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Agree so hard on this because I was really expecting more when we met her the first time!!

Though we are told that the Evanuris weren’t gods over and over, Flemythal in the previous games was intimidating and powerful - she feels like someone at the level of a god.

Little miss Mythal in the Crossroads really felt like her lame wannabe sister to me. I think of her with Elgar’nan and the way they’d look together just makes no sense to me either.

I also had some mixed feelings because upon meeting her, I realised I’d accidentally made my Lavellan just a hotter version of her with similar hair and features oop!!

I guess after seeing the powerhouse that is Flemythal and the person we saw in the murals, I went in expecting someone who would invoke that same feeling, but it was just an underwhelming as seeing how tiny Elgar’nan actually was in that final boss fight after being told how scary and powerful he is the whole game.

I completely understand why every analysis about Mythal in DA:TV is so intense, whether pointing to her as an abuser towards Solas, or whether saying they should share responsibility for all the shit they did, but in truth, the only thing that makes me hate her most is her character visual design.

too Barbie'd for me. Ghilly steals her lunch at school

this woman though. "and I will have her avenged" in Kate Mulgrew's voice. we are in awe when we see her. we fear her.

it is said that Flemeth's fragment has been improving over the years. clearly this has also occurred in the aesthetics. girl, it's called fashion

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The Eternal Bond of Solas and Lavellan 

My sister challenged me to explore the depth of Solas’s love for Lavellan in Veilguard—a love I believe endures, no matter his choices or the challenges they face. It’s a perspective I’ve seen debated often, with some arguing that if he truly loved her, he wouldn’t have left, or that her love alone should have been enough to change his path.

While many have already explored this topic far more eloquently than I ever could, truthfully, it’s something I’ve thought about since finishing Veilguard and therefore, couldn’t pass up the challenge. This post is obviously through the romanced Lavellan lens.  

For context, my sister is a staunch Blackwall fan. She wasn’t exactly Solas’s biggest fan during her first Inquisition playthrough, but during subsequent runs, she softened. Eventually, my adoration for Solas won her over and she even played a run through where she romanced him, and found it bitter sweet (and then ran back to Blackwall). 

But before we dive in, there are a couple of things that I take into consideration in this breakdown: 

Solas’s decisions are shaped by millennia of experience and centuries of guilt and regret. He’s not just a guy making impulsive choices—he’s a being who’s lived through unimaginable pain and carried the weight of a broken world for ages. 

Solas is immortal. It’s easy for us, as mortals, to judge his actions through our limited, human perspective. But how can we truly understand the mind of someone who’s lived for thousands of years, seeing empires rise and fall, burdened with trauma, guilt, self-loathing, and the scars of war? 

That said, this mortal is going to give it a shot. Let’s go. A long post under the cut. 

Inquisition – the Foundation 

The seeds of Lavellan’s significance in Solas’s journey—and the path that could one day lead to his redemption—are planted during Inquisition. Lavellan challenges his detachment, offering him something he’s avoided for so long: a glimpse of the world as it is, rather than as it was. Through her, he begins to see beauty in what remains and starts to imagine a life connected to something other than regret and isolation. Her influence is foundational. 

Solas’s love for Lavellan, and the transformation she inspires in him, doesn’t end with his departure. She lingers in his heart, shaping the internal conflict that is still to come.  

Trespasser 

The conversation between Solas and a romanced Lavellan in Trespasser is one of my favorite moments in the series. The different dialogue choices are filled with so much emotion and after two years apart, he still calls her vhenan and “my love.” 

Lavellan’s faith that their love will endure meets Solas’s sorrowful wish that it could. The weight of their connection is undeniable. Unable to resist, he takes one last, bittersweet kiss before saving her life by taking the Anchor. Even after the Inquisition disbands (in my world state), Solas doesn’t completely leave—he lingers, though in a way that’s both haunting and ethereal. 

The epilogue slides lay it out: 

"Lavellan sometimes came awake from dreams in which her lover watched her sadly from across an endless distance. If they were more than simple dreams, she could not say, for every time she reached for him, he vanished into nothing. Still she searched, and dreamed, and waited, for a way to change the Dread Wolf's heart." 

