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Prompt: She liked to relax over coffee and the bodies of her enemies.

Image Source: Maciej Korsan via stocksnap.io

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A post about romantic relationships

so I’ve been in a relationship for 5 years now. And I see a lot of posts about how people think relationships mean having butterflies forever, your heart beating faster when they walk into a room, about cuddling together every night, legs intertwined, that you’d be so happy to live together you’d sleep on a double bed with each other every night.

And its not really like that, at least not to me.

You stop getting the butterflies when you live together. Your heart no longer speeds up when you see them, but instead, everything calms down. When youre in the room with them, you feel calm, and secure. When you cuddle them you feel your heart beat slow, and the sound of their breathing carry you towards comfort. It doesnt feel like a roller coaster anymore, it feels like home.

You don’t sleep curled up with each other every night, legs twisted between theirs so tight its hard to tell where yours begin and theirs end.

Instead, you sleep comfortably, side by side, sometimes facing different directions. But every night, you find yourself scooting backwards on the bed so you bump into them. You snuggle against their arm, or stroke their hair as they fall asleep. There are nights when my boyfriend, in his sleep, reaches around me and pulls me to him, like a child with his teddybear, like I am his comfort.

 In the wee hours of the morning before the dawn breaks, when the world is blue and you see through cracked eyes, you curl into their chest and inhale their scent before drifting back to sleep. 

Kisses aren’t always romantic and firey anymore. But there are so much more of them now. There are cold kisses when you’re eating ice cream in the summer, and sticky kisses over breakfast pancakes. There’s “im leaving now” kisses, and “one more kiss before you go” kisses. There’s sleepy morning kisses before work, when you don’t remember the alarm going off but instead the press of their lips against yours is what brings you into the day.

There’s kisses before sleep, and, you are so sweet with the things you do kisses. There’s kisses because you treat animals so tenderly, and I’m so glad i’m with you and not someone else kisses. There’s quick kisses in the aisles of the grocery store, when its loud and you gravitate together, when instead of having your own personal space and their own personal space, its both of yours together, and you step into their chest to take up less area together. 

You don’t always text each other with confessions of love and care like you used to, because that’s a given now, and you’ve moved on to quirky inside jokes about the life youve built together. You share looks of exasperation and amusement in public, your own little world against the outside one. 

Relationships aren’t always a fairy tale. They’re not always fireworks and sparks, at least, after the start.

But they are a quiet rhythm and hum of love and care. It’s not a fire in your soul, but one in your hearth, keeping you warm and comfortable, comforting you as you drowsily drift into sleep.

And I love that.

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I try to write on days like this, its very low energy, particularly since I got dictation software, but it still gives tangible evidence of accomplishment, and that helps.

my pain has been super bad and I haven't been able to get out of bed :/ I feel really lazy and worthless, any tips on how to not get so upset with my body failing me?

Hi anon, I’m sorry you’re feeling this way too. I also get upset with my body, like it’s my bodies fault for not being in healthy (Although I suppose it kind of is, but punishing it doesn’t help anyone). Sometimes this causes me to punish it by skipping meds, overeating or other self harm methods. 

First off, I want you to know that you are not lazy or worthless. You are sick. Simply put. I tell myself this ALL the time because I tend to forget very easily. Even now, I’m 5 days out from a major surgery and I am feeling guilty for not doing as much as I was previous. 

Do as much as your body allows but don’t feel like you have to push yourself to be ‘normal’ or like everyone else. Do what you can, not what you can’t. My other advice would be to try to distract yourself. This helps me when I am feeling down or overwhelmed. Sometimes a short walk, watching a movie or doing a craft helps just enough to where I stop feeling the negative feelings towards myself. 

We’re sick and sadly there isn’t much we can do about that, but we can TRY to change our reactions to it. Message me anytime, I’m here for you. 

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And one thing that everyone needs.

More like this @this-is-life-actually

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here is an idea: normalise the idea that adopting kids is a valid option even for parents who could conceive a child themselves, and not just an inferior backup option for parents who can’t

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LOOK

AT

ALL

THE

BLACK

WOMEN

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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“Boy, these conservatives are really something, aren’t they ? They’re all in favor of the unborn. They will do anything for the unborn. But once you’re born, you’re on your own. Pro-life conservatives are obsessed with the fetus from conception to nine months. After that, they don’t want to know about you. They don’t want to hear from you. No nothing. No neonatal care, no day care, no head start, no school lunch, no food stamps, no welfare, no nothing. If you’re preborn, you’re fine; if you’re preschool, you’re fucked.” .. (George Carlin)

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Consent is not transient. Consent to hugging is not consent to making out. Consent to making out is not consent to sex. Consent to sex is not consent to 9 months of pregnancy and childbirth.

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When all of my symptoms flare up at once

[Gif of a person crouching down to pet a bunch of baby goats. They manage to push her over onto her back and they climb all over her.]

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stop telling people to respect all opinions 

because guess what:

if your opinion dehumanizes people, if it’s sexist or racist or ableist or transphobic or homophobic, then it does not deserve respect and neither do you

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iconic

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Can you lick the science? An abbreviated list.

Genetics: Do not. Unless cheek swabs?

Chemistry: NO!!!!! DO NOT!!!!!!

Archaeology: Perhaps. But might be human bone.

Geology: Sometimes needed, sometimes dangerous 

Psychology: Best not.

Physics: ????????? How??????

Zoology: In zoology, science licks you. 

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To help kids learn how to read, all children’s TV shows should be captioned

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i forget words a lot but luckily people are used to it