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🌞 Commission info! 🌜

✌ Check this link for a doc with notes for commissioners!

Link to examples of commissions I've done in the sidebar or under tagged/commissions: x | x

💬 Contact me through DM or email: kreger.annie@mail.ru

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Owain for @captain-chapish ⛈️🩸⚔️

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I am finally moving! Trying to get out of my bad living situation has been a huge struggle for the past few years, and it's finally happening ;_; !

It's under very short notice (one week until my move-in date! scary!!!) so I'm cutting it extremely close financially. I set up a ko-fi goal to help me fund my moving costs and get settled in my new place. Anything at all would help me a ton. I've had to ask for help a lot lately, but the end of a lot of my struggling is in sight!

Thank you so much for looking!

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If you want to support Ukrainians, DO NOT donate to Red Cross. Can't speak about their work in other countries, but they're useless in Ukraine. The only trustworthy international organisation I can think of is World Central Kitchen.

Donate to World Central Kitchen

And it's even better to donate directly to Ukrainian organisations. Here are a few good legit places:

hospitallers.life - "Hospitallers", Ukrainian paramedics on the frontlines

savelife.in.ua - "Come Back Alive", assistance to the army

prytulafoundation.org - "Prytula Foundation", assistance to the army, humanitarian causes

starenki.com.ua - "Starenki", helping elderly people

everybodycan.com.ua - "Everybody Can", helping disabled children, elders and hospitals

uanimals.org - "UAnimals", saving animals

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Hello! My older sister is currently escaping a domestic violence situation. She has been financially abused and suddenly cut off from their joint finances by her ex, and received a ten-day eviction notice while in the process of financially recovering.

She is at risk of being homeless in winter with two children, and of uprooting her child with an intellectual disability from his support system.

I know this is a tough time for all and that I've asked for help frequently lately, but our family has exhausted our resources and we are unable to get the funds together to keep them housed.

Her most urgent goal is 1,500, to pay her rent and avoid immediate eviction, but the full goal would help her find a new place and fully remove herself from an unsafe environment.

Anything at all would help her and her children tremendously, and I can provide more receipts to verify the situation in private if necessary.

Spreading this would be a huge help. Thank you so much for reading.

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hi. i've been following you - i mean, more like following your art here and there - for some time, from time to time since 2018-ish, (and i'm off social media at times so when im back i usually go on a kind of a spree to find and follow my favourite artists, idk, just felt like i needed to explain this part). just wanted to tell you that recently (like, a few months ago) one of your drawings (don't want to specify) really inspired me to finish my paper for the uni. ik it may sound funny but... i had looked it up on your blog, and it helped me to kinda look at the topic of my research in a new way, haha. it really did. it was like i found a new ground to walk on and to investigate. idk, feel free to ignore, i just felt like letting you know. i really enjoy your art, it often makes me smile.

i have to admit this ask made me very curious to know which drawing you meant, but since you chose not to specify i won't pry. thank you very much for telling me about this, though. it's hard for me sometimes to believe that my art can have a deeper meaning to people, or to inspire them in any way, because i generally think that i don't really have anything interesting or especially touching to say. it's nice to be proven wrong every once in a while

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new art blog

the short version:

1. i made a new art blog: @cbge;

2. @ffc1cb will stay up as an archive.

the long version:

hi everyone. this announcement is somewhat late, since the blog in question has been up for a few months now, and i’ve already started posting art on it. the reason it took me so long to “reveal” it is because i’ve been trying to figure out whether a new blog is something i actually want, or if it's just me throwing darts at a board, trying to make myself feel better somehow.

i don’t know when precisely it all started, but ever since sometime last year i’ve been going through a hard time, both emotionally and creatively. i’m not sure whether being depressed is what made art harder, or art becoming harder is what made me depressed (a bit of both, i think), but lately, drawing has been a struggle. 

i’ve found myself having less and less energy for art, and this lack of energy resulted in poorer quality of drawings, which resulted in me feeling like i’m getting worse at it, despite my efforts. i knew i could make good art, art that i’m proud of - i’ve done so countless times before, - but somehow it felt like i just couldn’t anymore, like my hands forgot how to. nothing looked right. 

i’ve been trying to experiment. i’ve learned some new things, tried this and that - it was enlightening, to say the least, and even though i kind of liked how it looked, it made me feel a sense of displacement. i was at odds with myself, my art, and how i felt about it, when previously i was always in sync. i was making art, yes, and it looked nice, but it felt like it wasn’t mine.

i suppose part of it was also the growing lack of engagement, and i don’t mean likes and reblogs - i never particularly cared about those. they are all just numbers to me; dry and impersonal. what i’m talking about is actual, human interactions: personal thoughts in tags, asks, replies, etc. a conversation. 