Even though they’re apart, his presence in her dreams shows the depth of his unresolved feelings. Watching her with sorrow from across an endless distance captures the conflict between his love for her and the path he’s chosen. Lavellan’s influence on him remains vivid and alive, a tether he can’t fully sever—even as he continues down his fateful road. 

Veilguard – the Letter  

Lavellan’s presence lingers for Solas in Veilguard, years after Trespasser. Her influence is woven throughout the letter he writes for her. 

"Vhenan, I do not know if you will see these words." 

He calls no one else vhenan. Starting the letter with this deeply personal term immediately sets the emotional tone. Even after all the years they’ve been apart, Solas still addresses her as his heart, reaffirming that she’s his most profound connection. 

"My ritual is ready and will soon be set in motion. Perhaps when you read this the world will be as it once was, and you will see why all I did was necessary." 

Beneath the resolve of committing to his mission, is a quiet longing—a hope that Lavellan will understand and maybe even validate the choices that weigh so heavily on him. Her opinion still matters to him. 

What I particularly love is the phrase "...the world will be as it once was, and you will see...". Yes, it’s about his dream of restoring the beauty and harmony of the world he lost, but it also holds this fragile hope that she might still have a place in it. You can sense his desire to imagine a future where Lavellan remains part of his world—or his vision—despite the impossible circumstances. 

"That night in Crestwood, when I shared the truth about your vallaslin… you do not know how close I came to breaking." 

This part in the letter is such a window into how that moment has stayed with him. It’s clear that it still resonates with him, even after all these years. The way he admits he almost abandoned everything for her shows just how deeply her love impacted him. The word "breaking" says it all—it’s not just about weakness. It speaks to the massive tension between his centuries-old resolve and the pull of his love for her. 

"I could have shared the truth, or even put my plans aside and simply stayed with you as Solas...as I wanted." 

This confession is a raw admission of how much he wanted a life with her. The phrase "as I wanted" gives us a glimpse into an alternate reality he imagined, a life centered with Lavellan, one he ultimately denied himself for the sake of his mission. 

"What I feel for you will never change." 

This final line is everything. It’s Solas declaring that his love for Lavellan is eternal - because he is. Time, distance, guilt, and even the weight of centuries haven’t dulled what he feels for her. His devotion stands as this unshakable truth in a world full of loss and impermanence. 

Whether Lavellan forgives him, understands him, or even sees his words, the letter shows us a man still tethered.

Rook as a Conduit 

To me, Rook acts as a conduit for the voices that hold the most emotional weight for Solas—Lavellan and Mythal. Through Rook, we get to hear Solas talk about Lavellan directly, and what he says is just as revealing as the letter he left her.  

Solas: “When I served the Inquisition, I tried to avoid entanglements.” 

Rook: “Except for Inquisitor Lavellan.” 

Solas: “I said that I resolved to do so, not that I succeeded.” 

He went into his time with the Inquisition with a clear goal to stay detached. No bonds, no entanglements. But then Lavellan happened. Her love wasn’t something he could resist, no matter how much effort he put into maintaining his distance. 

Solas: “She is a good woman. Growing close to her was selfish of me.” 

When Solas calls Lavellan “a good woman,” it’s admiration and reverence. He doesn’t need to list her strengths outright; instead, his description of her as “good” reflects his personal definition of what that means. 

He also says “She is a good woman,” not “She was.” He’s speaking in the present tense. This small detail makes it clear that Lavellan isn’t just a memory to him or a closed chapter in his life. Even after years apart, she’s still a living, active presence in his heart and mind. He still holds her in respect and love. 

When he says growing close to her was selfish, he isn’t dismissing their bond. If anything, it’s a testament to how much he valued their connection, even though he knew it might ultimately cause her pain. 

Rook: “Do you regret it?” 

Solas: “I live with countless regrets. Some of them I have grown to cherish more than my victories.” 

This dialogue sums up just how much Lavellan means to Solas. He’s lived a long life filled with accomplishments that, more often than not, came with devastating consequences. But his relationship with Lavellan stands apart. That cherished regret tells us that his time with her brought him something no victory ever could: meaning, fulfillment, and joy. 

And then there’s the phrasing: “I have grown to cherish.” It’s also in the present tense. Lavellan’s impact on him isn’t just something from his past. It’s still alive, still deeply embedded in who he is.  

