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Not easy to have a shower using only one spoon. Metaphorical or otherwise.

Sometimes it's really impressive when you do something simple.

Not because of the perceived difficulty of the task, but because of the effort it took you despite your current abilities.

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Sometimes it's really impressive when you do something simple.

Not because of the perceived difficulty of the task, but because of the effort it took you despite your current abilities.

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Having to wait a long time while in short-term waiting is so exhausting. I have trouble not getting angry at people who unintentionally put me in that state.

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This is basically what therapy is about for me.

Source ~ IG colete.martin

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One issue I have with autism being called a superpower is that people will take that and use it as a reason to not accommodate us.

If you see your autism as a superpower that's awesome! I don't want you to change just because other people misuse your views.

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being autistic and having ocd is a literal hell, because sometimes i get hyperfocused in something i fucking hate, i don't like it and i often get paranoid :(

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Do what you can, but don't beat yourself up over what you can't.

Watch videos of guinea-pigs online every so often.

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I thought as I got older I'd become wiser and more independent. Nowadays I would just really like someone to hold my hand through everything. Please?

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How to explain AuDHD things to NTs, by my therapist

"Imagine you're playing chess all day, every day, on a timer, where any wrong move could result in confusion or awkwardness. You are constantly anticipating, strategizing, and analyzing every move."

"Imagine you’re an actor performing a role for 8-12 hours a day, acting as ‘normal.’ You’re following rules you’ve studied your whole life, but one small slip, like showing your interests or being yourself, might make people question you or treat you differently. It’s exhausting because the role never ends and it feels like I’m always one wrong word away from the audience turning on me.”

“Imagine that your phone battery dies by lunchtime every day and the only way to recharge it is by sitting in complete silence for 12 hours. Even then, it only gets to 50%.”

"Imagine trying to use an old laptop with too many tabs open. It lags, freezes and crashes. That’s my brain on a regular workday. No matter how much I try to "push through", the system just shuts down.”

"It’s like sprinting with a permanently broken ankle: it’s possible but it hurts, and it’s not sustainable forever.”

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Shout out to the autistic who’s abilities have regressed as they’ve gotten older.

“You didn’t used to be like this when you were a kid.” I know please don’t remind me

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Trying to relax while stressed is very stressful.

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I love maps.

One of my hobbies is finding globes at secondhand markets and working out when they were made based on country borders and names.

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Even now at 31, I still can’t shake the anxiety that I’m doing something wrong by sleeping in, or having a “lazy” day.

I have such an anxiety, like my partner will be mad at me if I rest (he always encourages me to rest). I have chronic pain and get drained easily. But yet, if I watch TV I feel anxious and like if I’m going to rest because of pain, I shouldn’t get to do anything that makes me happy.

This is definitely an internalized message from growing up.

I’m working to unlearn it.

It’s okay if you rest. And it’s okay if you do something you enjoy while resting. You shouldn’t have to punish yourself by making yourself more miserable.

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You have to eat the worst part first so you get the best part as the last bite. That way the best part stays in your mouth memory.

It's The Rules.

So I was on r/FakeDisorderCringe one day, and they said there no way to “autistic way to eat something.

Well, I do this with pop tarts. I eat the crust around it (it’s so gross imo) and then eat I eat the rest because of the filling.

What about you? Do you eat similarly?

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You're right OCD, if I touch two colours of floor tile at the same time, my parents will die. Just like how last time I did it, my parents died.

Wait a minute.

My parents are still alive.

Could it be... My OCD doesn't actually have the power to mould reality???