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It's my 3 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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my mind is my second home, somewhere I can truly be me ,where the tension of the day seem quite otherworldly .

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Celebrating valentines day with one shot videos of physics chapters simply sitting in my bed

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"Querencia-a favorite place"

tear stained cheeks

a starlit moonlight,

she sits under a tree

wanting to be free,

her stained cheeks make her feel free

they offer her a sense of tranquility.

her moonlit mind ,makes her feel infinite

she feels alive, wanting to balter all day and night

she feels alive and glee, for she finally feels free

away from her burdens and the shackles of society.

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i hate when a poem is good. Fuck you for saying that for real

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About the writer🌊

Pronouns-She/her

Sun sign -Taurus, Rising sign-Gemini

Hogwarts house - hufflepuff

Typology*_*

Mbti- enfj

Attitudinal psyche-EVFL

[My account on personality database is @arminwhorshipper]

Fav films?

any ghibli movie 

Hobbies ?

Writing, photography, learning and just looking at nature lol

Fav film universes?

MCU (specially spiderverse) and  Ghibliverse.

Fields of study that interest me!

cosmology ,philosophy, psychiatry and linguistics 

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When you visit my blog I truly hope you feel light, free, and loved. We're on this journey together.

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the smallest amount of reassurance means so much. Random messages like “im not mad at you” “you’re not annoying me” “i’ll text you later” “i love you” is such a relief.

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True happiness doesn't come from being popular,it doesn't come from empty praises from people you dont know.

True happiness is something found within self,

It comes from accepting who you truly are,every part of yourself.It may be difficult at first but with time you will realize just how beautiful being your true self is and how beautiful you truly are.

It comes from healing,

Healing those open wounds within,

Accepting who you are,

Working hard for yourself ,not for others.

Try to find your happiness within,

Keep trying to make peace with yourself ,

Try to accept every fragment of your beautiful self,

Because once you do, you'll be the most beautiful you.

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Words to live by

“Once you realize there is life after mistakes, you gain a self-confidence that never goes away.”

— Bob Schieffer

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When I was 13 years old and curious about sex and love, I asked my mom if she had had sex before marrying my father (of whom she is still married to, and has been since before I was born). She said that that wasn’t really a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question. I said ‘sure it is, you’ve either had sex before him, or you haven’t’. She brought me onto the couch and sat me down and told me about the boy she liked when she was young and how one night she snuck into his house while his parents were gone and they were kissing and he said they should have sex and she said that she wanted to save sex for marriage and he laughed and basically took all her clothes off and he raped her and as my mom was telling the story she cried and this was the second time I had ever seen my mom cry. She was 12 when it happened.

In grade 8 I got a call from my friend in the middle of the night and she was drunk in the park crying and told me that she went out that night with some other friends and they drank a little and her guy “friend” starting flirting and yes she laughed at first but then he tried to pull her shirt over her head and she pulled away and he ripped her shirt and it was her favourite shirt and then he pushed her to her knees and HIS BEST FRIEND HELD HER JAW OPEN WHILE HE FACE FUCKED HER. And so I went to the park and picked her up and took her home and slept in her bed with her except we didn’t sleep because she just cried and her mouth bled and this was four years ago but I still have to be the one to bring her items to the till it the cashier is a man, and she still has anxiety attacks and she’ll get a rash all over her body and I just want to kill those boys but instead they are still walking around. And I’m in the bathroom with her, dabbing at her skin with a warm cloth until it returns to its regular colour.

And in grade 9 one of my closest friends was kinda seeing this boy and so they hung out one night and then she said that she really had to be getting back home and he said that she wasn’t going anywhere until she gave him what he wanted and he parked the car and took off her clothes and she said no and he ignored her and so she laid in the backseat totally limp and just cried and it wasn’t even sex, he just masterbated by using her body instead of his hand and she came to school the next day with vodka in her water bottle and she drank all day and I had to fight her to get the alcohol away from her and she just cried and threw up and I skipped class while I held her hair back and that same boy texted me a month later, asking if I ever wanted to hangout sometime.

