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Missing ù

It's been a year Sis when you left us. Our heart was heavy that day. I don't know what to feel. I don't cry while you are in your burial. After that, my whole year was fulfilled with sad heart, full of regrets, and loneliness. I feel so blank. I didn't enjoy my first job. I always felt tired. I cried a bunch of tears whenever my heart miss you; in the office, while walking in the street, in the bus, in the jeep, and in Ante Sonia's house where I stayed. I regret everything. I'm not a good Sis to you. You want to be clingy with me but I'm always annoyed to you. You want to be there for me but I always push you away. Yes. I have that bad attitude of being Masungit. I regret that. If only I knew that you have already that time left, I should be kind to you. I wish I could take care of you more. I wish I didn't say bad hurtful words to you. I wish I brought you already to the hospital when you feel uneasy that early morning, but still I said hurtful words to you. I'm being makasarili, and I just thought of the gastos that will be made instead of your current struggle that day. I'm the one who let you die that day. I'm sorry that you have a sister like Me. 🥺 You don't deserve me. 🥺

Ps: I'm not happy to work at my first job because I miss you. I didn't feel like living. I feel loneliness. Or maybe just my reason. Dunno. I decided to resign because I think I need a break. After I resign, I doubt my decision if it's right. I don't feel to work when I'm in work and always think of break, but when I resigned, I feel like I want to work. I dunno what makes me decide to take a break. If it's you or not. I don't know what my heart wants, but I know for sure that it is sad. I dunno what to do . Am a very complicated person right now. 🥺

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Bad Las (A Random Stories)

*Starry sky

~ nakuha nga nina Dabbie ang grills project sa binata at kinabukasan agad pinakontak ng papa nya si Jo para masimulan na agad. Ngunit sa kadahilanang di na uso kay Dabbie ang magpalod ay di nya ginawa agad ang utos hanggang sa makalimutan nya to maghapon.

Papa: ano nakontak mo na?

Dabbie: ay oo. Hehe kontakin ko muna

~ biglang may dumating na motor sa tapat ng bahay nila at naglakad papalapit sa kanilang pintuan ang dalawang sakay nito.

Mama: ay nandito na pala oh. Nakontak pala e.

Dabbie:ha? tatawag pa nga lang ako.

Papa: uyy salamat nandito ka na. Kinontak ka ni nene?

Jo: hindi po. Dala ko po yung dried fish na hiningi nyo kahapon. Hehe

Papa: ay salamat toy. Nakuha pala namin yung grills project. Pwede na natin simulan.

Jo: Totoo po? Ay mabuti naman po.

Papa:(adik sa alak) ay ano tara tagay muna tayo.

Jo: Pasensya na po. Nagmamadali po kasi tung kasama ko pauwi.

Papa: ay magpaiwan ka na dito . Dito ka na matulog.

Jo: hehe *nahiyang pumayag at pinauwi na ang kasama*

Papa: anong gusto mo?

Dabbie: ako na pa bibili.

Mama:iiwan mo dito si Jo?

Dabbie: edi sumama sya kung gusto nya

~ngunit yun talaga gusto ni Dabbie ang magkamoment sila ni Jo sa daan papuntang tindahan. Medyo malayo kasi tindahan sa kanila.

Jo: sige po samahan ko nalang si Dabbie.

~habang nasa daan. . .

Jo: Palangga.

Dabbie: po? (Opo mag ex sila dyan hihi)

Jo: (Bigla niyakap sa daan si Dabbie) akoy natutuwa kasi kahit di na tayo parang lagi mo akong kinikwento sa mama at papa mo.

Dabbie: syempre hehe. (At naghug back sya ng mahigpit kay Jo)

Jo: I miss you.

Dabbie: I miss u too. (At patuloy na sila naglakad HHWW)

~opo naging marupok na naman si Dabbie. Nilimot nya ang sakit na naramdaman nya nung bigla sya iniwan ni Jo. Yun lang ay dahil mahal na mahal nya si Jo.

~pagkauwi sa bahay ay kumain sila ng hapunan. Masaya silang tingnan na parang kumpletong pamilya. Pagkatapos ay nag inuman na. At masayang nagkwentuhan. Kinwento ng papa ni Dabbie kay Jo kung gaano kamahal ni Dabbie si Jo. Kiniwento din na laging inuupdate sila about kay Jo. Pagkatapos ng inuman ay nakatulog na agad ang papa ni Dabbie. Si Jo naman ay napansin ang liwanag ng kalangitan dahil sa buwan at mga bituin. Kita nito sa kinatatayuan ang dagat na kumikinang. Kaya niyaya nito si Dabbie na pumunta sila sa dalampasigan.

