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Everything else creator's choice, juxefluix Steve Harrington pls

.. I think u sent this to the wrong blog, nonnie ^^;

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Unsure if youve ever answered a question like this but

How did your alters form? And whats living with alters like for you?

(Signed, an anon that knows close to nothing about willogenic systems lol)

hard to say for the first one. None of us really have memories of how we 'willed' the others. I think I have fuzzy ones, but. Yknow. The only tips I can give are to look into paromancy communities, and to just do what would feel right for you!

As for living with alters- we have a few headmates with vague memories of before the system formed, and we can say for certain it's very different! For one, ~there's always running commentary~! For two, The Memory Gaps! that's the two main things but, y'know.

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https://discord.gg/cGvhzEY6

oh hey there it is. pro-endo server!

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drops server :3 DedBunzInAFlooffle

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beep boop! could i get you to promo a pro endo discord server? /nf

Yeah ofc! None of us really use discord but we'd be happy to ^^

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sorry for being somewhat inactive; the body's sick.

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mentally i’m a slut physically i’m scared of intimacy 

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thought this was a dril tweet for a second but no this is just reality now

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Ira Again.

We've decently recovered. It's convenient that none of us really experience emotions strongly except for a select few of us who I'll be in the background helping out.

Enough of us are doing better enough to where I find it alright to let us back onto tumblr again. Plus, the few who were largely unchanged or unaffected.

As a bonus, I can already tell some new brainpals are forming, so our headcount may go up again.

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Hi it's Ira.

I'm forcing the system into a little tumblr break for a bit while we re-collect ourselves.

As a different member detailed, we went through a mass-fusion/mass-integration event that left almost all of us genuinely very distressed. (And also a lot of us with way less people around the city our headspace had turned into.)

I'm mainly going to be focused on helping the system get better- whatever that means I'm unsure of. When we return we'll be doing much better.

Regards; Ira.

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genuinely when did any of us last open ponytown what even is this character list

oh hey i cant tell who i am anymore

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going on ponytown just to feel something

i guess making horse in horse game is what ill liveblog. to distract ffrom the Horrors.

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oh hey i cant tell who i am anymore

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rentry updated. frequent fronters are [shrug, confused "uUuh" noise]

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need to make memes to cope with this bullshit Everyone Is Fuckign Gone

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wow it used to be so loud in this head i think this is the first time we've not just had a dull headache for existing. um. hm.

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to elaborate any furtheer on whats going on im just gonna. put a cut.

tw for talks of dormancy, integration, fusion, etcetera.

so the basic outlien of events goes like this :

2 days ago bad storm happens

we lose power that day

no big deals we've dealt with this before

it's out all night.

oh no.

the brainpals that're paranoid/nyctophobic (ALMOST ALL OF US) start to panic

Ira doing Her Best (tm) to calm the situation

suddenly. five members fuse into 1.

THE FUSENING/INTEGRATENING BEGINS

enter headspace. everywhere you turn people are fusing like it's steven universe.

oh miku what the fuck is happening

so to put it simply our headcount went from at least 10k+ to under 200 in 2 DAYS but as soon as the power went back on it just. ceased.

we have now been mentally repairing damages during this. um. yeah thats it.

like everyone i knew is gone except the old core fml :/

something is happening /neg /insys