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Sketchhh

– Oh, I love Spamtennas so much!

I said with joys, holding an art in my hands, that appear to be the most heartbreaking and gutwrenching sketch of Spamtennas that I can possibly make

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Drawing Deltarune characters every weekday until I forget or get bored: Day 5, Rouxls!

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eternal return, eternal return

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Everyone's helping fix Tenna

(even rouxls) (he insists that holding the drinks is a vital part of the process)

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(Might as well fully expose myself)

Yeah, I know 😭 the blogs I interact with a lot probably know, but I'm sure that some people don't. I'm incapable of being normal about my own oc lmao

FUUUCK I DID NOT JUST FOGET TO TURN ANONYMOUS ON NOW PEOPLE KNOW THAT I'M BEHIND THE VIVIENNE BLOG IM GOING TO DIE😭😭

(I'm kinda joking, but I really didn't mean to lowk expose myself)

I figured that you're the mod for Vivi way before that, sweetheart. You always come running when I answer asks about her, and it's after your interactions that there are new Vivi asks. You arent subtle, hon.

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Screaming crying throwing up

angel's heaven

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anyway you should always remember that all those foreigners you see dying on the news are just as real people as you are who have just as much interiority as you do. there is nothing about you that makes you more important and it is by pure chance that you are not in their position. in fact, this holds for all of history. every person, no matter the horror of the fate that befell them, had just as much interiority as you do. i feel like some people haven't fully internalized this.

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I am going to scream so loud that the entire world will hear me!

if you could only see how far i've come

(would it drag you down with me?)

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Something about "hide my knives"-

“I’m sorry, I promise I’m doing my best, I just haven’t learned how to be human as you are yet”

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Me talking to my friend group!

I can't believe my fruitless attempt to make you fall for a ligma balls joke lead to more people saying it omg

I love my audience very dearly, all of you are insufferable.

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Found this on Pinterest and felt personally attacked

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(proper) INTRO POST!

Hey!! I'm Victoria and this beautiful hot mess is my newest place to scream into the void about all my obsessions! And to reblog a truly ungodly amount of fanart!

here are a couple of fandoms that I'm in

Deltarune/Undertale

MCR

The Umbrella Academy

twenty one pilots

The Hunger Games

Will Wood

etc etc etc-

ANYWAY here are a few absolutely ridiculous facts about me

I learned english from youtube as a kid and now if i talk about theories i start sounding a bit like matpat

I taught myself how to draw guys by drawing Five from TUA over and over in 2021

I read and write a lot of angsty fanfic

I made myself a plushie of Ned (top lore!!) and I'm planning on making Tenna from Deltarune

I enjoy cosplay and go to Comic Con every year!

I collect CDs and have 50 of them

I love Deltarune and Undertale but I'm incredibly bad at both! Finished Undertale once and I still haven't finished chapter 4 of Deltarune

My room is fully covered in posters and stickers (the stickers are from the artists ally at comic con!)

I'm bi and ace

and, funny story- the first girl i ever kissed and the first guy i ever kissed both went to football matches with my dad- yes, separately

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THOUGHTS ON EVERY CAR SEAT HEADREST SONG THAT I KNOW!!

Sober to death- yeah I know it's the basic one, but I've known it since forever and it lowk still hits so 10/10

I want you to know that I'm awake/ I hope that you're asleep- the only csh song other than sober to death that I heard before making friends with a csh fan - DUDE THE LYRICS. ANOTHER 10/10 I fear!!

Kimochi Warui (when? when? when? And a bunch more whens but I don't have the patience)- fun fact, I heard this one, liked it a lot, but couldn't remember the name, so I lost track of it's existence for a while- 9.5/10

Strangers- pretty solid song, but I haven't felt the need to listen to it in a while- I might be miss remembering but I'll give it a 7.5/10

Beach life in death- I AM ALMOST COMPLETELY SOULLESS, I AM- yeah it's long but that lyric makes up for it 10/10

Happy news for sadness- absolutely devastating song recommended to me by my friend while I was going through a break up. I would stare out my balcony crying to this song. 10000/10

Memories- I'm not counting it as a cover, it changes the original lyrics so much it's basically a new version. A version that I LOVE this song is so so good thank you vro for this recommendation!!- 10000/10

Sinner- I found this one on my own! :) listened to it on loop in the pouring rain once. 100/10

