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You can only find true freedom, true love, true motivation, true dedication through limitations. Limits are the key to freedom, only through being chained to something can you find the infinite within what you have bound 2. If you don’t define the boundaries in your life and waif through the infinite possibilities, you will only ever touch the surface of any path. This superficial life is not freedom. while the infinite is in front of you I’ll grant you that. You can see the horizon, but you only claim to know the universe that you claim to be awake to. To be clear, wander and saunter are critically different. Pick a direction and go , however slow. Take it to the infinite for as long as you can. Find the meaning of “and beyond” , make your dent in the outer bounds of discovery whether its loving someone or doing something, perceive with care and practice to understand. Find the beauty in your path for in the infinite this path is only yours.

jobu tupaki is such an effective way of depicting that specific depression of being in your 20s and knowing you can do anything but also knowing that knowing that means any decision you make cuts you off from an infinite number of possible realities… like every step forward also feels like a step in the wrong direction because it technically is when you’re juggling every potential consequence at once and it narrows your life down to just a matter of surviving and trying to focus on the few things that don’t make you feel like a failure and you start to see the loss of will to really live as the inevitable result to your own unstoppable loss of potential. and of course being a gay child of immigrants makes it even easier for joy to feel like there’s no future she can pursue where everything turns out okay enough to have made the effort worth it. and then contrasting that with evelyn’s reality that she is the version of herself where every decision has been the wrong one that has led her away from doing anything remarkable with her life but it’s still a life where trying is worth something, as long as she can still find people to love and things to fight for… yeah

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Rothko + me

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People don’t want esoteric bullshit they want a conversation

Well then explain playboicarti

Look at you wanting more

Too much

Never enough

Leave something for someone else

Why the excess

How much is enough

How is enough not enough

How is more not too much

More is cancer

LESS EXCESS

MORE DOUBT

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Heavens to purgatory

Searching for a soul that’s worthy

Riding in on a beam of light listen child No time to worry

Caught up in the after life

Missing all the little joys

Tryna make a little noise

Silent and poised

were all holograms in the eternal void

Before God there was nothing

Sudden whisper from my inner voice

before nothing there was nothing

Either take a leap or make no choice

We all rejoice We all sin

We all live like well live again

Or play pretend like our pens speak hymns like Newton’s math doesn’t match and quantum’s approximations are explained with a cat

in another year there will be new rules

In another ten we all old tools

In another hundred we old news

Grumble grumble play the fool

It’s inevitable but we stil got to choose

Only I break the rules

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Aldos Huxley is mind blind

Symbols can never be the things they Stand for

The real is untouchable

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You are the star of my perception

You are the star of my memories

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Kanye Need to forget Drake - he could never make a Jesus walks can’t tell me nothing power - he’s made a lot of devil in the red dress and real Friends to be fair - imagine drake trying to do a yeezus or Wolves or ultralightbeam tho - there’s paint by numbers for bitches, bros, and machiavelli and then there’s truth and vulnerability and artistry

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Im a lamb

not here to kill

Not here to take

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The Carmagnole (Dance Around the Guillotine), 1901, Käthe Kollwitz

https://www.wikiart.org/en/kathe-kollwitz/not_detected_235968

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i just want the aliens to pick me

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From Here - Sweetboy Kewpie

washed up burnt out fading slowly no room for doubt where do we go from here where do we go when we finally get there where do we go where do we go where do we go from here where do we go when we finally get there catch me slipping wishing for better days aint been high in months still stuck in a haze where do we go where do we go from here where do we go where do we go when we finally get there finally get there keep on running into newer worlds where do we go from here we cant escape we cant escape cant shake this feeling wonder why wonder how time is now hold on to something hold on to someone where do we go from here where do we go when they finally get here i dont know i guess ill stay here i guess ill stay here til my mind feels clear

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Yawn

Why am I so boring

Why am I so bored

Is it me or are we all boring as fuck

I can do advanced mathematical analysis - bored

Make a cool melody - bored

If only I could draw maybe then I would still be bored

Maybe if I had more friends we could be bored together

What if I jumped out the window now that’s even more boring

What excites you, bores me

Finally a moment where I didn’t feel bored

Pompous condescension is the key

How boring to be pretentious

How boring to not see the Essence of the other

You want a medal for being human you boring human being

What a boring essence but in fairness my essence is even more boring

I’d like to surprise myself one day I hope the feeling last but not so long it becomes boring

Cursed to just a taste how boring

I’m bored by the ephemeral

A moment or a taste is better than nothing but it’s worse than something

Too much of a good thing is an actual valid phrase - fuck that can you get any more boring - overdose that’s actually more boring - no self control what a yawn

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Bro 1 - I’m going to compliment you on this thing you do but would normally insult others when they do it.

