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no longer suffering <3

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Lorenzo Tonda, Run

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sanae sugimoto

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made by @clarabrunetvalls

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Victoria Chang, from "Untitled #5, 1998", With My Back to the World

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I was face to face with a screen, a mirror to myself. I was asked to write a bio, add a profile picture, age, sex, location. Status update. What was going on in my head? And another. And another. Until the end of time. But everything was new and different. It had everyone by the throat.

I was face to face with a screen asking to describe myself, to reflect back who I am, who I want to be perceived as. It had never occurred to me, how to be perceived. I had interests, thoughts, just not a single concept of self. It was the summer going into high school then. That blank screen ominous in my conscience. The idea of summing myself up. Presenting it clean and tidy and so sure of itself. Myself. Who?

Moments that I am sure were supposed to be spent living into myself were spent dissociating. Into fantasy, or somewhere darker. Everywhere but reality. Self-actualization, who is she? Deep in the woods, I would just begin to find my edges. Some semblance of self came back, or forward. Oscillations of a dream, of half-baked actuality. The trees extended their branches and my fingers clung on.

I still sit at a screen and not know who I am. Who I am supposed to be. Meant to be. Was there a destiny? Before all of these realizations were supposed to wake me? When was I supposed to wake up? Or, was I supposed to go through this life without that concern. Time fades and stops for a moment, the pre-conscious emotion seeps into soft, dewy skin. It tenderizes the flesh. Time flashes and you wake again, ten years later.

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Dorris Vooijs

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Guadalupe Salgado, Xolo 2025.

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alcova

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Marin Majić (German, 1979) - Midnight Spoils (2023)

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Laurent Grasso (French, 1972) - Studies Into the Past (2024)

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Toyen - Minuit, L´heure blasonnee (1961)