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[felicitymegan]

i am not a good person. whenever i have something good i find this little voice inside me whispering “test it” “push it away” “it will only die, might as well be the one who wrecks it anyway.” i break things. i rip my own happiness apart.

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it is done.

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she's mothering so hard

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𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄    (a  series  of  nonverbal  prompts .   mature  themes  present ,   ‘ my ’  muse  belongs  to  the  one who  posted  the  meme  -  send   “ + REVERSE ”   to  reverse  the  prompts .)

→     𝐈 .    GENERAL

❛   hush .   raise  a  finger  in  a  gesture  to  silence  my  muse . ❛   sit .   gesture  for  my  muse  to  sit  down . ❛   door .   hold  a  door  open  for  my  muse . ❛   tap .   tap  my  muse  on  the  shoulder  to  garner  their  attention . ❛   hunger .   give  my  muse  something  to  eat  /  drink . ❛   cook .   present  my  muse  with  home - cooked  food . ❛   brush .   work  a  brush  /  comb  through  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   read .   silently  read  a  book  alongside  my  muse . ❛   hand .   hold  out  a  hand  for  my  muse  to  take . ❛   dressed .   help  my  muse  put  on  an  article  of  clothing . ❛   note .   give  my  muse  a  note  saying :   [ content ] . ❛   amplify .   turn  up  the  music  in  the  car .

→     𝐈𝐈 .    ANGST

❛   patch .   help  my  muse  patch  up  a  wound . ❛   night terrors .   hold  my  muse  after  they  wake  up  from  a  nightmare . ❛   company .   silently  sit  with  my  muse  to  comfort  them. ❛   hospital .   my  muse  is  told  that  yours  is  in  the  hospital . ❛   revelation .   show  my  muse  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ❛   indulge .   find  my  muse  drinking  to  cope . ❛   downfall .   find  my  muse  collapsed  on  the  ground . ❛   console .   comfort  my  muse  as  they  cry . ❛   nurse .   give  my  muse  company  in  the  hospital .

→     𝐈𝐈 .    AFFECTIONATE

❛   wink .   wink  at  my  muse .  ❛   wrap .   wrap  an  arm  around  my  muse’s  [ shoulders  /  waist ] . ❛   caress .   gently  caress  my  muse’s  face . ❛   tousle .   mess  playfully  with  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   chest .   place  your  head  on  my  muse’s  chest .    ❛   comb .   comb  fingers  through  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   grasp .   run  to  my  muse  &  jump  into  their  arms . ❛   lean .   lean  on  my  muse’s  shoulder . ❛   tender .   kiss  my  muse  on  the  [ forehead  /  cheek  /  nose ] . ❛   abrupt .   kiss  my  muse  out  of  the  blue . ❛   chaste .   chastely  kiss  my  muse . ❛   good morning .   kiss  my  muse  the  morning  after . ❛   volumes .   gaze  at  my  muse  in  a  way  that  silently  says  ‘i love you’ .

→     𝐈𝐈𝐈 .    VIOLENT

❛   strike .   [ slap / punch ]  my muse in the face . ❛   gun .   wield  a  gun  at  my  muse . ❛   twist .   twist  my  muse’s  arm  behind  their  back . ❛   throttle .   aggressively  wrap  your  hands  around  my  muse’s  throat . ❛   parch .   burn  my  muse  with  a  hot  object . ❛   take down .   forcefully  bring  my  muse  to  the  ground . ❛   gouge .   wield  a  sharp  object  at  my  muse . ❛  shunt .   shove  my  muse  backwards . ❛  stickup .   yell  at  my  muse  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air. ❛  shoot .   [ fatally  /  non-fatally ]   shoot  my  muse . ❛  stab .   stab  my  muse with a  [ knife / other object ].

→     𝐈𝐕 .    NSFW

❛   surprise .   send  an  unexpected  nsfw  image  to  my  muse . ❛   pin .   push  my  muse  against  a  [ wall,  table,  other ] . ❛   go down .   go  down  on  my  muse . ❛   choke .   intimately  wrap  your  hands  around  my  muse’s  throat . ❛   belt loops .   pull  my  muse  closer  by  their  belt loops . ❛   skinny dipping .   go  skinny  dipping  with  my  muse . ❛   rip .   tear  a  piece  of  clothing  from  my  muse’s  body . ❛   mark .   leave  a  mark  on  my  muse’s  body  [ specify where ] .

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' you look handsome! ' " i try not to, it just keeps happening. "

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my baby with her baby .....

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            OVERWATCH ! 

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@oliverjonas said , you asked me once,  if i would ever take a chance on us…maybe that ship sailed.  but.  ask me again?  sometime— doesn’t have to be today.  maybe tomorrow just.  ask me again.