Wife 2 - what?

Bro 1 - calling my brother your boyfriend still, you’ve been married 12 years, but you still call each other nombres de novios, I guess it’s because you’ve been together since high school that it feels romantic or nostalgic, when other people do it, it feels forced or fake or campy in the worst way, like if I did that with my wife it would be so awkward and it would feel like we are too old to be saying boyfriend and girlfriend, when you do it its endearing

Wife 2 - - you’re a pretentious prick you know that?

Bro 1 - what?

Wife 2 -  why do you have to start everything with this defensive pre-take, so I don’t think you’re up to some maniacal side scheme when you talk to me...your dad does the same thing

Bro 1 - that makes sense then doesn’t it?

Wife 2 -  give me the agency to take the message as is without all your political spin beforehand okay, I can decide to trust your sincerity or not, okay, like you said 12 years and I’ve known you just as long, who started this preemptive strike move, who started this annoying trait in your clan I be-

Bro 1 - or maybe it’s a mitochondrial Eve thing

Wife 2 - - I’m going with Adam but with your mom you’d never know...

Bro 2 -- have yall seen the kids? what are yall doing?

Bro 1 - I was just telling your wife how much I admire your relationship, its someth-

Bro 2 --ya ya we're one happy family

Wife 2 - - why do you have to be like that you know you love me ´´she makes a kissy face at her husband``

Bro 2 -- ya of course I do, anyways have you seen the kids...we were playing hide and seek but I think they outsmarted me and left me high and dry

Wife 2 - - sounds about right, they have pulled the same trick on me a couple times lately, when I found them they were playing some imaginary game where they could all be whatever character they wanted, the trick made sense to me...they just wanted to be free for a moment, I get that

Bro 2 -- I get that too but for now we got three kids on the loose cause they wanted to be free and who knows where their little imaginations took them

Bro 1 - I’ll help you find them

Wife 2 - - I’ll bet they are okay and just about now have established the rules of their hide n seek oasis, leave them alone till they come for us

Bro 2 -- we will keep up the theme of hide n seek, they won’t know we found them, like when they were toddlers, remember?

Wife 2 - - whatever you say

Bro 1 - well let’s just go find them to not find them okay

Bro 2 -- so, what were you talking about the first Adam or what?

Wife 2 - - look at you always listening in

Bro 2 -- it’s not listening in if you were just trying to be a good father, I was gonna not find them before you mentioned it, but I wasn’t going to make a big deal about it

Wife 2 - - we’ve heard this before, you are first. and you are the best father, we know

Bro 2 -- I don’t even want to know our first Adam if it’s what connects me to your family

Bro 1 - what do you mean?

Wife 2 - - don’t encourage him

Bro 2 -- her family’s all degenerates, whoever connects me to her family can be nothing less than a miscreant of the highest order

Wife 2 - - well who knows how far back you had to go to connect us but one day you’ll be the first Adam for someone having this same fucked up conversation and you’ll be the degenerate connecting someone to my family line

Bro 1 - I don’t think that’s how the Adam and Eve thing works

Bro 2 -- tell her bro

Wife 2 - - here we go I know yall are going to gang up on me like always, you can never talk to two brothers, you know we were having a nice conversation before this pea brain arrived

Bro 1 - ya sorry about that but this is why I have to do the preemptive strike, I didn’t say you were wrong on the Adam and Eve thing because we are brothers, it was just because you were wrong about the Adam and Eve thing, when it comes to divorce I’m ride or die, until then I’m switching sides like some shit hamburgers, just one flip, okay guys, one flip!

