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Who's not okay?

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Something I really love about the ABD (after bobbys death) era of the 911 fandom is how fic authors always tag that Bobbys alive in their fic, no matter how irrelevent he is to the fic. Like yeah this story IS about Buck and Eddie hitting it raw on the kitchen counter but dont worry ✋️ Bobby is somewhere in the backround making lasagna. Trust 🤞

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Every day, you heal a little bit more. Then one morning, you wake up and losing her isn't the first thing you think about.

BOBBY NASH and EDDIE DIAZ for @wernerherzogs

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then you said yes to a dinner invitation, and I started to live again.

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One day, a couple months after Bobby dies, Buck gets a notification in his phone that Bruce Springsteen is touring again and there’s going to be a date in LA.

And he’s torn, because, on one hand, the idea going to a Springsteen concert without Bobby brings up this fresh, awful kind of grief, and why did he forget to unsubscribe from that mailing list anyways, and it’s just another reminder of Bobby is dead, and things will never be the same.

And on the other hand, the thought of not going feels awful in a different kind of way, because he knows that Bobby would have loved to go to this, and he would have wanted Buck to go, and, who knows, maybe Bruce Springsteen will decide that he’s officially done touring for real this time, and Buck will have missed out on his last chance to see him in concert one last time, which would mean missing out on this one last chance to connect with Bobby in this way, even if just in spirit.

So he buys two tickets, because he knows that he can’t not go, but he can’t go alone. But he can’t go with Maddie, because she doesn’t like Springsteen, and he can’t go with Eddie, because he’d just be worried about how Buck is doing the whole time, and he can’t go with anyone else, really, because it just wouldn’t be the same, and there’s really only one person who he can even imagine bringing.

So yeah, he brings Chris to his first Springsteen concert. This is an activity for a father and his son, after all.

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Hey, he's gonna be okay. Thanks to you. You saved his life. It was a team effort.

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Bobby approving of Buck's relationship with Tommy!!

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1.08 // 8.16

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it's so fucking unfair. they only had five years married together. they should have had decades. they should have seen each other with deep wrinkles etched on their faces from years of smiling and laughing together. they should have been in the nursing home, seeking out adventures because larry down the hall is definitely running an illegal gambling ring out of his suite. they should have retired together, searched for hobbies to fill their time. they should have laughed with michael and david, athena and david groaning as bobby and michael defeat them in board games again and again. they should have seen their family expand, watched grandchildren grow together, from may or harry or buck. or they should have gone out together, because that's where they've been for five years, holding up each other up, supporting each other. but it's not fair. and athena's alone.

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bobby really did everything in that moment to protect buck. let him explicitly know he loved him. sent him away so he wouldn't have to witness his death. told him the others would need him to give him a purpose, a lifeline so he wouldn't drown in his grief.

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the way every fandom on twitter is uniting over bobby’s death and buckt*mmy

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#and fuck you, Tim Minear

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yeah idk man maybe i just don't like it when characters whose whole story is about choosing to live and overcoming suicidal ideation end up dying in a hero sacrifice. kinda leaves a bad taste in my mouth, not gonna lie.

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do you ever think about how Athena's lost all three of the men she loved and cry? cause I do

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911 fans: consider celebrating the filming of season 9 by participating in research of the fandom, created by a Penn State professor

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pls reblog for sample size 🥰