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So...I can’t bring myself to completely get away from Jae. I love this character too much, but I need to completely start over with her. This blog is turning into an archive of sorts I guess? Basically, I’m about to log out of it, and that’s gonna be it. She’s gonna get remade, I’m gonna start over with her, and absolutely hope for a much better journey than I’ve had. 

Literally, I’m going to remake her and she’s going to be completely new in a sense and that’s gonna be that.

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Helsinki in the late 19th century – Amazing and rare photos of everyday life in the capital of Finland in the 1890s

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I just don’t know what the fuck to do with Jae.

I love her. I absolutely adore playing with her, but like...She’s a magnet for bad luck so it’s like I don’t even know why I should try?

This is literally the third blog I’ve done for her. I know, it sounds like SHE is the problem, but I will swear up and down that isn’t the case. She’s been a magnet for toxic people and people who leave. Which, I don’t blame the people who leave because everyone has their reasons which are valid. It’s very much valid why you leave.

I just really want to continue with Jae, but I don’t know if it’s worth it honestly. 

I’m also drunk and getting this out, but just bear with me if you’re reading this. Also, fucking hell thank you for reading this. I guess I want feedback? But I’m not expecting any also. Like...Jae just truly has been a fucked up muse for me, but she’s truly dear to me. Like...Absolutely, insanely dear to me. 

I just don’t know what to do. I really am stuck on what to do with her anymore.

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i want to kill you

are you flirting with me

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I need a new tattoo, an orgasm, and a good nights sleep.

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Finland made it~

Now let’s see where we land in the grand finale...

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If for some reason, Finland doesn’t make it out of the semi final, I’m fairly convinced the world is just on the brink of being over and I’ll need to live it up.

Either way, I have a healthy supply of alcohol on the ready.

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happy eurovision week

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@zerfallen​ In other words, how we usually think.

“Schnapsidee” is the German word for a ridiculous idea that only sounds good when you’re drunk. 

(Source, Source 2, Source 3)

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“I have learned that when sadness comes to visit me, all I can do is say “I see you.” I spend some time with it, get up, and say goodbye. I don’t push it away. I own it. And because I own it, I let it go.”

— Carolina Zacaria

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If you really want to know someone & not just verify a version of them, created in your mind, don't tell yourself that they are this or that. Experience them without expectation. That's how you get to know someone at the core. You will be surprised even after many years of knowing someone how different they are than you perceived through limited expectation-label-judgement-box. People are not what you think they are. You see this especially in the phenomenon of not knowing someone & judging them based on what you might know of people & then getting to know them. People are limitless universes!! We don't fit into boxes.

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you scare me (compliment)

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abandonment issues? fuck yeah i’m abandoning these issues. bye

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