Lavellan holds a unique and enduring place in Solas’s heart. Even with all the pain and consequences of their relationship, she’s still a source of warmth and significance—a constant reminder of how deeply she mattered and still matters to him.  

Love Does Not Exist in Isolation 

I’ve seen comments out there that if Lavellan really mattered to Solas, her voice alone would’ve been enough to stop him from tearing down the Veil. I disagree. It’s clear that it takes a village to sway someone like Solas—a wounded immortal being carrying millennia of guilt and regret. Lavellan’s voice is absolutely foundational, but it’s part of a broader tapestry of influences that all come together at a critical moment. 

Solas’s decision to tear down the Veil doesn’t come from a lack of love for Lavellan. It’s rooted in overwhelming guilt and this deep sense of obligation to his people, to Mythal. Her voice matters because she was one of the first to challenge his beliefs. But hers alone couldn’t undo the weight and trauma of millennia. Voices like Mythal’s were necessary too. 

When Mythal releases Solas from her service, it’s a pivotal moment. It’s a severance of the bond that defined so much of his existence. For Solas, it’s freeing—but also incredibly painful. It forces him to reckon with his autonomy, to face the choices he’s made without the shield of loyalty to Mythal. For a man who’s been carrying so much self-loathing and regret, what a deeply uncomfortable and transformative moment. 

Then there’s Rook, who also plays a crucial role. Before Lavellan and Mythal appear, Rook is the one directly speaking to Solas, urging him to see the world and its people as worth saving. But once Lavellan (followed by Mythal) steps onto the stage, Rook falls silent. It’s as if they instinctively know their role has shifted. It’s no longer their place to persuade; that responsibility now belongs to Lavellan and Mythal.  

Of those voices, it is Lavellan’s that lingers as the last. She is the one who reminds Solas that their love is what truly matters. Hers is not just a plea for him to reconsider his mission—it’s an affirmation that even in the face of millennia, their love is a truth he can’t deny. 

Through the Lens of Immortality 

For a mortal, it might be easy to see Solas’s love as fleeting because of how short-lived it was. What’s a year and a bit compared to thousands of years?  But for an immortal being—and someone as spiritual as Solas – I would think the depth of a bond matters more than how long it lasts. Solas’s love for Lavellan isn’t diminished by how brief their time together was; if anything, it’s magnified by its intensity—a flicker of light cutting through the endless darkness of his existence.  

And for someone who’s immortal, memories don’t fade they way they would for us mortals. Lavellan’s influence on Solas will stay vivid and eternal, untouched by time. Even though their time together was short, her presence is etched into who he is. Her love became this cornerstone of his internal struggle—something he wrestled with but couldn’t fully let go of. He almost gave it all up for her. That moment, when he came so close to surrendering everything, shows just how deeply she affected him.

For an immortal, loving a mortal is a whole different kind of courage. It’s choosing to embrace something fleeting and fragile, knowing it will end. And still, Solas chose to love Lavellan. A bright chapter in a life that’s otherwise been filled with so much pain, loneliness, and time stretching endlessly in every direction. 

So yeah, she matters. 

At least, that’s how I see it. 

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Elf smooches 💋 Someone stop me.. this is getting out of hand..

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locking and putting wards around the war room would've gone great...i'm sure.....

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Solas x Lavellan

Dragon age the Veilguard

Tel banal, ara'ma

It won’t be terrible if you’re with me.

Available as print here.

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Happy Dragon Age Day!

Here's Dorian and the Inquisitor meeting up after a few years

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And so a prison of regret is transformed into home by Wisdom and Hope.

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tfw u posted a wip before but found a typo later 🙃

(as always, you can find my finished fics here, if you like 💖)

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I read this on AO3 but I just wanted to further express my love for this fic!!

It’s like you went into the depths of my heart and found everything I could ever have wanted from a post-Veilguard Solavellan fic. The vulnerability and tenderness with which you write these two, in the most beautiful and poetic way, I can never get enough!

You capture their relationship so well, we all know they absolutely would not be able to keep their hands or lips off each other after being reunited forever and free to love each other. From interacting in Solas’ wolf form, to the moments in Crestwood, and the vows they make to each other, this was truly one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read.