hope blossoms in her chest & she clears her throat , tucking her curls behind her ear . she wants to . she wants to right then & there . but she doesn't . she can't . not when there's all of this doubt in her mind that makes a beeline straight for her heart in ways she can't even explain . she doesn't want to be this way . so cautious with her heart . not with him . but they've gone through so much . they've put each other through so much . it wouldn't be fair , right ? it wouldn't be fair to bring all of that back up only for it to fall apart again . & she knows if she were a better woman she would tell him no , outright . she would tell him that she's so afraid of hurting him again that he should never ask her to ask him again because it will end the way it always ends . he will try his hardest , she will try hers . they will be happy . they will be each other's homes . then come the terrible people who know how much they mean to each other and try to tear them apart . then come the lies . then comes trying desperately to hold on to what they have , trying not to let the past affect the future she knows that they could have . then comes the end . over and over . how can he want that ? doesn't he know he doesn't deserve it ? doesn't he know that she doesn't think she can ever be someone who can stand the secrets that he has to keep from her ? not when she's watched secrets and lies destroy so many parts of her already , despite the way that a new beginning for them entices her so . it still gets stuck in her throat , the words she would kill to be able to say right now . ' i love you , i want us to work , i need you ' instead , she looks away , unable to keep his blue eyed gaze , so earnest & full of the same love that courses through her every hour of every day , on her . instead she takes his hand in hers , her thumb stroking the back of his hand steeling herself before she can look at him again . she's not a better woman but she's trying , she'll try harder tomorrow , the hope of the good finally outweighing the bad for them overpowering the doubt for the briefest second , making her weak , making her selfish . ❝  count on it .  ❞

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i hope you're stupid enough to try. - an independent, mixed media dinah laurel lance / black canary. by tia.

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felicity with these bangs & this updo ??? UNSTOPPABLE

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bisexual felicity smoak strikes again ! suprising no one .

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@dinhlnce said , a flirtatious kiss on the back of the hand .

there are times when felicity knows she's the smartest person in a room , a lot of the times she will find herself bored in the meetings at queen consolidated because while she's no where near educated enough about the business side of things she's pretty sure that she could figure it out quicker than whoever is talking about the different ways that they could make more money & screw over the less fortunate all while planning a billion dollar renovation to their fourth house that - anyway , she's quite smart , she'll leave it at that . it's times like these , though . when she feels like she didn't get three degrees at mit or graduate high school at fifteen or create any of the cool gadgets the team wears or - anyway , it's when dinah looks at her like that , gives her that little smile & don't even get her started on the feel of her soft lips on the back of her hand as if she's promising something felicity has zero time to think about . because thinking about it makes her stupid . it makes her giggle like a shy schoolgirl . what is it about the ridiculously attractive people in this town making her stupid ??? there's a blush that rises from her chest to her cheeks as dinah lifts her lips from the back of her hand & felicity resists the urge to keep her fingers clutched to dinah's and beg for ... whatever dinah wants if she's being honest . but she doesn't . she lets her hand fall & she turns back to her computer , eyes wide as she tries , desperately , to focus because she's not sure she will ever remember what the hell they were talking about . she just knows that dinah's probably about to get her way .

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blog canon / divergence . s3 forward . **

** a lot of my felicity has been developed outside of arrow canon alongside @oliverjonas​ so this blog canon will reflect that & specific oliver & felicity canon with kris can be found here ( x ). but there will be au verses available .

she is working at tech village after she loses her job at kord industries after they all get fired from qc. once queen consolidated is aquired by palmer tech ( who’s work she has long admired for the strides he’s made not only in tech, but in building a company )she applies back to the i.t. department & begins to work her way up in the company, more aggressively than when she worked at queen consolidated. over the course of the year she earns her spot as vp as she & ray figure out that they work together really well & become good friends . 

after everything that happens with ra’s & the explosion at palmer tech, felicity is eager to get out of star city & travel the world with the man she loves . but she very soon starts to miss their live in star city, despite all of the bad memories that live there because their family lives there too. she misses digg & dinah & thea & starts helping them, not knowing that oliver is planning to propose.

when the ghosts attack the limo, after she and oliver get engaged, felicity is shot four times ( twice in the shoulder, once in the side piercing her kidney & once in the back near her spinal cord ) . it takes months of physical therapy & follow ups after her initial three month stay in the hospital with her doctors to get her body even close to being fully healed . despite that & her doctors warnings to take it easy ( not to mention the team ) she continued to work with the team from home & the hospital until she was strong enough to be back in the bunker for longer periods of time. 

felicity breaks up with oliver not because he didn’t tell her about william even though she’s still pretty pissed  … but so that oliver can figure out how he wants to deal with being william’s dad / being green arrow / being oliver / being with her. she feels bad that she made him come back because she didn’t want to stop & now ? there’s all of this to deal with & she is focused on getting better & work. neither choose to keep the loft & rent it out shortly after their break up.

oliver & felicity go through a two year separation while remaining team members / building new team arrow, they have hooked up intermittently on their break but that stopped as soon as she started dating billy ( probably ).

after getting help from helix to find prometheus & then realizing that cay.den ja.mes was a little more than cuckoo bananas felicity actively works to dismantle helix . 

she feels beyond guilty when billy dies & throws herself even further into her work & steps away team for a while to focus on it & deal with billy’s death. 

felicity starts working on starting smoak technologies in her apartment with curtis ( their first project is attempting to create the bio-stimulant implant in a way that is affordable & accessible for the general public ) 

once they get back from lian yu oliver & felicity start to really work on repairing their relationship & working to introduce william to the idea of them being together while honoring samantha’s memory.

also no one gets married at barry & iris' wedding except barry & iris you absolute ******* ********

oliver & felicity are legally separated but still married when she finds out she’s pregnant with mia & while they live apart they work really hard to give both of their kids the childhood they deserve & make sure they know that they are a family no matter what. 

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We’re meant to be family.

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..... bwankie girl ....

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