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no one and i mean NO ONE is allowed to tell me that i don’t want to shift enough or that i need to put in more effort. bitch the fact i’ve been trying for so long IS the effort. the fact i haven’t given up yet IS the effort.

one second i’m lacking because i want it and the other i need to want it more. ijbol which one is it?

i’m so sick and tired of the narrative that you have to want something on a specific level to be able to succeed, because no one outside of myself knows what i want and what i prefer when it comes to effort. like don’t piss me off because i’m definitely not in the mood for this bullshit again. 😴😴😴

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remember that you’re not supposed to know how to shift, you’re just supposed to feel good doing it. it’s not your job to worry about the how or when so when you start getting in that “i don’t even know how to shift anymore” mindset, look at it as a blessing in disguise.

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MCU DR INTRO

Divider by @strangergraphics

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This is exactly why I disagree with those posts that are like “if I ever disappear from this app just know I finally permashifted” because no you probably would stay here posting about how you “haven’t shifted yet”

But that’s so cool!! Some people who you see on here may have permashifted and we just don’t know about it! Idk that’s kinda motivating to me bc more people on here have probably shifted than we know about

guys... i don't know if i understand the whole thing now because i have ADHD or whatever, but i saw a while ago (brazilian shiftok) that a girl shifted, and was in the DR for a long time, but a trusted person asked her (in her CR) if she had shifted, and she said no (still conscious in the DR, at the same time). In other words, we are all conscious there, we just don't know it. like, yeah, you shifted, you're "there," you just don't see it yet? 😭 YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?? PLS after i realized this, everything is flowing very well, and i wanted to share (don't think I'm stupid, i beg you, i just,,,,,,,,,

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I was having a hard time deciding whether I should try to shift to my fame dr or my greys dr tonight but then I had a genius plan

I’ll shift to greys first, see if I develop feelings for Vic like I think I will, and then if we fall in love I can introduce her to shifting and make my fame dr a group dr with her bc she loves musical theater so she’d probably have so much fun hehe

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I almost shifted last night!! I think I reached the void state maybe? So basically, I did a quick tarot reading to see what advice my guides/higher self had for me with this shifting attempt, and they said that I needed to not rely on structure or pay attention to what I’d done before/what I thought would work and instead just trust my intuition and go with that. They also said not to focus on reaching the “end point” and instead just let shifting be a journey. I’ve heard that before but something about it clicked in me this time and even though I still wanted to be in my dr, I knew that shifting really was a journey that wouldn’t end even when I reached my dr for the first time, and I felt less pressure to have this attempt be the one that “worked”.

During the evening before I laid down, I followed the advice from a manifestor I saw on tiktok that talked about teaching your brain that you get what you want by verbalizing what it is you want for trivial things and then making it happen, which again is something I’d heard before on tumblr and tiktok but it just clicked this time with her phrasing. So like I wanted some chips even though it was a little late so I had some, and I wanted to use my essential oil diffuser so I did, etc.

I also sat and asked myself questions about my journey and let my instant/gut reaction thoughts give me my answers. I realized I am still scared of shifting, but then I talked through it and decided that it wasn’t going to stop me because I know I’m safe and fear doesn’t hold that much power over me.

It’s a bit harder for me to remember exactly what I did and what happened because my memories are always a little hazy when I get in that half-asleep state or I’m not fully grounded, and I reached that point pretty fast because of how tired I was. But this is what I do remember; I laid down on my back, which is what I normally do when attempting to shift, and used that manifestation advice in deciding what to do.

I wanted to relax my body bit by bit so I did, and my mind quickly started to do the weird wandering that it does when I’m starting to fall asleep, where it jumps between random things that don’t all make sense. Then I thought to myself “I want to detach from this reality” and so.. I did. Suddenly the darkness in front of my eyes was darker than it had been before and there was like a small light in the distance. I felt this sort of pressure on me, not painful, and started to get scared knowing that I was detaching and could shift. So I reminded myself that fear couldn’t stop me and that I wanted this, and, again very suddenly, the fear was just gone. I was calm. I was also a bit surprised because that had never happened before.

Once I reached this weird calmness, I also couldn’t hear anything anymore and looking back on it I couldn’t feel my body anymore. In the moment, it was less that I knew I couldn’t feel it and more that I just forgot I was “supposed” to feel it. Unfortunately, this didn’t last very long and my senses came back to me in my cr. I wish I had looked at a clock so I knew how long all of this took, but it all felt like it couldn’t have been more than a couple of minutes.

Once I was mostly grounded in my cr again there was this weird energy left over in my arms and legs that was really strong and I had the uncontrollable urge to shake it out, which made it go away. Idk what that was exactly but it’s never happened before. I think if I try again I could get further this time and maybe reach my dr :)

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I have some pretty frantic asks in my inbox currently about revision. I hear how important this is to you, and I can feel the urgency in your questions.

