frombeneath-theskin

[frombeneath-theskin]

Ohmigoshdiddlydarn ok…. Ok….if people would stop spreading their blood around that would be great. My ONLY defense is liberal use of isopropyl alcohol. BLOOD BORN diseases are spread because of people who just bleed with no care in the world.

-this is a no disease corner. A clean corner if you will. 🫧

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I feel that being a Malk allows me the room to explore my own feelings. I sometimes say out-of-pocket things with full belief that I am right, and I feel that vtm allows me that safe space where it’s okay to feel the manic as it sets in.

"I don't like Malkavians because the mental illness stuff makes me uncomfortable". Oh the incest, torture, noncon, necrophilia, mind control, racism, homophobia, gore, homicide, abuse doesn't bother you? "but we shouldn't make light of that subject" We shouldn't make light of any of these subjects but if you argue that incest is okay because 'gothic horror' then get upset that someone made a malkavian inspired by elements of a real mental illness then I'm not sure what to say to you. People like clans they can connect to. Several trans people I know really like the Tzimisce because they can connect to the concept of molding the flesh into something they want to become. It's magical and it's okay. Some people like Malkavians because they like connecting to a character that has to navigate unlife with a unique condition that others often don't take seriously.

Malkavians are my favorite clan, but I and I know several other people who are scared to play them because malk players get bullied by the community when they come up with any derangement that isn't quirky random uwu smol and it's why you end up with so many fish-malk players. btw literally in the corebook for v5 (pg 76)

"All Malkavians suffer mental illness following the Embrace sometimes accentuating an existing condition, other times adding a new dimension to their instability." "As a rule, no other Kindred feels completely comfortable around a known Malkavian, often viewing them as unpredictable maniacs whose flashes of insight are rarely worth the fits of insanity."

The entire clan in lore has made others uncomfortable since its conception. If you're uncomfortable with mental illness there are much much darker themes the game addresses and I'm not sure WoD is the best setting for you.

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10 weeks of poster illustrations for my weekly challenge this year. honestly 2025 is shaping up to be the most I've ever drawn consistently in my life

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I said I was over them. But of course that was mostly to myself. If I let them know that, then they too think I would move on. And I can’t let that happen.

But I was recently told that just because they look like my long lost love doesn’t mean they are them. Which, I mean is kind of crazy. Cuz if they look like my long lost love do they not inhabit some of their characteristics? Like breathing? And walking? And general aliveness?

Just let me obsess. Gah!

-around that corner (Malkavian)🎭

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Can I keep a promise to myself? Or can I break it with out me knowing?

More at one tonight.

-somewhere 🪞

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I hate remembering that I’m in first person. Like getting hit with a bunch of adrenaline and fear. I grounded too hard.

I’m sorry if anyone lives like this all the time. Always present. Ick what do you do with all the physical sensations?

-the Malk from next door. 🫀

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normalize making insanely hot vampires that aren't toreadors

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Shadow work is not nearly as fun as the witch’s said it would be. They’re all like, “A new transformed you…“. “ Work through your issues…”

Well I still have issues and I don’t really feel all that transformed. Just more sad from the shattered glass in my head.

-The Malkavian from down the street. 🪡

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It’s an obsessive thought. Destructive. Pulling at the skin that held my hair. Disturbing thoughts. I would like to tear from my skin if possible.

This was the gift I have been given, to overthink. Stuck in a destructive pattern.

No sound left my lips, but a scream sitting crunch between my tongue and the roof of my mouth. A bruise developing on my pallet.

It was only the tip of the iceberg and its own very small, insignificant way. Enough to make me desperate.

A spider just larger than a dollar coin. Thoughts and obsession talking me through the best way to take care of this very large spider and without waking the house.

The world heats up mid October I should be cold and afraid of this spider.

Brown recluse?

Brush the crawling skin off me. Could be a hair. Could be the spider if I look away from it long enough.

Or how a hobo spider got inside, puzzles me.

House spider?

Can’t touch it, too big.

God, Blood is everywhere, it’s always everywhere. It’s dirty and a biohazard. I’m sure it hurts. Everything hurts.

Such a big spider.

I’m desperate. My house is crumbling under me. My safe space is being invaded by alien creatures whom don’t know that I have a ‘No spider zone’ within these four very private walls. It’s intruding, and not paying the rent.

It’s attempt to leave my view, only achieved to make my skin crawl and the deep desire to be able to fly or hover. I’ll take hover.

All I want is to sleep. But not near the spider. Never near the spider and no this is not a phobia. This is a manic feeling. The destructive, obsessive feeling of wanting to keep my space, safe and clear of invaders.

- The Malkavian from down the street. 🎭

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My therapist: So what do you do when you are sad to make it so your don't spiral?

Me: Ok so have you heard of vampire the masquerade?

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Time is so demanding. Like, literally, calm down. No need to count every second.

The Malkavian from down the street.

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You would think that blood just tastes like pennies but pennies really taste just like blood. I sometimes suck on them to watch my blood weight.

-a Malkavian whose super hungry rn

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i should be able to google "what's wrong with me" and have a detailed answer and a way to fix my problems

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This is the magic lucky word count. Reblog for creativity juice. It might even work, who knows.

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Did you know that I am full of fun facts? And that is a fun fact for ya!

-Malkavian from down the street 🌠

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You have to provide sense in a senseless world. At least I try to apply meaning to everything I do even if it doesn’t make sense. I wish I had the cents to make me make more sense to myself. The scents don’t make much of any if they don’t smell good. But I like the ones that do.

I think I just sent myself down a senseless scentful rabbit hole that doesn’t make much sense.

- The Malkavian down the street

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You will not use AI to get ideas for your story. You will lie on the floor and have wretched visions like god intended