And in that same year my very best friend who has never even kissed a boy, confessed to me that when she was 9 years old, her 12 year old cousin made her give him a hand job and he told her that was what cousins do and he gave her a chocolate bar afterwards and she told me that he probably doesn’t even remember it but that it’s something that she’ll never have the luxury of forgetting.

And in grade 10 I knew a girl who invited her best friend over to watch Disney movies and then he started to put his hands down her pants and she said no but she is 130lbs and he is 220lbs and he called her a tease while she tried to fight him but he used one hand to hold her down, and the other to put inside of her and i was the one to push her inside of a classroom and stand in front of her while calling the police when he showed up at our school looking for her and she was so damn scared.

And a few months later I skipped class and was in the car with a guy who i had had unprotected sex with in the past while under the influence of cocaine but this time I was sober and I insisted we use a condom but he told me he couldn’t feel anything while the condom was on so he ripped it off and I said I refused to have unprotected sex again and so he just grabbed me and forced himself into my mouth and I was crying and he pulled me onto him and I just came saying “stop” over and over like a broken record but he must’ve heard something different because he went until he came and I just sat naked in the backseat while he drove me back to the school and said “we should do this again sometime”. And I had five showers that night and I scratched at my skin so hard to try and rip his fingerprints off of me, I still have the scars.

And I found out soon afterwards that that same guy had raped a classmate of mine, 5 months earlier and she told me about how he brought her McDonald’s first, and how he said they could take things slow and she told me about how he didn’t listen to her either. And he goes to our school and so after she told me about her incident and I told her about mine, we decided to report it to the police and the trial is currently still going on and he told people about it, except in his version we are just “asking for attention” and all his friends talk about how bad they feel for him. As if HE is the one that still wakes up screaming. As if HE felt like his skin no longer was beautiful, no longer belonged to him. And I held her in my arms as she bawled after giving the police her statement. And she did the same for me.

And I met a woman a year ago in a paint store and she had a service dog and I asked what the dog was for and it turns out that she had been so brutally raped and abused in her life, that the dog is literally trained to keep men away from her.

And I’m so FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS WORLD WE ARE LIVING IN. How many rape victims eyes have I already looked into? How many more will I? And how many more friends will I hold while they shake? Because I don’t know how many more I can take. And who the fuck still has the nerve to make rape jokes? And… Something just has to change. Please, someone just start being that change.

-16 year old girl

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Reblog if you’re asexual, bisexual, demisexual, pansexual, homosexual, bigender, agender, transgender, or just really like fall out boy.

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at a certain point you just get tired of your own shit. you have to force yourself to meditate, workout, eat mindfully and read the books to form a routine that gives you a sense of happiness within yourself again. it’s exhausting i know, but you gotta keep fighting for yourself because no one will take care and love you the way you can for own being. this life is not something to go bout so casually, everyday is your first and last time to embrace this moment. this life was gifted to you with a planet to explore and souls to experience. so show up for yourself.

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Okay so as an Oikawa kinnie may i suggest hanging around a bonfire and bar-be-cue?! (With iwa ofc)

Like where i live it doesnt snow at all(hasnt snowed in years TT) but it gets pretty cold so like we have events where people gather around bornfires and cook food ,and just chat and i feel like its very dark acadmeia-ish too.(this is my very first post pls spare me TT).

BONFIRES

You and Oikawa sitting close to each other around the bornfire just looking at the cozy bonfire ,while he keeping rumbling about how his new moisturizer leaves his skin dry (someone get this guy a nice moisturizer)and you suddenly interrupt his monologue saying that your face feels cold ,and and you two stare deeply into each others eyes and then as he comes close he just pecks your lips and says -

"Not now dee gotta complain about my moisturizer first "and then winks and runs away to where Iwa is cooking barbecue while you run after him with firewood in hand ready to attack at any moment.

(Okay bye i indulged a bit too much😗)

Mood board

ok since i have finished all the sent event requests for today how about you guys give me date ideas ??

my favorite character is oikawa and my aesthetic is a mix of tomboy and dark academia

i am an iwa kinnie sooo (iwaoi 2.0 vibes)

and my favorite season is winter

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