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SERENITY IN CHAOS

Hello World. 

We've definitely got a lot of catching up to do. I have so many stories to tell and so many things to write about. All of my ideas are pushing their way out of the tiny hole that is the my time dedicated to blogging. If there's one thing I ought to say to you.. that would be.. A LOT IS GOING ON AT THE MOMENT. 

But I'm okay! This too shall pass. I shall find serenity amidst this terrific chaos very soon. 

Needs a lot of love,

Ting 

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Gotta love Jake. LOL

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Feels.

A passage from "Will Grayson, Will Grayson"

"Why would you like someone who can't like you back?"

"You like someone who can't like you back because unrequited love can be survived in a way that once-requited love cannot."

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People always clap for the wrong things.

The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger

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People are pretty fucking weird, if you haven't notice.

Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green & David Levithan

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As an introvert, you can be your own best friend or your own worst enemy. The good news is, we generally like our own company, a quality that extroverts often envy. We find comfort in solitude and know how to soothe ourselves. Even our willingness to look at ourselves critically is often helpful.

Laurie Helgoe (via oldblueeyes)

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That torment you get when you feel like somebody hates you. 

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"You take a very handsome guy, or a guy that think he's a real hot-shot, and they're always asking you to do them a big favor. Just because they're crazy about themselves, they think you're crazy about them,too and that you're just dying to do them a favor. It's sort of funny, in a way."

Holden Caulfield (From The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger)

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Things we ought to remember

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It's not a lie. It's an omission for the greater good.

Damon Salvatore, The Vampire Diaries Season 4

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What's up?

I'd like to discuss a few things. ( The order at which they are written is not significant. )

1. I promised myself to write more often but I'm just too damn lazy to fullfill such deals made with one's self. 

2. I have achieved so little progress on my summer bucket list. Time is slipping out of my hands and I think I'll spend most of my remaining summer days obsessing over hot vampires.

3. I did nothing academic-related this summer ( hashtag medyo bad girl ).

4. I am saddened that I am only a few episodes away 'til I finished The Vampire Diaries. I will surely miss everyone in Mystic Falls. 

5. I start my mornings with the eargasmic music of Imagine Dragons. I really like their song entitled 'Top of the World'. As a matter of fact, it's my new GV song. 

6. I finished reading another book. I'm beating boredom through books. 

7. I have recently gone swimming with my high school friends. This is quite a highlight in my monotonous and boring summer days. Because of my recent trip to the beach, I've discovered probably the best way to spend 10 pesos and that is a boat ride across the beaches of Panaon where you can swim in the middle of the sea. hahah Best 10 pesos ever! 

8. I'm looking forward to my junior year. It's kind of hard to believe that I made it this far. Woo! Push CS!

9. I am painstakingly waiting for a very important email. What is taking them so long? GAH. 

10. Avril Lavigne released a new single 'Here's to never growing up' which is kind of my jam right now. 

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AWKWARD.

Jake: I love you.

Jenna: Awesome!

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BUMMER SUMMER & BLOGGING

I have decided to blog again. Blogging drains out most of my frustrations. I could freely write out words I dare not say out loud in a post that only a few anonymous people will be able to read. Blogging is like pouring out every ounce of bitterness into a pitcher until it's just overflowing. I am not obliged to make my readers like what I write because after all, this is my space. This is the corner of the unbounded cyberspace that I can call MINE. 

I have a lot of things to write about. But I just need to remind myself every now and then to post since they pile up and eventually some of the subjects would be forgotten. They'll just be mere ideas hidden beneath the thick layer of wild thoughts and highly implausible dreams in this little place called Christine Balili's not-literal brain. 

