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Note: I am by no means a professional in health or otherwise. This is personal experience. I made this as a metaphor to help my parents understand me better.

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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my latest gamedev idea is "guy on the corner of the screen who gives you personalized tips when you die". original idea do not steal

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youre not yaoiful at all

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i love it when trans people

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Is this something?

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Guys why do all my dreams become musicals??? There was the one where I seduced Miku to get out of hell and now last night’s where I was flat out in Nerdy Prudes Must Die (but not npmd you hear me?)

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I’m feeling like some of y’all forget the term transneutral exists. If I have to see another posts acting like transfem and transmasc are the only groups of trans people ever I’m going to explode.

And if for whatever reason you want to talk specifically about amab nonbinary ppl/afab nonbinary ppl the terms MtX and FtX are right there.

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More stories from hell (retail) today I was ringing up this lady and she goes oh I want to do part of this on a gift card and the rest on normal card and I go ok and then she hands me a folded piece of paper. I think oh OK it must be folded around the gift card, right? Wrong. It is a folded sheet of 8×11 printer paper with "$40" written on the inside in ballpoint pen. I go what is this. She says a gift card. I say this is not a gift card. She says yes it is. I say this is a piece of paper with "$40" written on it. She says "well it's a gift card." I say it absolutely is not. I am grinding my teeth. She says well I want to use it. I say you physically cannot do that bc it is a piece of paper. I cannot scan or swipe it. I apologize, as if this is my fault, and not because she is completely insane. I hate it here

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“girlcock” this, “girlcock” that. what if I want to watch the corner of her eyes crinkle when she talks about the tv show she likes. what if I want her to be able to confide in me the things she never felt safe enough to tell anyone else.

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everytime i make a post about being a loser boy every transmasc ever reblogs it. come on we cant all be the loser boyfriend to a cool hot guy some of you have to be confident

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I hope nyall kno I wuv u rawr XD nuzzles UwU

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mary shelley: pours her heart and soul into the creature’s ability to eloquently express his deepest and most painful feelings to frankenstein through literal pages and pages of speech

modern media: makes the creature unable to utter anything but grunts and scary sounds

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plagues history and global epidemiology as an autistic special interest was already a heavy topic but not a day goes by I dont briefly recall drunkenly telling people at the bar in autumn 2019 “yeah the next pandemic will probably be a coronavirus and we’re due for one”

if they remember that i have to wonder if they think they met the devil at the club that night

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