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I hope you’re doing okay because I’m not at all.

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Me: depression isn't bothering me

Also me: *forgets to eat, feels nothing for days, doesn't get out of the bedroom, either sleeps too much or not at all*

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what do u mean “what have i been up to” … i’m out here ruining my own life as always bitch

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Isn’t it weird how you can actually feel the pain in your chest and stomach when something really hurts your feelings

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do you ever feel like your heart needs a hug

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always the problem

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I've lost all control

Where's my soul

My minds a black hole

Whats my role

Will I ever be whole

Theres a darkness inside

Where my heart resides

And it's biding its time

Oh, im petrified

Can I drown myself in cyanide?

These racing thoughts are killing me

My mind is sinking

Into a state of uncertainty

Let me live in perversity

Until i find a sense of normalcy

So here's my confession

Because I may have forgot to mention

You were the exception

Now all the pain and apprehension

Has led to deception and depression

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I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying.

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I broke you... I'm sorry

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I’m begging you

Please

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I've spent hours obsessing over why I'm not good enough. Hours lost, standing in front of the mirror, studying my face and wondering if it's because I'm not pretty enough. Reading back old conversations and wondering if I'm annoying, too needy, too much. Will anyone ever stick around? I try so hard, but I'm just never worth it in the end.

broken thoughts | 2am