The moment in Crestwood where he shows her his spirit form and embraces her own spirit hit me so hard I genuinely teared up reading this. The tender and deep intimacy of this is something I can’t even put into words, just BEAUTIFUL!

“She felt Solas’ spirit caress her own in a manner more intimate than any act performed by heavy flesh and hot blood.”

Are you kidding me?? This is so dreamy and just melted my heart to its core. Something about this deep level of intimacy made me so emotional to read, I don’t know how anyone can read this without tearing up 😭

Their devotion to each other when they say their vows of marriage was also absolute chefs kiss! This is everything Solas and Lavellan deserve! The intimacy of this fic, both emotional and physical, is so well written I couldn’t get enough! Thank you, thank you, thank you for this gift to us readers!

Your writing and the way you capture the depths of these moments speaks to my soul unlike anything I’ve ever read, I hope you know what a special gift you have and I’m so grateful that you share it with us! I will cherish this fic forever 🤍🤍

Uttering the battle cry of her people, Lavellan launched herself toward the sundering goliath of rock and fractured spirit.

Solas shouted a surprised curse, making a gesture and covering her body in a magical barrier right before she impacted.

He transformed into wolf-form and leapt into the fray, taking advantage of the opening Lavellan had created.

His jaws clenched around the semblance of a brittle neck, cracking it like dry grass under a boot.

Shards of lyrium shattered icelike from the massive creature’s form, pulsing veins of red oozed magma blood which ran in rivulets down its distorted and crumbling body.

The Dread Wolf paced between it and where Lavellan stood recovering.

She braced hands on knees, catching her breath.  Solas’ magic had protected her from the brunt of the blows, shielding her from the massive clublike hands.

It was a sentient construct of twisting shadow and pulsing blue lyrium, that much she knew.  Lavellan could also ascertain it was tied to the unrest of the Titans somehow and had sensed their presence enter the Fade, particularly that of Solas.

She gathered herself, walking to where the great wolf stood gazing at the smoldering heap.

She reached out tentatively at first, her fingers pushing through black smoking energy roiling off him.  

Her hand found his flank, the tough hide surprisingly sensitive as it twitched at the touch.  The Dread Wolf’s head turned from its vigil, three glowing blue eyes shone upon her, the milky pupils moving individually until they rested upon her face.  

The snarl twisting the canine mouth eased, the glint of his long fangs disappeared.

Lavellan stepped forward, running her hand up his body like a guide, her eyes never wavering from his.  

When she was inches from his snout she smiled, his presence filling her with a sense of comfort rather than that of mortal dread.  

She moved her mechanical hand up, reaching the palm of it towards the large wolven nose, the green flaring of the anchor sputtering once up her shoulder and neck.

Only when she hesitated, a hair’s breadth from the long nose, did his many eyes close and he pushed gently into her palm.

“Solas.” A low murmur left her, awe and love welling pools of emotion in her eyes.

Cyan light shimmered around his form which twisted and shrunk until it was his cheek that her palm cupped, his familiar smile her thumb traced.

A slow grin spread across Lavellan’s face. “Just like old times, huh?  With some added dramatics.”

Solas shook his head, fond but stern. “If by that you mean throwing yourself bodily at the enemy, then yes.”

“I’m efficient.”  Her smile didn’t fade.  She felt his fingers caressing gently along her chin and under her bottom lip.

“You’re reckless.”

“Same thing most of the time.”

“Vhenan.”

She mimicked his exasperated tone. “Solas.”

He kissed her, rubbing his nose against hers, allowing himself a moment to really taste her and feel her breath on his tongue.

When he pulled back, Lavellan felt slightly dazed. “Besides, I have you.”

He stared down at her, his lips twitching at the winded expression on her face. “You do have me.”  He conceded with a soft sigh.  “Better still, I have you.”

A faint glimmering caught Lavellan’s attention, her face turning as she squinted in the direction of the crumbled titanesque body.

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To Where Your Soul Travels, There Go I - Chapter 8 - MysticAwareness - Dragon Age: Inquisition [Archive of Our Own]

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Absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE this scene so much!

