I’ve been spending the last few days trying to get out of a very bad depressive episode. My thoughts were terrifying, and since this is my first depressive episode since moving out, it’s been a lot to deal with. I could barely get out of bed, been crying a lot, my apartment is a mess, but at least I managed to feed myself and take a few steps outside. It’s been months since I’ve last had an episode like that. Didn’t miss it at all. It kinda overwhelmed me a little because it was bad, and other than a few inconveniences nothing happened, so I retreated to figure shit out.
I’ve come to learn that patience is important, and I need to allow myself to heal. So, I’ve just been taking time to myself. I planned to update (I was excited to) but then depression decided to kick my ass five ways to Sunday (including major physical symptoms and messing with my menstrual cycle, which is a whole different issue in itself) and all writing inspiration went out the window. Obviously. I realize that this is just my brain’s way of telling me to slow down and focus on getting out of this, but it still sucks because I was so excited to get my mojo back.
I’m slowly getting better though, so trying to finish editing all fics/chapters one by one and posting them sometime this weekend/next week.
Anyway, just checking in. You can carry on now. Thank you <3
30 degrees Celsius (86 Fahrenheit for those who don’t want to look it up) was not on my bingo card for APRIL. Where I live we’ve had a solid 25/26 the past two days, which is a bit cooler, but just thinking that a few hundred kilometers away there’s already a high of 30 degrees baffles me. Like… how hot is summer going to be? Am I going to melt? (I know there are hotter countries, but I’m not used to it).
Wouldn’t surprise me if the weather took a drastic turn and it started snowing again in May tbh.
Warnings: (additional tags to be added/changed) Dead Dove Do Not Eat, religious imagery & symbolism, vampirism, Dark!Matt, blood consumption, corruption kink, SMUT (18+), pain kink, blood play, ANGST, canon typical violence, physical assault, allusions to sexual assault, hunter and prey vibes, allusions to stalking (possibly full-on), scent kink, marking, blasphemy, no happy ending
Summary: Over the past centuries, nothing could have stopped Matt Murdock from wanting, craving, everything, even what he could not have; money, power, and sex, among other more materialistic things, but nothing has him in quite a chokehold like the insatiable hunger for blood he was cursed with the night he died. Nothing could have stopped him from getting what he wants until one day in March, you enter his life.
Matt has stolen, beaten and killed without care, but corrupting a child of God is a line he dares not cross. You, a nun. It’s unthinkable. The part of him that longs for the life he was torn out of—the boy still riding the waves of Catholicism, that Matt Murdock—would rather see him impaled on a wooden stake than allow him to take your blood. Your blood, your innocence, and all that you are; the aroma of rosemary and sanctity that surrounds you is a siren’s call that draws him inevitably closer. The same walls of Clinton Church that house you would incinerate him, and he still wants you. He wants you, but he can’t have you.
Devoting yourself to the church saved you from the abyss, but it may also lead to your eternal corruption at the hands of the Devil of Hell’s Kitchen. Matt Murdock. A vampire. Soon, you find yourself not only on the verge of losing your innocence to this angel of the night but your life, too, and your world drastically changes for what you realize might be worse than death itself.
(18+ MINORS DNI!)
A/n: I’m back, back, BACK again! Vampire!Matt brainrot is real, and this idea was so dark in my head and kind of ironic, really, I had to put it out there for you. I will be doing my research on Catholicism religiously (pun intended) to make this as accurate as possible, but it’s still an alternate universe and I like making up my own rules. Everything I write is my personal playground, and I invite you to join me for this steamy piece of angst. So far, this is only a concept, but I will get to writing it as soon as I can! The idea is there, and I’ve got some things planned out already. So, if you’re curious, do stick around!
AESTHETIC.
Matt.
You.
RELEASE DATE: TBD!
(If you want to be tagged to know when I release it, as always, feel free to let me know. I don’t bite. Well, only sometimes.)
Ever since writing ‘Interview With The Vampire’ I’ve been experiencing some serious Vampire!Matt brainrot. I’ve had an idea, and I have been working on it while also writing some other stuff to give you a few updates—I still made an aesthetic collage and everything for this particular idea—but now I’m not sure when or even if I should share it. Should I do it? Should I wait? Should I keep my mouth shut and take it to the grave? Hmmm… decisions, decisions…
A nun and a vampire just sound like a joke waiting to happen, doesn’t it?
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