i don’t mean to sound “old” or anything, but i remember when talking to artists online was more commonplace. my wife tells me it’s because the internet culture has changed over the years, that people have become more reclusive, less willing to be open with their thoughts, and she's probably right, but in my slump i find it hard to believe. somehow it feels like it’s my fault for being less “engaging”, for seeming unapproachable or perhaps intimidating. maybe it’s “just a skill issue”, maybe it’s because i have stopped churning out fanart for popular fandoms, maybe it’s because i refuse to torture myself emotionally by having an art account on twitter (i can’t fucking stand the place anymore; i still post nsfw art there, but only because it’s literally one of the only places on the internet that allows you to do so. i miss when you could post female presenting tits on tumblr).

i have always, ever since i started posting art on the internet back in 2012, done it for human connection. i wanted to talk to people, and have people talk to me. i wanted to inspire people with my art, and i wanted to bring them comfort. i wanted to elicit an emotional response, and have people tell me about it. it was one of the main reasons i drew in the first place; having lost that, i’ve been struggling to stay passionate about making art.

i miss being a small artist on the internet during the 2010s. i remember when i could make a post going, “hey everyone, how are you all doing today?” and it would not seem weird to people in the slightest. it is just me? does anyone else feel that way? am i too deep in my own head? the internet feels so unwelcoming nowadays, especially to artists. we are all just content machines; people scroll by our stuff, or maybe look at it for half a second and leave a like before scrolling away. i know it’s unfair to demand people’s attention, especially now when our lives are already so overwhelmed by everything - no one has the energy to pay closer attention; i myself am not immune to mindless scrolling. but it feels bad. i wish we were all sincere and enthusiastic again.

anyway (sorry for rambling. i hope i haven’t bored you to death), you might want to say, okay, but how is making a new art blog on a “dying” social platform going to help with any of that? the truth is, i don’t know. i just felt like i needed a change. 

i’ve been running this blog since 2016 (that’s almost 8 full years!). i feel incredibly attached to it, but at the same time, i feel it weighing me down. 

there are people who followed me years ago for one specific thing, still expecting me to post about said thing (i still find it mindboggling that some people follow artists for a specific fandom only, but that is a whole other matter for a whole other post that i will never write). a third, if not half, of my following are probably dead blogs. and with my current struggle with trying to regain the joy i once felt for making art, looking back at all the art i’ve done over the years makes me feel tired. i still love it all; it’s all very dear to me. i’m proud of it; looking at it makes me mourn my younger and more passionate self.

so i’ve decided to make a new blog, where i will let myself post whatever i want, in whatever stage of donness i feel like. maybe it will help me, somehow. maybe it won’t. but if you care about my art, if you want to keep following me on my artistic journey, i welcome you to join me there. similarly, feel free not to - no hard feelings.

thank you everyone for your support over the years; it matters a lot to me. i’m not planning to delete or private this blog; it will stay up, and i will still be reachable on here. i will still answer asks, if there will be any. i’m just not planning to post any art here anymore. this is it for my dear old friend ffc1cb.

i can be found in other places:

@cbge, as mentioned earlier,

@k0nstanta, an art blog dedicated solely to my and my wife's ocs,

@inquisimail, a dragon age ask blog that has become my dragon age sideblog in general,

and multiple other blogs, none of which are art related, but feel free to ask, if you’re curious.

thank you very much for reading all of this. i hope you have a wonderful day.

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Hate to ask but this post has some beautiful art that the link no longer works. Do you remember the name of the fic by any chance? "/post/184239300682/i-read-a-fic-recently-where-newt-is-a"

that fic unfortunately got deleted off ao3 a few years ago, but i think the name was "artemis" or something like that

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i recently started playing dragon age again and my phone notif of your recent art came up. its such a fun game still honestly and im glad to see someone else still thinking of it too

i wouldn't be able to stop thinking about it even if i tried because among other reasons i dm a dragon age ttrpg for my friends

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do u still use vk? the old link seems to not work anymore :(

i don't. i deleted my public two years ago

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2023 was a very tough art year for me. i hit a massive creative block and experimented a lot in hopes that art will become fun for me again; can't say i wholly succeeded but i'm going to keep trying because no matter how hard it gets i never want to abandon making art. here's to a hopefully easier 2024. happy new year everyone

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not many people know because i never posted it on tumblr but that one caramelldancen gif i made years ago also comes with a video version that i edited in response to someone on twitter saying that daniil looks like he's being forced to dance at gun point

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i keep forgetting about this, but a couple years ago i was feeling very nostalgic about those old deviantart collab memes, so i made one myself. i posted it on twitter before, but since i deleted that account, the original tweet was lost. reposting it here now in case someone wants to do it :)

full uncropped size

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it's really tragic that one of them is british

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happy midori thursday

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Poke poke,, TRICK OR TREAT!!!

happy late halloween :)

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Ох, круто, вы разговариваете по-русски?

Странный вопрос ХР

В любом случае, я нашёл ваши старые рисунки Соника и Шэдоу, они такие забавненькие😄 Я из фандома Соника, и ваш стиль рисовки просто офигенный! И мини-комиксы, которые вы рисовали такие прелестные :)

не то чтобы я особо это скрываю, но люди почему то всегда удивляются...

я очень рад, что вам нравятся мои картинки. счастливого хэллоуина ^_^