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chat i need a gf this isn't funny anymore

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My gw

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olivia making me cry in public…

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i am thought daughter. i cannot stop thinking. im going to vomit.

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umm how to tell ur best friend to stop romanticizing EDs bc it’s triggering me!!??

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ranting abt my ex bc idk how to feel abt her!! UM SCARY!! KINDA DEEP!!?! beware. 😇😇

I hate to want to be a home wrecker but knowing she spends the night at her house and has a healthy relationship with someone that isn’t me genuinely hurts my heart so bad to the point where feel like im having a heart attack. I hate this feeling and the knowing. Knowing that someone else knows her the way I once did and most likely even more than I did. Knowing that she is laughing with her the way we used to. Knowing that she’s the one she goes to now when something exciting happens and when something is bothering her makes me feel so sad. Knowing that im the reason things ended makes me feel so guilty for feeling this way. Then I think about why I had to leave and how hurt I was during the relationship and that sends me down a deeper spiral. I know even if we ever did somehow come together again (not sure if thats what im hoping for or i just miss the familiarity?)(ALSO SHE LITERALLY HAS A GF), id always have that insecurity stuck with me and it would make me feel like I couldn’t be the best I could be and that maybe I wouldn’t even really want to be in a relationship with her again.

I hate that im hear writing all of this and desperately wondering what could’ve been if we had not been afraid to show each other the love we had for each other.

I hate that im stuck here thinking this way while she’s happy with someone else.

I hate that I can’t talk to anyone else romantically without thinking of what we had together and slowly becoming distant and I look like such an asshole that doesn’t care but I do. And im trying to not think of her I really am but there is something wrong with me bc I can’t.

I hate that she thinks that I moved on so quickly after when in reality I didn’t want it.

But!! The thing that i hate the most is the fact that I can’t tell her everything.

AND THAT SHE HAS A GF. Idk I hate knowing that she loves someone else. I would say it’s like that quite “I hope you get everything you’ve ever wanted, and I hope that I never hear a thing about it. ” but I do want to hear about it because I still care for her. But the very last thing I’d hope to hear was that she found love, and so quickly. But ig it’s just me making the bed!!

Also fearing starting another relationship because I hate feeling this way.

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i dont know if im a good person.

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mommy slayed (this pussy) last night 😜

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“I could be a good mother” I’m scared that I’ll end up like my parents if I don’t get the help that’s needed.. not that I’ll ever put my future kids through anything but there’s times where I think I’ll slip.

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!!!

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me when i remember that shes knows im cute, she just doesn’t want me anymore

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how it feels trying to find a fanfic/imagine about a fandom that’s dead and dry

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I've lost you, I've lost you, I've lost you

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Do NOT repost this or this 2 people will appear in your room at 3 am‼️‼️

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ྀིྀི wanna give mommy wanda the most, nasty, dirty, outstanding, pleasurable, long, insane, marvelous, astonishing, satisfying, jaw dropping, breathe taking, earth shattering, remarkable, thrilling, unbelievable, flabbergasting, extraordinary, mind blowing, phenomenal, remarkable, sensational, incredible, wondrous head of all time.

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on my knees for mommy wanda :((((