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18 Steps Towards the Greater Perhaps

So today I turned 18. Geez. I have always looked forward to reaching the pedestal of adulthood and now that I'm finally in it, I can't exactly put into words the tone of the moment. ( I honestly don't know how I feel about it)

The thing about today is that I never planned anything. I just wanted it to be like any other day because I want to lay-low on my social sphere while I'm on summer vacation (Why? Idk. I'm just weird.).As a matter of fact, I've even hidden it from my Facebook timeline for the dread of the flood of birthday wallposts / messages. A year ago, I spent a substantial amount of time responding to each of them! But I totally felt that people loved me and the universe somehow aimed the spotlight at me. My 17th birthday was kinda' awesome because my roommies and close friends all gathered to throw a surprise birthday bash. It's so heart-warming how these people took some time off from their busy scheds just to make you feel special on your special day. :'>

Nag-abala pa ang Google e. Google makes a special doodle just for you when you log-in to your Google account and it's your birthday. :)

I knew that that sort of thing could not happen on my 18th birthday. Because my parents were sort of the none-cheesy ones. Early in the morning, I woke up and thought to myself, " May nakaalala kaya na birthday ko ngayon?" (Except of course those that obviously knew) I immediately went through my phone inbox and saw Caryssa's text message. She sent it minutes before 12 mn. She was the first to officially greet me on my day which was of course very sweet of her. ( Caryssa, if you can read this, I love you! :* ) I was quite nervous the moment I decided to go online since I did not know what to expect. To my surprise, there were two posts on my wall. And of course.. they were birthday greetings from my friends who are Graduating (Ate Arianne and Jasper) and I didn't even expect that they remembered my birthday. 

It was only 6:00 am and I didn't want to get out of the room yet. So, I picked the less calorie-consuming act of admiring John Green's brilliance early in the morning by reading a few pages of the Abundance of Katherines. I have just read The Fault in Our Stars and Looking for Alaska and I am completely smitten into their stories. ( I even made a reference to LFA in the title haha). A few minutes later, my stomach started to alarm that it was time for me to have breakfast. And so I decided to get out of bed and eat. Around 9:00 am, nothing special was going on. It was like the plain day that I wanted it to be. 

Unexpectedly ( I doubt that ), my cousins together with my Aunt and Uncle visited us for my birthday. I was like OMG. Wala kaming handa. Good thing my mom is a quick cook. She rushed off to the public market for the culinary supplies she might need to formulate a feast for all of us. So we had the usual 'life-extenders' Spaghetti and Pancit Bihon, Fried Chicken ( kids and not-so-kids love 'em), Adobo and Macaroni Salad. 

Well, to cut the long story, I really did not do anything today except eat and eat.. and eat some more. Diet is out of context when I'm at home especially that it's my friggin' birthday. My cousins played GTA for hours. Kids nowadays. tsk. tsk. And the fine pigging-out day ended. A lot dishes  piled up though. 

I immediatley login in to Facebook as soon as my visitors left. I had 15 more friends who 'remembered'. And I promised some of them that I will make 'libre' as soon as I get back to UP. I almost shed a tear. Although these posts and messages are just little deeds, they make me feel special. <3 I feel like I am, to some extent, a part of their lives. :) 

I tend to write long, disorganized posts, don't I? Before this day officially ends, I'd like to thank God for those wonderful 18 years he has given me. And to all of the people who share a piece of my not-literal heart.. and to those that made the journey incredibly challenging and amazingly colorful.. to those who molded me into me .. I could never thank you enough! :) You've lead me towards the great perhaps.. but as I press on to the rougher roads ahead and the steeper mountains to climb, I shall seek the even more greater perhaps. Hello adult perks and responsibilities! :D I didn't dance with 18 guys who carried roses. I didn't even have a cake. But today was still remarkable. 

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I secretly wished that I would get bitten by a vampire so that I could just be seventeen forever (like Edward and Stefan ). 

I should have registered myself to become an eligible voter for the upcoming elections. 

Nakakalungkot isiping konti na lang yung panahon para madagdagan yung height ko. If madadagdagan man. 

"Ate Christine, 18 ka na tapos wala ka pa ring boyfriend!"  </3

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(Yesstyle top, iAnyWear skirt, Tory Burch flats, Kate Spade bag) Hype this look on Lookbook here. Thanks Tracy for helping me with these pics!

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