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Children please stop calling the slightest hint of sexual desire “gooning” I’m going to strangle all of you

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we need to invent a way to explain how deep running and pervasive and subliminal racism and antiblackness is without immediately sounding like an insane conspiracy theorist

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even if Bella WAS a perfect vampire, & even if this WAS who she was always meant to be, it wouldn't erase her insecurity of fitting in. she would completely overpower the Cullens in sports & competitions for at least a year. they have decades of inside jokes, memories, and cultural experiences she will never share. that's nothing to say of the real-world experience she lacks. & while no one would admit it, her perfect control must get irritating for someone like Jasper, who struggles with the diet, or Rose, who until now could brag about having the cleanest record besides Carlisle. obviously, as a vampire in a human's world, she's never going to find a true sense of belonging. but even among the Cullens, i don't see her overcoming that feeling anytime soon, despite what she might want to believe.

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all politics about ai aside if you use it to create fanwork you're just a fucking dweeb

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the tag is full of AI with 20 comments per chapter while the best fanfic in the fandom only had 2 people comment on the most recent chapter. there is no justice in this world and hell is not hot enough

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em dash = AI is so crazy to me. the em dash is my best friend. i couldn’t stop using her if i tried — and i would never try because i love her.

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I forgot I have a handful of drafts in the works going over the novels I am writing and my tagging system for them but for some reason tumblr's formatting being so fucked has made me lose motivation to try to make things fun and informative etc

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have realized that while i am not a fan necessarily of "people meet and immediately fall in love" i am a fan of "people meet and are immediately obsessed with each other." the love can come later but the absolute fixation should be immediate

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It’s wild to me to see transvestigator conspiracy theories online that could be so easily explained by natural human variation. That woman has a deep voice? Yeah, sometimes they do. A woman has broad shoulders?? Maybe she plays rugby or hits the gym a fuckton. There’s a “bulge” in her tight pants?? Maybe her vulva is just fat. All the “markers” of trans woman that transvestigators use to harass any woman aren’t even things unique to trans women.

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soda but it’s carbonated with carbon monoxide

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Ghost who after he gets with you he CANNOT focus while sniping lol. Well, at least not fully anyways.

He spends so long eating u out in the sniper position, rutting against the bed while u moan and grip his hair. The next op back from leave, he gets into position like normal and is mortified to feel himself stiffen up at just the familiarity of the movements. Hes hard the entire mission and thinking of you, shamefully ruts into the ground every now and then just to try and quell the ache.

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Have u ever considered using Ai to expand ur blurbs? I love all the idea you put out, but they're so short!!

Id rather kill myself.

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Okay so tumblr is doing that thing again where I'm following a bunch of bot accounts and it's removed a bunch of people I've followed (this is my main, my sides are rolansrighthorn and the head of viktors commune one)- I was at like 150 following and now it's 127???

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"You are my life now."

Edward Cullen, Twilight by Stephenie Meyer

// there was something hauntingly beautiful about the way Edward loved Bella. It wasn’t safe or simple: it was intense, overwhelming, and inevitable. He loved her like she was the only thing anchoring him to the world, like choosing her meant choosing life itself... 

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Who knew so many people would jump down my throat when I say there is no reason ever for books to have detailed CSA or children having sex with each other on page and that people who write that shit out are fucking weird

Somehow censorship and the Holocaust was brought up and now I am left wondering where the fuck that even came from when all I said was "adults assaulting kids and kids having sex shouldn't be written in detail in any book for any reason" but uh okay

My bad for thinking that shit doesn't need to be written in detail I guess that means I think CSA should never ever be talked about for any reason and therefore create more stigma surrounding it (which I don't but these people put that lovely assumption onto me for my apparent radical opinion)

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I feel like I am spiraling pretty fast into a crashout and I don't want it to make me get irrational and delete all my servers and stuff but also I just feel like I don't have anyone that wants to willingly listen to me and I know it's likely just a me thing but oh my god hahahahahahahahahaha