Bro 2 -- do you realize no one can take you seriously when you get mad about the points you are trying to make

Bro 1 - Exactly. there’s no teams out here, and I stand by my passion for proper burger cooking procedure

Wife 2 - - so, father of the year went and found the kids huh

Bro 2 -- no teams remember, I’m going to let them come to us

Wife 2 - - I’m not going to make a big deal of this moment, so it happens again

Bro 2 -- well you’ve gloated a bit much and I’ll be sure it doesn’t

Bro 1 - Now that I think about it even though you were wrong about the Adam and Eve thing in one way like, wouldn’t your family be connected to you as the first eve and my bro would connect our family as the first Adam to connect whatever future person was talking about this? so the degenerate still would be you and not my bro, got to defend the bros, there are teams never forget that

Wife 2 - - you a real bitch you know that

Bro 1 - ya a pretty one though, but you were right though like one day we could all be the first Adams and Eves depending on how humans evolve, maybe you’ll both be a side branch because you don’t have the most advance genome like I do or maybe your daughter won’t have babies and my daughter going to have so many...just for the sake of being that mitochondrial Eve

Bro 2 -- still sounds kind of weird to be talking about this but our daughter can do whatever she wants

Bro 1 - come on she’s not here you can say what you really think

Wife 2 - - I will fight you if you try to talk shit about my daughters - you still don’t even have kids so shut up about all this

Wife 1 - have yall seen the kids?

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Wife 2 - - they went with your parents for ice cream and to run around some park or something

Bro 1 - what?? this whole time we are worried about finding the kids and you know they aren’t even here

Wife 2 - - were you really that worried you haven’t even left this room

Bro 2 -- I wish I was surprised

Wife 2 - - me too

Wife 1 - what are yall talking about?

Wife 2 - - see not eavesdropping

Bro 2 -- ok ok

Bro 1 - we are talking about how as humans grow and evolve the most common ancestor can change over time, if their lineage, male or female are not fulfilled

Wife 1 - so, it’s not all our ancestor’s faults?

Bro 1 - exactly at some point the chain breaks and a new order becomes the way forward there’s no telling why that happens but why can’t it be us

Wife 1 -  I think it is you honey

Bro 1 - , I think it’s you

Bro 2 -- okay enough of that so we know the kids are okay and we know our lives our up to us and evolutionary biology might explain past actions, but they don’t excuse current behaviors, like lying to your husband

Wife 1 - so, what explains why my husband is going to break the chains and become a new Adam

Bro 2 -- well between the two of us I’m definitely more likely to become the new Adam and that’s because he’s a fatalist and I take the bull down bare handed and cup the balls

Wife 1 -  wouldn’t a fatalist be just as likely to be the new Adam as a ball grabber? And my husband could grab the bulls balls if he wanted too…

Bro 1 - thanks runt

Bro 2 -- fatalism does not allow for greatness like someone who understands we only have today, but we can still invest in tomorrow with our actions now, we have children to show them a better world, we hop-

Bro 1 - anyways fatalism isn’t even what I or we believe so who cares about your PMA mindset

Wife 1 - yes that’s not what I would say I believe in but I still think fatalism doesn’t limit greatness from its ideology, any ideology is an excuse to do as you please through an aesthetic lens that pleases you, any fatalist would accept the life that comes to them, whether that’s a revolutionary, a chef, a thief, or a beggar, fatalism allows the gamer to choose their player like any ideology

Bro 2 -- but it doesn’t encourage you to change your circumstances for the better, it doesn’t encourage for societal improvement

Wife 1 -  it encourages you to accept life as you take it...so if you are a butcher and the thieves gun jams you shouldn’t give him a chop as a fatalist? you should just accept life as it is and let him fix the jam repoint the gun and rob and kill you? no the fatalist would do what they could with the opportunity like anyone else

Bro 2 -- well what does it matter it’s not what you believe...so what do you believe, and you too for that matter?

Wife 1 -  I believe ideology is divine and mortal, an excuse to feel anguish and joy, absurd but maybe necessary in some abstract way for framing

Bro 1 - ideology for me is a distraction from living, ideology is just another word for worrying, fall way from your religious pedantry, rituals are as sinful as gluttony, come into the light free from literal frames and find the abstract frame floating in the abyss guiding your you, there’s nothing to hold onto there so breathe in then hold then out and move on to the material world around you

Bro 2 -- I like what she said better

Wife 2 - - why do you guys even like to think about this stuff

Wife 1 -  you basically are saying what we are saying but way cooler

Bro 2 -- don’t encourage her