fmdjinri

[fmdjinri]

joohwanfmd​:

location: hwandy’s apartment with: open

joohwan is having a bad day.

that’s neither surprising nor is it a novelty. hwan has those often, or at the very least several bad moments through the days – as most people are prone to, really. he crashes harder than most people, though, as it’s just part of being someone living with a level of addiction that’s only been treated for a short time. some days, joohwan can’t be left alone to his thoughts for too long, lest they carry him to the dangerous corners of his mind. he’s never at risk of doing something too harsh, but several times he had considered buying alcohol and indulging in it, trusting himself to stop even if he’s been sober for almost a year.

it’s one of the very few days he’s getting off for some months, what with the tour. he should be happy to be home but without andy around it doesn’t quite feel like home. the animals are a great company but they serve as limited distraction and nothing he attempts to engage with is capturing his attention for too long. so hwan had asked the person to come over. he’s just looking for a distraction – any type of it – to the point where he’s eager to open the door when the doorbell rings. “hi,” he greets them neutral faced. “thanks for coming.”

“hey,” she greeted back, a soft smile on her face as she gave him a slight nod. she stepped over the threshold and into the apartment he shared with his boyfriend. “it’s no problem at all, hwan. i had a day off so it wasn’t like you were interrupting me in the middle of anything.” promotions for her latest single had just started and they had been going well, with that day being one of her first free days in a while. however she was more than happy to use it helping joohwan get out of his little rut. “i brought food, so i hope you’re hungry,” she announced, bending at the knee to undo her shoes and take them off, placing them neatly along the wall. 

after shrugging out of her jacket and hanging it up, she made a beeline towards the kitchen, placing the bags of food atop the counter. “i’ve got some bibimbap.” probably one of her favorites, so of course she had to grab a serving or two. “some tteokbokki, some chicken and soju.” she named each item of food as she took them out of the bag. “oh! and for dessert, i picked up some hotteok.”

[fmdjinri]

hey y’all! it’s kim again, ting’s mun. i decided to give having a second muse another go, so i’m here to introduce jinri to you all. sorry this intro is late, i got a little busy the past few days but !! i’m here and ready to write with you all. if you’re interested in plotting, just like this post or hit me up on dis/cor/d at chungha's foot stool#9502

jinri was born into a family full of men. three older brothers and a younger brother. her mother passed away after the birth of her younger brother and the five children were raised by a single father. her father was very traditional and firm. not strict, but definitely gave them tough love. he had no idea how to raise a daughter though, and oftentimes just treated her like one of the guys. 

she spent the majority of her childhood trying to make her father proud and be who he wanted her to be. she studied hard in school, she took care of him, her brothers and their home. 

she was eleven years old when she met her first close friend, a girl that she immediately clicked with. they quickly became two peas in a pod, with one following the other wherever she went. that was how jinri got into dancing; her best friend wanted to take dancing classes and jinri agreed to take them with her. 

the two of them took to dancing like a fish to water. a few years later, they felt confident enough in their abilities to audition for gold star in in 2009. things were good in the beginning until jinri started to progress more than her best friend. then jealousy got involved and their friendship soured. not too long after that, they pretty much became enemies, always trying to outdo the other. 

when the lineup for fuse was being put together, jinri thought she would have been a shoe-in for the group, but life smack cammed her. her father fell severely ill and she had to take a break from training in order to help take care of him and her brothers. now while she doesn’t hate her father, because it wasn’t like he could stop himself from getting sick, she does hold some bitterness/resentment towards him for basically turning her into a mother. 

she returned to gold star once her father recovered. that same year in 2016, videos of her dancing had been leaked and went viral, giving her a little dash of attention. that, of course, pissed her former best friend off, and she began doing whatever she could to sabotage jinri. unfortunately for her, her hard work backfired and gold star ended up kicking her from the company. 

2017 marked the debut of femme fatale and jinri’s name was not on the lineup. it also marked the eighth year of jinri’s time as a trainee - a few years too long if you asked her. she was long past being weary or upset about not being able to debut, she was just straight up pissed off at that point. 

when her contract with gold star expired, she turned down their offer to resign because bc entertainment gave her an offer that had a guaranteed debut date in place. so she of course went with them. she trained with them for a year before she debuted. her debut was a little rushed, and she knew it was because of the scandal with goeun, but she doesn’t really care why her debut was rushed, she was just glad to finally be able to debut. 

after being screwed over by gold star for several years by being locked away in their trainee basement, jinri decided that she wanted to be more hands on and interactive with her career. she’s always trying to get involved in the creative process of her music and videos, and always trying to pitch concept ideas to the company. each and every time, her suggestions of condescendingly brushed to the side. they’ve quite literally told her to her face that all she has to worry about is looking pretty and dancing well. 

ever since then it’s become a constant battle between jinri and bc for her to have some creative control over her work. with her success as a soloist growing more and more prominent, she hopes that will be enough incentive for bc to start loosening their leash on her a bit, but they haven’t seemed to budge on that quite yet.

her relationship with the public is still in the beginning stages where it’s quite shallow, but there’s room to deepen. bc has her image set as the pretty girl whose life revolves around dancing and performing, and while it does in a big sense, they’re forcing her to suppress other facets of herself. they don’t acknowledge the fact that she graduated top of her class, or that she’s taking online classes, or that she has other skills and hobbies. 

they tell her it’s because they don’t want her to say anything that might be off putting to the public, which she mentally translates as them wanting her to play the pretty, attainable but unattainable girl that’s not too bright. as much as she tries to fight against bc and what they want her to be, it’s hard when they have so much control over her career. if she doesn’t keep them happy, they’ll lock her away in the basement until her contract is over. she already spent nine years in gold star’s basement, she doesn’t want to go to bc’s after she’s just getting started. which is why she goes along with it, much like her younger years, being someone that everyone else around her wants her to be. 

[fmdjinri]

Angel ❣️