fel-in-cosesia

[fel-in-cosesia]

Introductions

This is a project that I started in the summer of 2016, right before my eight grade year. I was in our middle school's creative writing club and had a pretty big passion for it writing. The teacher that proctored the after school club was very instrumental in the creation of this project. She encouraged me to start writing plans for my first ever novel, which I then wrote in winter of my sophomore year in high school for a school project. That novel was then subsequently deleted as soon as I received a grade for it as I believed it was the worst thing I have ever written. It was bad, trust me. But it was an important step, which I never realized until recently. because sometimes you have to fail to learn.

While most everything from that first story is gone, aside from the characters, it was very much the basis of this story I have been creating. This daydream world of mine started to take form in the spring of that same sophomore year, 2019. there was one AP class (AP Seminar, for those interested) that I absolutely hated and instead of doing any work in that class, I would do small writing practices. My favorite of the bunch would be to open a blank word document and put my Spotify on shuffle. When a new song would start playing, I'd think up of a character, plotline, or setting that matched the vibe and/or lyrics of the song playing, and I had to stop writing the second the song finished. I usually deleted the documents before the class ended, but this is where my two main oc's came from (Granted, their current iterations are much different than how I first envisioned them, but that's for the best). That is where this story truly begins. With a main character, a love interest, and a newfound determination to make something out of these daydreams.

I started creating a whole fantasy world focused on a strange man and his orphanage, but there was still something missing. It was when I started working on a magic system that everything started to fall into place. I made multiple gods, each with their own domains and types of magic. I made Host system, allowing creatures to trade their life force to harness the gods' powers. Then, during the Covid lockdown of 2020, I reached my first big milestone. I created the first hand-drawn map I've ever created. I still have the physical copy of it, and I'll include the digital version I made a few years ago somewhere in this blog, but this is when the project truly began to take form.

I'll be honest, from here the linear progression of the story becomes extremely foggy. These characters and this world have changed so much since their first iterations, and I have still yet to write any work of fiction starring them and their world. I'm scared of failing again, like I did in November 2018. I want to do my characters justice by making sure their story is told in the best way possible, and I want people to enjoy their story. I'm not wanting to become the next big fantasy writer, but I want these characters to be out there for people to witness. And while I want this to happen sooner rather than later, I need more time to refine my skills before I can try to tackle the challenge of writing again.

Recently, I've been afraid that I'm running out of time. Call it a mid-life crisis or just plain nihilism, but my biggest fear is dying before I can finish writing this story. All of my notes are so scattered across different websites and google drives that it would be impossible for someone to compile it all. Not to mention all the information that hasn't been written down and is just stored in my brain. And once I'm gone, all of that will be gone as well unless if I do something about it. Which is what this Tumblr blog is for. I'm going to be spending the foreseeable future documenting everything I can remember and find in the hopes that if I die before I turn it all into a novel, someone can use this blog to pick up the torch in my stead. And, if I am able to live a long enough life to make the novel I want to, then this blog can serve as a way to look back on progress.

To those who stick around to read my insane ramblings about dead gods and geographical structures that make no damn sense, I thank you. These characters and this world is of my creation, and if I can entertain one soul with what is here, then that'll be enough to justify the work put into this blog. Let's have some fun. ~Fel