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been a long time damn...

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Another Vflower drawing because uh yeah.

I made this for a magazine so now we hope it gets accepted, unfinished btw, I wanna colour it with watercolors (please wish me luck).

Pose inspired in a Len card from pjsk.

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vflower

Nothing to say

Just a vflower drawing/sketch, will probably lineart with a black pen but for now it'll stay like this. Btw this was inspired in that one mizuki card.

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shidou ryusei

Sketch because I don't wanna color this

I am scared I fuck this up when coloring so I'm just gonna leave it like this, not really tho. I wanna use a black pen and do the lineart, tho I don't have one rn. If I like the result I'll post it do uhh... stay updated I guess...?

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How can i be happy?

I want to write happy things But I don't know how It's like every time I try to It turns all dark and foggy again Even when I try to be happy There's something bugging my eyes There's a voice telling me stuff Telling me I'll die alone, telling me I won't be happy. How am I supposed to feel happy? How am I supposed to ignore this, Ignore the fog covering my eyes Ignore the chains keeping me to the ground Ignore the bottom of the floor I'm hitting Ignore how my chest feels heavy Ignore the pain that covers my body The scars that I have on my arms How do I ignore this bad feeling How do I ignore getting worse Can I ignore something like that? Can I be happy?

Can I write happy things? Is happy even a thing?

How do you feel happy?

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my day be so fine then boom ivantill alien stage

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wlw/mlm hostility 💥

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Dont fucking expose us dude

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sweet dreams

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me watching round 7:

When I tell you I started crying laughing drawing Ivan like this. He’s so out of character 😭😭 I love Ivan so much how do you think they reacted to till losing

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she's all alone...

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CAUSE BABY STILL IS NOT ENOUGH

I MADE THIS SKETCH OF TILL AND THANKS GOD I SAVED A PIC OF IT BECAUSE I FUCKED UP WHEN COLORING (I'm a digital artist and can't color with colour pencils!!) but hey I might trace this digitally so I don't have trouble shading and colouring it lmao :).

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“If you ignore your feelings they will get your attention in other ways.”

— Kathy Kalina

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Despise

I tried to make my mother proud,

But it never worked.

No matter what I did or what I tried to do

Either I was bad at this or lacked that.

It started hurting.

Her words were like knives.

It left scars, bigger scars than what I already had.

It felt as if nothing would change.

I despised it. I despised myself. I despised myself for not being able to change.

For not being able to get better.

It hurt me.

But it hurt her too.

And I despise myself for it.

For instead of making my mom happy,

Making her worry.

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The same brain that tried to kill you will one day save your life