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me and my adhd 

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One of my many demons. (TW// RAPE)

I hate him because he keeps on pulling us back, he keeps dragging us down and he drains my mom until there’s no cents left in their pockets.  She’s been supporting him for 25 years, he was able to spend more time with her compare to us. He had every opportunity to be a better person but now all I can see whenever I look at him is a loser, manipulative, money eating demon and a fucking abuser.  He tried to kill me so many times and in so many ways. As early as 4 years old he sodomizes me and at 7 years old he forced his dick inside my mouth. I can still feel his hands on my neck with full grip and anger. at the age of 11 I got raped by the same person. I remember one time he hit me with the iron on a belt in the neck and I wasn’t able to speak for 2 weeks because of the injury that i got from it.  And now that i’m older, I can see him draining my parents with every bit of their money. He left his son and now lives with my dad and my younger brother. The reason I can’t go back to school is because my mom is still supporting him knowing all the things he did and that includes stealing from us.  Because of what he did and what he is doing, it did affect the way I connect with other people. For the longest time I saw myself as a piece of meat. and before I become the monster that he is, I’m cutting it from here. I’m not going to sit here and let the trauma he gave me destroy the life that I have. I know I’m far from perfect but i’m also sure that I will never going to be like that monster. EVER. all I can say to the demon who used to sleep beside me: FUCK YOU AND YOU DO HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN HELL WHERE YOU CAN ROT THE FUCK OUT. . 

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hello darkness my friend. 

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

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when the moon cheated.

when the moon cheated, he kissed me.  when the moon cheated, he told me that he love me.  but then again, he cheated. 

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Reblog if you're bored and want some anons

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“Do you believe that a person can be hurt without being physically touched by or any external forces?”

The question above doesn’t make any relation to the title right? But soon you will know why. This question keeps on running inside my head for years now, because I’ve seen it. I’ve seen it but I don’t understand it fully.

We are in a generation where kids at their teenage year’s experiences such as fucked up thoughts, useless motions, the feeling of being unwanted, and anything that I think only people 25 above would understand. Thinking about how people act at this stage, I don’t know what they call it, is like having lots of responsibilities at a very young age. They will give you this, take care of that, and make sure not to break that trust because it’s like what our grandma use to say that once broken, it will never be the same again.

At this time of the day, what do you usually think? Usually do? To those who are very busy, what do you do during your free time? These days, teens and the not so are so busy not just school or work, but with their like “extra “ curricular activities that I don’t think is that much important because it leads to not having more time with your family, values and others.

To cut the chase, this is more like a slice of life; hope will bring you fun, laughter, a little bit of sadness, and so much complication.

-J.D.Rama

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It's called break up, cause it's broken

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In the end we all become strangers and memories

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Gusto ko din ng anon ni J. Sino ba sya? Hahahahaha.

Not everything that you want can make you feel happy and contented. There are times that all you really need for a while is a cheap bottle of beer and silence in your room, or maybe an indie music– simple but well textured. -JOH AYAN ANON NI J SANA NABIGYAN KITA NG WALANG KATUMBAS NA KALIGAYAHAN HAHAHAH

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Yung akala mo okay kana, pero akala mo lang pala.

thoughts of vene 

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I want to unfeel — the pain the love. But how can I — when you’re the one who let me feel it.

Thoughts of Dessa (via iamdes)

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NAKAKAILANG YOSI NA AKO.

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gusto ko maging masaya, pero paano?

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paano po mabuhay ulit?

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Surround yourself with people who will make you break rules, takes you to far road trips, diverts your taste in music, and makes you jump high places. Be with people who never runs out of optimism because this will make you live life to your fullest. Take risk. Do what you love and what makes you happy.

3/27/2017 // jin (via lalakingpatayna)