But I want to gently offer you this: if you're focused on whether the past is physically deleted, you're already missing what revision is really about.

Revision is not about forcing the 3D world to erase history. It's about choosing to no longer carry the emotional weight and identity that came from it. Your nervous system doesn't know the difference between a memory and imagination, it responds to what you feed it now. When you revise the past internally, you're shifting the meaning and energy of what that experience did to you. You're releasing the version of you who was shaped by pain or limitation and choosing to stand in the version who is free.

That shift changes your inner state, and your inner state changes everything.

If you're still waiting for physical proof that the past is "deleted," you're still letting the 3D world have more power than your consciousness. The 3D is just the mirror. If you're always checking the mirror, you won't notice the real shift happening in you.

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[Possible cw for anxiety and overthinking]

So…I’m an aspiring shifter. However, there’s one thing I’m worried about; I want to believe that there are infinite realities, but that would imply that there would be realities where someone I deeply care about in my CR experiences immense suffering. Just thinking about it troubles me. Is there a possible way to cope with this feeling? (It’s okay if you don’t feel like answering/genuine)

That’s a really interesting question that not a lot of people talk about. I’ve definitely had thoughts like that before and to be completely honest the way I deal with it is mostly to say there’s really nothing I can do about it because I do believe in the infinite multiverse, but what I CAN do is make sure every reality I’m aware of (whether that be here or in a DR I go to) I do everything I can to comfort and help the people I love if they go through hard times and be with them in the moments of joy too, so I can carry those with me

It’s not a great comfort, I wish I could say something better, but if you believe in the infinite multiverse then there would be universes where the people you love suffer, since it is infinite and covers all possibilities

I will say if that bothers you enough that you don’t want to believe in the multiverse, you could try approaching shifting from another angle/theory. I’m not super familiar with the consciousness theory but I’m pretty sure it doesn’t rely on the infinite multiverse being real (someone correct me if I’m wrong and I’ll edit this)

So, maybe try looking into that? Then maybe you can get into shifting with less of a sense of anxiety and dread. I know this wasn’t much but I hope it helps a little bit ❤️

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you know what’s so fucking crazy?

i’m gonna be able to hold his hand.

like actually hold it.

i’m gonna be able to run my fingers through his hair.

hug him.

feel his shoulders.

feel the heat radiating off his body.

hug him tight. like cheek to cheek tight.

smell him.

yo. i’m gonna be able to feel him.

people are like “i’m gonna be able to do that soon”

and i’m sitting here like —

wait. i really am.

that’s just fucking crazy.

i’m gonna be able to do that.

i can do that.

i can do that.

i can do that.

that’s crazy.

i’m gonna be able to look into his little eyes.

and he can look into mine.

i can talk to him.

i could sit near him.

so close our feet accidentally touch

but neither of us move away

because we like the contact

but we’re too shy to say anything

so we just let it happen. silently.

i can make him blush.

i can make him smile.

i can see him get nervous and look away.

and it’ll be because of me.

i can do that.

i will do that.

i’m doing that.

bro.

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Dividers by @strangergraphics-archive

Predictions for my Grey’s Anatomy/Station 19 DR

Since I don’t really write detailed scripts, I thought it would be fun to come up with some things I think might happen/be true in my dr! You’re welcome to copy the idea, I’d love to see your predictions :)

✧ Lexie and I will have matching necklaces

✧ People will assume I have a crush on Alex before they find out I’m a lesbian (I just think he’s funny and a good guy, but I’m pretty sure people will read my interactions as flirtatious)

✧ I won’t participate in the rogue intern surgery and will probably warn Cristina (my resident) about it, probably making the other interns hate me for a while

✧ It might also cause a divide between Lexie and I, maybe being the reason she moves out and moves in with George like she does in the show (she lives with me and my sister right now)

✧ I’ll catch feelings for Vic very quickly, and Andy and Michael (Travis’s husband) will be the first ones to figure it out

✧ I’ll become known for asking a lot of questions, which makes some people think I’m not very smart

✧ Derek will appreciate the questions I ask and think it makes me a better student

✧ I’ll be the intern chosen for the first day surgery (the one that’s basically a set-up where you’re designed to fail) (I did script that if this does somehow happen, I don’t fail and actually do very well)

✧ Izzie and I won’t get along

✧ (on a maybe related note) Callie and I will get along

✧ Mark will be one of the people who is very supportive and accepting of my gender identity, maybe going so far as to purposefully use masc terms (because most people default to feminine terms) and correct people when they talk about me

None of these things are scripted, just things that I used my intuition and knowledge of myself/the people in my dr to come up with!

