that] not year 5.

And yes the next day the friend zone was crossed with Jackson. I have never seen someone more happy in my life. I always told him hes like the boy in all the 80s movies that finally got the girl. He was Jim from the office when Pam finally gave him a shot.

But then I would look in the mirror, in pictures and see that I was just as happy.

Flash forward 3 years and I am now married to Jackson. We still hang out with the OG4 [minus my ex ] and they tell us they knew it was bound to happen, Jackson was too in love with me for fate to never step in.

[I still laugh about that, looking back he really was in love with me all along]

In these 3 years I have never felt like I wasnt good enough, I have never questioned his love, I have never questioned his intentions, he is my bestfriend and my husband. He wakes up every morning and the first thing he does is give me hugs & a kiss and says he loves me. He calls me beautiful every day. We literally have the best time together. Our friends have told us they hope to find a love like ours one day & I hope everyone does.

To make a long story short, nothing is what it seems, dont judge someone off of one side of the story, also marry your bestfriend. It will save you heartache and pain. Trust me.

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In my feelings...

I know this is right, but damn some days are hard.

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