I keep hearing people say that he tried to push Lavellan away from coming with him and denies her once again but just LOOK at this face. He is so vulnerable in this moment and you can see the love in his eyes.

The way he speaks when he says “Where I am going is terrible” is NOT him denying her. His tone and words are not him telling her no, in that moment he is giving her an out, he is warning her that where he is going is terrible.

He is giving her the opportunity to change her mind because he knows she deserves better than to be trapped in the Fade prison away from her loved ones. He loves her so much and he won’t bring himself to selfishly take her with him, without allowing her to make that choice on her own.

These two have my heart forever, my Roman Empire always 😭🤍

i have been sitting here staring at the way he looks at her with such raw vulnerability in this scene as he says "where i go will be terrible" and she responds that it will not be terrible if they are together and i am still not over it. the animation in this is insane. i can feel how much he loves her and how heartbroken he is. his eyes are literally still wet with tears.

"you don't let anyone see under that polite mask of yours, do you?" "you saw more than most" -> this

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This is not Solas as his truest self.

Rook never sees Solas as his truest self until the last five minutes of the game. Solas is not being himself. He is being the weapon he was moulded into over millennia. Rook’s first peek at Solas as his truest self is here:

It’s when he says “Vhenan.”

And further here:

When he faces the person who pulled him from his purpose and wielded him as a weapon, and his entire body language crumples into a fawn response so visceral, the first thing he does is offer her a weapon to kill him with.

It’s here, when she says, “I release you from my service” after untold millennia of abuse, and he collapses in tears after being bound for so long.

Rook has never met the real Solas. Rook does not know him.

Rook knows only a carefully cultivated trauma mask built to survive shame so deep, he cannot escape it himself.

This man has allowed one person to truly know him as he *wants to be seen*.

This is the real Solas (left, with six eyes and a lot of glowing tendrils of magic):

But the closest to the real Solas Rook gets is here:

It’s him going home with the one person he’s ever truly been safe with outside the Fade.

Rook may respect him, may like him, may enjoy the banter, but like even the Inquisition, Rook does not know him.

Only Lavellan, Morrigan through Mythal’s memories, and Mythal can claim that, and Mythal only through everything she did to break him because he served her purpose and loved her. Mythal may have known him, but she has never truly seen him except as a tool.

He is not Pride. He is Wisdom. He has been made over in everyone else’s image enough.

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I just noticed this small detail in the music room alongside the Inquisition murals, the Inquisitor’s chair, and other Inquisition memories:

The Inquisition book is sitting on the seat Solas would have sat on to play the harpsichord and I just LOVE it.

I fully see him spending hours in this room reminiscing about his time in the Inquisition and with Lavellan, idly tracing his fingers over the leather of the book while he rests from playing his instruments.

I’m convinced that Memories of a Duet has a double meaning, but really feels like it’s about the Inquisitor whether it was friendship or romanced. For it to be in a room that’s filled with Inquisition memories just feels like it would be out of place if it was about Mythal.

“A shared moment of understanding: seeing completely, and being wholly seen” reminds me a lot of how Solas had to put aside his Fen’Harel persona while in the Inquisition and essentially be his true self as a spirit of wisdom. Lavellan sees him for who he truly is deep down, without all the power and the title of the Dread Wolf, but simply a man who is the embodiment of wisdom, who loves to share his knowledge and nerd out over his true home, the Fade.

I know a lot of people say they wish that there had been more related to a romanced Lavellan around the Lighthouse, but in all honesty I don’t know if it would have been possible considering all of our Lavellans look very different, so they may have only really been able to use something like the Lavellan tarot art.

I also kinda like that he has the painting in his meditation room, as well as all these items and murals from the Inquisition in his private little music room. Rather than being splashed across the Lighthouse along with his other regrets, burned away from the walls, they’re safely hidden from harm like a secret he cherishes deep in his heart.

I’ve also seen interpretations of the statue puzzle, where moving the statues of Mythal and Solas to face each other is almost like Solas having to face his past mistakes with Mythal in order to get to what he truly wants, which is to be with Lavellan as Solas. I love this interpretation and fullyyyy agree!

I just love all the little details like this in the Lighthouse, thank you BioWare for giving us this!!

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shadows parted, skies open risen from regret, the world sees —in uthenera na revas

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