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I think I’m falling off the edge again and I don’t know who’s there to catch me or how I will stop myself . I’m fucking scared

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Why do I feel like I can’t breathe every night before I sleep

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Does anyone know of good ways to ease anxiety even a little bit. I think it involves the stress I am under but I feel like there is more I can do to ease it.

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This feeling will never go away, I can put it away for a bit but it always comes back

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Why am I like this. I didn’t ask for it.

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There are good days

And then there are bad days.

The good days are usually great, but then the bad days are terrible.

The good days are wonderful days full of laughter and smiles. The bad days are horrible, and crush any amount of hope I may have.

Lately I've have more good days than bad days, but the bad days still hurt. My thoughts still scare me. I still lose all hope that I'll ever be happy, and just when I build up enough hope that I'll be ok, the bad days show up and crush me.

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I feel myself going into this dark pattern of s*lf h*rm again and I don’t want to go back there. This feeling inside of me is eating me alive and I can’t tell anyone because I’ve just gotten better.

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Literally every time I feel like my mind is at war with itself i come here and feel heard and seen. Wish I could have more people to talk to about this shit you know

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Blue Velvet playing from another room

Bobby Vinton

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stick and stones

may break my bones

but my thoughts will fuckin’ kill me

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i’m such an asshole but i’m also a very kind-hearted person who likes making ppl happy and if i love u i will love u with all my heart and all my soul but then i’m also such an asshole

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Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean mental illness don’t exist.

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Panda

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Everything is blue