~ sa dalampasigan dun sila nag usap ng masinsinan. Sa ilalim ng puting ilaw, sa dilaw na buwan. At kung gaano naoverwhelmed si Jo dahil kahit nasaktan nya si Dabbie nung iniwan nya ito ay tanggap parin sya ng mama at papa nito. Fineel nila ang moment na yun sa ilalim ng makikinang na bituin at buwan

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Bad Las (A Random Stories)

* We meet again.

~ Si Dabbie ay sumama sa papa nya na glass installer papuntang Brgy. Nasu bilang asst nito sa business . Sakay sila sa single na motor. Kakatagpuin nila ang isang customer to close a deal. Sa daan , sa tabing dagat napatigil ang papa nya sa pagmamaneho. At kinausap niya ang grupo ng tao na may maraming isda dala.

Papa: Pare, dami ng isda nyo ah pahingi kami. Hehe.

Pare: ay sige ba, wala problema . Pasaan kayo nyan.

Papa: ay papuntang Nasu may malaking bahay kami nakuha proj lalagyan ng salamin na bintana. Sampung butas din yun.

Pare: ay swerte mo naman Pare. Oh ito ang isda.

Papa: hehe joke lang wag na pare. Baka masira pa yan pupunta pa kami Nasu eh.

Pare: ay sige dalhin muna namin pauwi at patotuyoin dadalhin nalang ni pareng Jo ito sa inyo .

Jo: *napangiti na tumangho*

~ Si Jo ang ex ni Dabbie. Mahal na mahal nito si Jo. Kahit wala na sila umaasa parin si Dabbie na magkakabalikan sila. Kaya nung nagkita ulit sila sa moment na yun, ay sobrang nagalak ang kanyang puso.

Papa: Ay Jo. Magaling ka daw mag welding ah. Kwento sakin ni nene.

Dabbie: *namula ang mukha sa sinabi ng papa nya habang nakaangkas sa motor ng papa nya*

Jo:ay opo hehe

Papa:sige pag nakuha ko din yung grills project sa bintana na yun sa Brgy Nasu. Kukunin kita welder ko.

Jo: hehe sige po.

Papa: ay sige itetext ka lang ni nene pag nakuha namin. Sige aalis na kami

Pare: ihahatid nalang din ni Jo yung dried na isda sa inyo ah.

Papa: sige bye.

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Hi. I'm back. 💜

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Dear shingshangfu, Nakakalungkot. 😢 malapit na ang pag-alis mo sa sintang paaralan. 😢 See you nalang sa next kabanata ng buhay mo at buhay ko . . . Sana pagtagpuin pa tayo ng tadhana after ng graduation mo. 😢💕 Saranghae . 💞 -unrequited love

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Move forward na bes. 💔 . . . . . 🌈

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December 24, 2016

Dear Crush, Happy Birthday sa atin . 🎈 Please don’t be inlove with someone else . HAHA . 😭💚 Ps: Congrats for passing PB. 😊😉

Loving, Meh

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With The INSANE 💚

Best trip of your life. 12/10/16 Haha FoodTRIP with the gang (INSANE). 😂 haha char... "Basta kasama sila masaya." Mga isip bata pa e. Ang koCOOLet 😂 EK, TAAL LAKE, Sampalok Lake, TAGAYTAY, swimming every before school year starts and many more to come.❤

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What is? 😚

What’s in my bag and wallet ?

12/09/16

~In my bag, there have my notebook, calculator, umbrella, ballpens, perfume, comb, charger, handkerchief, id, powder, key, lipstick, otg connector, wallet (two 😂) earphones and cellphone.

~In my wallet, there have coins of course and money, 5 cents, 25 cents, peso coins, five peso coins, fifty pesos, old christmas envelope for lucky charm 😂 and an old receipt.

