ftladystardust

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yeah sorry that perpetual state of exhaustion my posture holds and the ever-growing bags under my eyes are from when I used to spend my life trying to change and get away with it instead of facing myself like a real man. no it will not go away. I hold that part of me close with pride. grief is a necessary part of growing I think

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“I don’t know how to set this up” girl we will be finding out together do you SEE this

my sweet mother has facetimed me about 15 times today asking how to use her phone. she raised a technologically challenged son that ALSO doesn’t know how to use his phone idk what she thinks I’m going to be able to assist her with

[ftladystardust]

my sweet mother has facetimed me about 15 times today asking how to use her phone. she raised a technologically challenged son that ALSO doesn’t know how to use his phone idk what she thinks I’m going to be able to assist her with

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“Have you seen this funny video-“ I SAW IT. PERFORMED LIVE AT THE ROYAL OPERA HOUSE. IN 1889. GO. AWAY.

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I love behaving like I’m 65+ in a 17 year olds body. yesssss I like my bedtime at 8:30pm and my joints creak everytime I stand up yessss I dream about retirement homes and knitting

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“I can’t fucking do this” - I mutter for the twentieth time as I continue to fucking do it

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Someone should publish a pronunciation guide for bookish children with words like boatswain, victuals, epitome and so forth. It could probably just be a slim pamphlet, but it would save a lot of nerds a lot of embarrassment down the line.

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"Absolutely no one comes to save us but us."

Ismatu Gwendolyn, "you've been traumatized into hating reading (and it makes you easier to oppress)", from Threadings, on Substack [ID'd]

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hit jackpot in goodwill today

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what if your doppelganger loved being you more than you ever loved being yourself. they're better at being you and everyone loves them and it feels almost selfish to want your life back. i want clone horror but the horror is that the thing trying to replace you is also the person you always wanted to be.

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it’s rotten work. to me if it’s me.

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my favorite thing to do is offroad my car into the middle of nowhere and stare at stars while listening to robbers by the 1975 on repeat and it’s made me come to the realization that most people do not build healthy coping mechanisms throughout their life. myself included

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guy who has chronic pain and fatigue: man why can't i do more stuff

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they need to invent a word worse than procastinating just for me

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every time i reread this i feel like icarus flying directly into the sun

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new organs coming out soon

medium intestine

gallkidneys

inferior vena cava

table of contents

semi-colon

die-r (opposite of liver)

pancreas 2