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i’m sorry but why are people using chatgpt to give them memories from their dr?? i understand wanting to connect to your dr but ai is not the way

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everyone talks about pining for their dr s/o, but no one talks about pining for their dr friend group, so

DR friend group ideas:

group baking at someone's house

going to the mall

skipping school together

sneaking out to the aesthetic woods near the neighborhood and finding an old abandoned house behind a bunch of plants and turning it into a secret hideout

all wearing cool/cute outfits to school together you could never wear in your cr and no one can tease you over it cause all your friends got your back if they try anything

going to an abandoned park/playground at night together

sleepovers!!!!

going to pride parades together

going to some trashy fast food restaurant at the middle of the night as a group

those fun places you see on tiktok and want to go to but can't in your cr

being a team in a contest

getting revenge on anyone who messes with one of your friends, together

going to the movie theater

amusement parks

those places with obstacle courses and trampolines and those foam block pits

playing pranks on annoying teachers/classmates

having inside jokes

group cosplays

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I just saw a clip of my dr loved ones in a dangerous, life threatening situation that I haven’t watched for a very long time, since before I actually decided to shift to this dr, and I actually had to scroll away because I felt nauseous and like my heart was aching in my chest with this sense of desperation and fear

I’m taking this as a good thing because clearly I’m connected to that reality and these are real people to me who I care about deeply, but also I am probably not going to be able to rewatch the media they’re in anymore because my god that was terrible

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something today that reaffirmed my belief that shifting is real :)

i was babysitting the sweetest little girl and her brother earlier today and the girl and I were talking about dreams and such. She's five, by the way. We're chatting and she suddenly tells me "I don't actually sleep much at night because I spend the night fighting in battles". I laughed and said "oh like in your imagination?" (stupid of me to assume that but whatever) and she replied very firmly, "no, no". So I ask her again, if maybe she meant she has dreams about fighting in battles, and she says "no, not dreaming, It's real". She was so sure about her answer. So I ask her, what is it that you fight? She started telling me about these insect-shaped monsters, showed me the size of them and described how she fought them in the streets at night. Then when she finally wins the battle, she can actually sleep. Her brother came into conversation so we stopped talking about it but multiple children I've babysat or talked to always tell me about these sort of stories. They always make it very clear that it's not a dream, that it's different.I feel like children, who barely have any limiting beliefs, can very easily slip out of reality as they wish. english is not my first language so maybe I didn't explain it really well but ugh the synchronicities are crazy

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Did I gain or lose aura points when I asked the universe to send me an edit of my s/o on tiktok as a sign that I’m connected to my dr and almost immediately after saw an edit of her… and her canon fiancé 💀

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I may need to get over this stupid anxiety I have about scripting romance/an s/o because I just came up with an absolutely brilliant idea for how I could meet/fall in love with the person I think I might like in my DR that would just be so sweet and it would create a potential for a parallel moment and now I’m really excited so maybe I should just script it??

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✶ local girl shifts realities, finds god in a small town & lavender linen spray (storytime)

GUYS. GUYS. GUYS. I SHIFTED. I SHIFTED I SHIFTED I SHIFTED I SHIFTED I SHIFTEDDDDDDDD. i haven't had a successful shifting attempt in almost 2 years. TWO YEARS. i was starting to think it wasn't going to happen again??

i woke up in a bed that wasn't mine but also was. u know the type. perfectly rumpled, cloud-level soft, the kind of bed that has seen gentle mornings and lavender linen spray. sunlight pouring in through my window like god personally decided i deserved a cinematic morning. like okay??!!?? i stared at the ceiling like some idiot. and just. laid there. not thinking. not blinking. just existing. like some tragic victorian window except instead of mourning my dead husband i'm mourning clarity. or a single functional brain cell. for a second i thought i had died. it was too peaceful. too quiet. just birds and the soft sound of the curtain moving slightly in the breeze ❪ it also smelled like pines and clean laundry??? ❫

ANYWAY. i got out of bed like some dainty renaissance wife. the floors were wood, warm, and sort of creaky. i explored my very own apartment. because yes i have one. my very own. no parents. no siblings. just me. my kitchen had a espresso machine and a bowl of white peaches on the counter. there were books stacked on the windowsill, a vase with oriental lilies on the table, and a mug that looked like i had already made tea and forgotten about it.

it's above a bookstore. A BOOKSTORE!!!!! the kind with a crooked wooden sign out front and a little bell that jingles when the door opens. shelves that go all the way up to the ceiling. books in piles on the floor like no one had the heart to organize them. i went down just to look and somehow ended up talking to the shop owner about poetry for like. 40 minutes. i think i love her.

i made my way to the university i'm attending once the summer break is over. the campus is stupidly gorgeous. ivy on the walls, girls reading poetry under the trees, some guy with headphones on sketching something on a notepad under a gazebo. the buildings smelled like rain and old books and just the right amount of despair.

i didn't do much on the first day, i think i was just overwhelmed. i mostly just wandering around town with my hands shaking and my brain was switching between being too loud and too quiet.

and yes. i woke up in my cr and i think something inside of me has died. back where everything is too light and too bright and smells like bad decisions and capitalism. how do you return to normalcy after shifting? how do you go to your 8am classes and pretend nothing happened?