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Goals

My 5 Current Goals 12/08/16 -To graduate -To pass Board Exam -To have a job -To be rich 😂 -To meet my forever ❤

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HI-5 ✋

My Five Favourite Songs 12/07/16 Well, I'm not constant in song's favoritism. XD So this are my Top 5 as of now: 1. Cold Water ~if you feel you're sinking I will jump right over into cold cold water for Yah. 😉💚 2. Stitches ~AND NOW I'M WITHOUT YOUR KISSES I'LL BE NEEDING STITCHES. . . 😶 3.Perfect Strangers ~Maybe we're perfect strangers. . . Maybe it's not forever. . . 👌 4.Still into You ~I should be over all the butterflies, But I'm into youuuuu. 😉💙 5.Hold On Forever ~Just fall apart if you need to, I'm here and I won't leave you now, Don't look down, Hold on forever . . . ❤❤❤❤❤

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What I'm afraid of? 12/6/16 DARKNESS and DEATH. 😢

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Moments 👓

My Proudest Moment 12/05/16

Ahm I can’t think or remember my proudest moment in my college years, except of surviving Math-science related exams in my course without the help of my friends sometimes. HAHA! Lol . I’M proud of that! 😍 So maybe my proudest moment so far was I got a trophy for being the champion of sudoku challenge in high school. PS: It was my first time to do sudoku. Even tho it was vogue games in an old cellphone . In cellphone tho was just a simple 3×3 , so I find it boring and I don’t play it. 😂 haha.. XOXO PPs: Because now is December 5 …, (if ever there is forever between me and my ex , it should be our 5th anniv . Haha. But no no no no no CHECK 😂). HAHA . …So because now is December 5, I remembered that “that my proudest moment” tho was the reason why I became his idol. And I also called him idol because his idol was robin padilla, who was called ‘idol’ in all of his action movies. In the end, our callname became idol. Haha. Not that sweet tho. 😁😂

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WEIRDER 🙈

WEIRD THINGS I DO WHEN ALONE 12/04/16 For me , Sing in my loudest voice ever with feelings and emote as if I have my own concert and fans. 😂🙉🙈 Ps: Yes Its weird already for me. I'm not a key note reacher. I'm just me. 😄😂✌

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OPPOSITE ATTRACTS

What kind of person attracts me ?

12/03/16

💁 (‘not close’ crush from a distance) Handsome, Maporma, katamtaman lang ang katawan, magaling magbasketball, Ps: Diniscribe ko lang sya 💚 ☺

💁 (close crush) Corny, sweet, makulit, malambing, madaldal 💙

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#Happiness

12/02/16 My fave qoute as of now. 💚 "Stop waiting for Friday , for summer, for a boy to fall in love with you . Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make something of the moment you're in right now." ☺

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MY SELF 👓

December 1, 2016 20 Facts About Myself 💁⚪ They call me Badeth, badit, or Berna. 👸 💁⚪ I'm an Electrical Engineering student by Destiny. ❤ 💁⚪ I love math. But sometimes I'm so lazy to solve. 😂 💁⚪ I have a peevish and sassy look. Even tho I know to myself I'm smiling or fascinated. 💁⚪ P R A N I N G 💁⚪ I'm an Ambivert. . .Half-introvert Half-extrovert.😜 I like being with my friends, I'm so loud, makulit and pasaway, but sometimes I'm comfortable alone. I can last a day without talking (well the latter is my setup every day when it's not school day xD) 💁⚪ 5 is my favorite. 💁⚪ I love pink. But I once colored my hair green (down part only) and my nails green. 💚 💁⚪ My birthday is on December 24. ❤ (23 days to go) 💁⚪ I have a crush who have same birthdate with mine. 💚 💁⚪ I am that kind of woman who always want to see my crush, and when my crush is around , I can't even look at him. 😀😂 . 💁⚪ Hair conscious. . . For me, hair is my asset. 😂 So when I see hairfall , I will worry much. 😂 💁⚪ I love to eat, and eat and eat . 😋 💁⚪ I love watching series and movies. 💁⚪ Hard to sleep. 💁⚪ Always daydreaming. 😂 . Having broad imaginations, and making up great stories in my mind (usually I make my own love story 😂) 💁⚪ I want a boy bestfriend. 😂 💁⚪ I had one ex-boyfriend and one ex-special"dunnowhatlabelis" 😂 💁⚪ I always compute my expenses everyday and allowance. 😂 💁⚪ Fangirl... Super fangirl.. What worst is I am so affected when there's something about them.So affected that I can't sleep well .😭 For example: Nash and Sharlene are not lt, also when Bailey don't end with Barbie, and Joshua with Jane . Even tho I'm single, it feels like my heart is broken. 😭💔