Napoleon (March on Russia)- pretty good if I do say so myself- 9/10

I can talk with my eyes shut- I THINK YOU COULD BE BEAUTIFUL, I WOULDN’T LOVE YOU IF YOU WERE- GOD THE LYRICS. 100/10

Does it feel good to say goodbye!- vro sent me this right before a test lmao- 9/10

I THINK THAT'S ALL? except for Famous prophets but I just listened to that one a minute ago- 9/10

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For all the csh fans that liked my previous post- I am, in fact, listening to famous prophets (stars) for the 1st time- well, mostly because of a post about this song being perfect for one of my favorite deltarune ships but that's not the point- and it's quite long, but the lyrics absolutely hit (and so does everything else)

I'd say it's a solid 9/10, mostly because I'm not used to songs being this long. Also thank GOD I didn't know this song while going through my break up with my ex, that would have hurt like hell!

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Good job, this made me sick in the best way, 10/10

[* Everyone appears to still be sound asleep.]

...

(They look so... so exhausted. Might be best to just let them sleep for now...) (I... I didn't mean to make them worry like this... I never want anyone to worry...)

...

[* Tenna looks down at himself and almost shrieks in horror.]

[* His body, his suit, everything is...]

[* His favourite signature suit is positively annihilated and his torso is equipped with shiny new material all across the front. Smells... fresh, like a brand new Cungadero straight from the dealership. All of the scuffs, the marks, the patches of discolouration from years of wear and tear that he was so intimately familiar with were... gone.]

(Something feels very different inside...)

[* He shifts, trying to figure out the sensation. If he had skin, it'd be crawling. The TV host freezes, realising what it was that was bothering him.]

(New... new wiring. New circuitry.)

[* Some of his insides... have been replaced.]

[* Tension coils tightly up inside him like a spring under pressure at this revelation. Tenna stays still for a few minutes, utterly silent in contemplation.]

[* Eventually, he slowly heaves himself up off the floor and leaves the room. He stumbles a few times, grabbing the wall of the hallway for support. A raspy, desolate laugh escapes him as he considered that he probably looked like a mechanical zombie shambling through the studio the way he was.]

[* In a way, he supposed that was sort of accurate, considering the circumstances. He winced with a grimace every time a new, unrecognised part of his body caught his eye. Through the sleeves of his shredded suit, he could see patches of twinkling metal, foreign to him. A heavy and deeply aggrieved feeling clamped down onto his chest from the inside. He felt like he could cry.]

[* ... ]

[* That didn't last for long when he saw the Green Room.]

[* Destroyed furniture. Holes in the walls and floor. A massive crater blasted out of the centre of the room. It looked like a war had taken place in here. His gaze fell upon the Janitor, still toiling desperately away trying to clean the mess. It hadn't noticed him yet.]

[* His hand, lacking a glove, wandered up to his chest. It hovered there a moment, trembling, hesitating. As he took in the absolute destruction, his finger tips finally made contact with this unfamiliar part of his body. It didn't feel the same as before...]

[* ... But he felt lucky to be alive.]

[* ... It felt like... love.]

[* An immense gratitude washed over him.]

[* Despite the changes to his body.]

[* Despite the changes to the studio.]

[* Despite everything...]

(It's still you.) (My friends... They really love me enough to... to do all of this. I'm still here because of them.)

[* He smiled softly, which quickly blossomed into a wide grin. Something bright and gentle warmed through his chest, the feeling of despair dissipating like a fading static.]

[* Tenna moved quickly to his office. He needed to check on something before tackling the rest.]

[* The door creaked open and the CRT peered inside. Everything was exactly as he'd left it yesterday morning. Wow! Even his friendly little Anon was still curled up on the couch under that blanket he'd put over them.]

[* ... Oh! But there was something new.]

[* ... ]

[* Tenna picked up the Tenna doll.]

[* He held it in both hands, staring at it for a long moment. There were bandaids on its screen, stitches on its tie...]

[* He read the card that came with it. "Get well soon."]

Ha...

[* His chest shook. His hands shook.]

[* He hugged the doll tightly to himself, sinking down to the floor as he cradled it against his form.]

(Broken... but... still good, right?) (To be loved... is to be changed. That's what they say.) (I must... really be loved.)

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Dying in the corner about this

careful what you recycle !!